[Kees Dam]
In April 1997 speaking at a large
congress "Homeopathy for the World" in Berlin (of all places), George
Vithoulkas proclaimed that the sake and credibility
of homeopathy was not served by
using remedies like Berlin Wall.
When I heard of the remedy Berlin Wall for the first time (I think about a year
before the verdict of George) I had exactly the same feeling initially.
Fortunately I didn't have a podium
at that time to condemn this remedy in public. In may '97 I was on an
international homeopathic meeting (Soeria) where
about 15 homeopaths exchanged their homeopathic "peak" experiences.
An Irish colleague Declan Hammond told of his experiences with Berlin Wall. His
Berlin Wall story really took me and as soon as I was back home I ordered the
remedy and started a proving.
Today I want to share our proving
experiences and some cases. For me Berlin Wall has become a remedy with polychrest qualities in quite a short time.
[Declan Hammond]
From the provings
and the dozens of cases in his practice, Declan Hammond gives the following
picture (after 2 years of experience):
• Forsaken and SEPARATION is the
general symptom in all patients. An unbearable oppression from outside which
causes an explosion or an implosion in the patient; huge despair.
• Oppression (political, family,
abuse-sexual, religious, being bullied) and perceiving themselves as victims, stiffled in their creativity.
• States of possession (Stram. Bell. Hyos).
• Children of ambitious parents who
are pushed (Carc).
• Caring professions which give rise
to burn out and/or brain deadness.
• Acutes:
with overwhelming opposition: hospitals, court situations.
• Indescribable evil/darkness.
• Not showing anything: MASKS,
unsmiling.
• Suspicious, uneasy, shifty eyes;
cannot look you in the eye.
• Hangdog of head, beaten.
• Frequent weeping, tears just flow;
sense of numbness or despair over them.
• Deep grief which cannot be
accessed, unspoken, but it hangs in the air.
• Depression, sense of blackness,
total isolation, aloneness, despair.
• Panic, need to escape but they
can't. TERROR.
• Feel brainwashed, lack the courage
to break free, unable to break from the past (intercurrent
remedy for helping to connect to past inaccessible trauma's).
• Everything will fail; despair of
recovery.
• Painlessness (Op. Stram. Hell).
• Aggression against themselves
(drugs, alcohol, drive a car into a confronting car, smash themselves into the
wall).
• Impulsivity - anything can happen
(Merc. Prot).
• Aggression to others or animals
(fascinated by it). Child who hangs a cat with a rope around the neck to see
what happens (daughter of A.P.).
• Deceit.
• Guilt, not resolvable.
Physicals
• ASTHMA, crushing on chest,
suffocation.
• Headache, deep crushing, congestion,
bursting with depression and photophobia; gives the feeling of being cut off
and isolated.
• After strokes, for parts not
connected yet again.
• Temporary blindness and deafness
in emotional situations.
• Stiffness of joints-swelling:
"a claw coming into it".
• Dupuytren.
• Emptiness, a hole in the gut
(ulcers).
• Narcolepsia
(20 hrs a day).
• Insomnia.
• After well indicated remedies
fail, to open up a case.
• As an intercurrent.
Our own provings
and experiences with Berlin Wall
With the above information of Declan
Hammond we started our search into the mysteries of the Berlin Wall. One of the
first things you ask yourself: "Will there be a difference in
remedy-picture between Berlin Wall and a piece of concrete from your own garage
wall?" Emotionally you are inclined to say: "Yes, of course",
but rationally you may have your doubts (like George had) because the material
is chemically the same.
There is only one final answer and
that is the experiential-scientific one: prove it and see if there are specific
German themes coming up or specific Berlin Wall issues. I will start to give
some history of the Berlin Wall.
