Amborella trichopoda
Vergleich: Siehe: Laurales
[Jan Scholten]
Number: 61111.01
Series: Hydrogen series; emphasis on Hydrogen series.
Glades: Amborellaceae; Amborellales.
Phase: 1; Subphase: 1.
Stage: 1.
Introduction
The theme can be that of a very vague kind of existence. It is like an
experience without action, just being.
Sense proving, 30-10-2012, between Los Angelos and Detroit, Melanie
Grimes.
Prover1
Happy bouncy expectant.
Homesick. Seeking water.
Alone, like a small child looking for parent but content and safe right
now. Don't know where parent is and not worried about it.
Kindergarten
Snow flakes.
Innocence. Like a boy in school yard chasing a girl but doesn't yet know
why he does it
Dry. Tingly. Sparkly. Not an itch but an excitement of nerves. Tingly a
bit.
I taste it. A bit astringent. Chalk like, lemony. Dry. Same sensation of
a tingly numbness.
Chalky creamy as if I'd had milk in my mouth. This lasts a while the
creamy feeling in my mouth.
I feel a bit bored and want to dp something different.
Creamy lemony sensation continues.
Fingers feel a bit sticky.
White foam. Like snow, like sea?
In a shady spot on a sandy beach under a larger sheltering tree.
Pulsing in fingers holding the flower. Left hand first finger. Because I
squeezed them too hard or from the proving?
I feel impatient having to write this up from my hand written notes.
Continue to have a lonely happy feeling like in kindergarten. Don't know
that there are things to worry about (retarded). Life is simple and fun. Like a
box of new crayons.
I am part of the group without knowing the group.
Still amorphous personally. Merging with the rest of the class. We are
one. All in sync together.
There must be a teacher but she is around.
We are children playing in a group. Merging with each other, happy
contend.
Like lights on a Christmas tree.
Some slight nausea. Maybe drowsy, not sure.
A bit anxious to move on, as if this is not enough but I don't know why.
I want to stop doing this proving because I am a bit bored like talking to a
child, it's not
very satisfying. I want more. I am not fascinated, attention wandering,
though the child still needs some of my attention. And I am responsible, like
for a niece or nephew, not my child.
Or I am baby sitting and want the parents to come back so I can so
something else. I feel bad for feeling this way, as if I should be more
engaged, but the child is not needy, just needs
my presence. Not much more of me, no talk, or interesting talk, so I am
bored. Like a sleeping child and I can't leave but nothing to do while I stay. Want to move on but to
where? I don't feel
trapped. Not restless. Like I'm too tired to do anything anyway, but not
physically tired.I wish I was somewhere else and didn't have this little
boredom. Even though it's easy and not occupying
much of me.
Still the little responsibility restricts me, so I cannot do anything
bigger and I am resentful but I cannot picture anything I'd rather do.I am like
a teenager with no date, no boyfriend,
nothing better to do on a Saturday night and this is what bugs me. I
have nothing better to do.I remember feeling this way as a baby sitter when I
was and the kids were asleep and parents were out for night having fun and I
had to stay awake until they got home for a little bit of money and I really didn't
like to baby sit but had nothing else to do. It was all I could do for a job
though it didn t suit me at all. I was tired but had this stupid job to do.
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