History
In 1961 on the 13th of
August the wall was built in one night. It was meant to prevent people from
East Germany going to West Germany. For economic and political reasons millions
of people left the communist east and sought their salvation in the
capitalistic west and Berlin was "the leak" in the iron curtain where
people crossed the border. Berlin Wall stands for division, intense fear,
suspicion, the worst of the cold war (the place where the cold war got hot),
KGB-FBI, intrigues, betrayal, spying. In total, 588 deaths were registered from
trying to cross the wall (over or under it).
In 1990 the wall was broken down and
a Berlin man sent a piece of the Wall to a friend in England. He put it in a
drawer and after 2 years he found it again and this man being a homeopath
(Martin Miles) got a God-given idea to potentize it
and do a proving with it.
From the book "The Berlin
Wall" by Norman Gelb (Publ. Michael Joseph Ltd 1986): "It is more
than just an account of the splitting of a city. It is also the story of power
politics and thermo-nuclear threat.
It was played out in Washington,
Moscow, London and Paris as well as Germany. Berlin was after all, the place
described by Soviet Premier Nikita Krushchev as
"the testicles of the West. When I want the West to scream, I squeeze on
Berlin". It was the place about which President John F. Kennedy growled,
"If Krushchev wants to rub my nose in the dirt,
it's all over". Berlin was where the Cold War had begun with a Soviet
blockade, where Soviet and American tanks faced each other virtually
snout-to-snout for the first, and hopefully the only time, and where the grisly
game of nuclear brinkmanship was introduced. For a brief moment, the Berlin
Wall was the focus of the whole world's attention. Spawned in an atmosphere of
bluster and defiance, it generated a mood of deepest anxiety and profoundest
despair. Everywhere, hawks and doves debated its significance and consequences.
The great Wall of Berlin is more than just an emotionally charged geopolitical
spectacle. Made of reinforced concrete, ten to thirteen feet high, it is a
remarkable structure. Meandering through the heart of the metropolis, turning
corners, winding and bending, it hacks the old capital of Germany into two
distinct entities, and then curls to enfold all the western half of Berlin in
its concrete embrace. If straightened, the Wall would measure 103 miles long,
which is greater than the distance from New York to Philadelphia or London to
Calais.
(Proving)
Themes of Berlin Wall
I will give a summary of the proving
and cured symptoms of Berlin Wall arranged in themes. (f-pr = female prover; m = male; * = dream)
Germany - Berlin Wall issues
* About a German acquaintance, a guy
I always detested - he was very dominant, nervous, neurotically precise. Now in
the dream I could see his other, nice side. I realised you can get used to
someone. (f-pr. 3)
• On the 13th of august
('97) I was feeling awful all day, at night on the television news I heard that
it was exactly 27 (?36-PtB) years ago that the Berlin Wall was erected. (f-pr.
3)
• More oriented to German
television, even a little "homesick" for Germany (was not born
there), some "Weltschmerz" feeling. A better understanding of Germans
in general. (f-pr. 3)
* I am in a new room, a stranger,
nobody wants to have anything to do with me. German language is spoken. The
room is a kind of cellar, half underground. They cannot see me really, there is
something with their eyes. I want to touch people all the time I detest that in
myself. (f-pr 1)
• Concerning male-female attraction
a working woman remarks: "Wer hat denn keine Sehnsucht"
(Who doesn't have desire). (f-pr 1)
Wall - Separation (Curative:
breaking down the wall)
• It struck me that all of a sudden
I experience men quite differently, nicer, softer, more friendly. It was so
striking that I could not ignore it. It even happened to me that when a man
explained the path he laid his hand in a very friendly and tender way on my
shoulder during the whole of his explaining. (curative symptom f-pr 2)
• All the people I met I could very
distinctly divide in two groups: one group open to contact and one group with
no contact with the outside world but sticking in their own world. It seemed
there were only those two extremes, nothing in between. (f-pr 2)
• Sensation as if there is a wall,
an incredible distance between the people I really love and me. I cannot go to
the people I really want to be with. It is a big suffering. (f-pr 3)
• Holding the remedy for a while
gives a tremendous rise of grief and sadness, so huge you would drown in it.
(curative sympt f-pr 1)
• A suppressed ("walled
off") grief about financial problems thirty years ago (he never told his
wife about that time because he didn't want to bother her with that) came up,
he wept over it for the first time together with his wife. After that he was
less irritable and more tender towards his wife. (curative symptom in a 75
years old m-pt)
• Don't come near me. Men only want
to plunder you and burn you down; absolutely no sex. (f-pr 5)
• Basically I have a strong desire
for love. Don't leave me, stay with me, but in my solar plexus area I feel,
don't touch me. (f-pr 5)
* My brother and sister lived with
me in the same house and we could get along very well (in reality far from
that). (curative/wishful symptom f-pr 3)
* I am standing on a long, lonesome
and straight road that cleaves the landscape right through. (f-pr 2)
• Often the feeling during this
proving that my inner world suffices, I can live there, what lives inside of me
that is enough. I don't need to belong to the outside world. Things that live
inside me do not have to be expressed in the outside world. (f-pr 2)
• I suddenly understand very
thoroughly why I have to smoke. In a shop I got furious when a woman didn't
wait for her turn. I could not utter a word (fortunately the anger stays
inside, the anger is not in proportion to the incident). I immediately feel the
need for a cigarette to get control over my emotions again. Smoking is a
protection, it is keeping my emotions inside. If I would stop smoking, I would
feel my emotions vehemently and I am afraid I can't handle it. (f-pr 2)
Lack of a Wall/Structure/Separation
- (Curative: setting clear borders)
• Immediately when touching the
remedy I feel more at ease, I feel a separation between my energy and the
energy of the other/the outside. (curative symptom f-pr 5)
• Refusal to involve myself in a man-woman
relation if it is not absolutely pure. (f-pr 5)
*Together with my father I am in a
barren, flat, empty meadow landscape with as many ditches as land, the water in
the ditches is just as high as the land, a very disagreeable landscape. There
is no horizon. My father says that he doesn't believe in God or that he thinks
he doesn't believe in God anymore (in reality very religious). (m-pr 6)
•After touching the remedy could not
find my home again, lost my way, could not go to work the next day feeling as
if things from the war came up again. (pt)
•On my way to a (known) restaurant I
lost my way in the red light district. I am lost, then I see a telephone number
to rent a prostitute-window-room. I have the impulse to note it down with the
feeling this is the only thing left for me. (f-pr 1)
*There is a big heap of sand before
my house-door, it is so high that it is on window level. Anybody could walk in
by the window. This gives me a very unsafe feeling (known old anxiety).
Yesterday many old ailments came back: headache, a coryza,
a stressed feeling, burning spots on my head. This morning they are all gone.
(m-pr 8)
Mother
* An ideal mother, she came to my
bed and really comforted me without making me pitiful and she promised me to
learn something the next day (things she never did when I was young). (curative
symptom f-pr 1)
* I am walking with my mother at the
Lake of Geneva (where we used to go on holiday in my youth) and I was amazed
that it felt so good between us. Then I see an aeroplane crashing in the lake,
there is an explosion; 16 people get severely injured and later succumb and
die. (f-pr 1)I am in the bedroom of my parents and my mother wants contact with
me. I agree and in the beginning it goes fine, but then she comes to close and
on top of me: "Listen, you have to listen" (she tries to convince me
anxiously). I want more distance, space and I send her away downstairs and tell
her that I will come down later. She goes and it feels good. Then I come
downstairs. My mother stands in a narrow corner in the kitchen. We embrace each
other and I feel that my mother gets filled again, fulfilled, more in
proportion, she comes in her body, and she is not a flat disk anymore. Then she
gets too blown up and I notice that she is clinging to me. I feel I am
disappearing and that I don't want that. I want to get free from her again and
when I want to step away from her I notice with fright that our bellies are
stuck together. I do not panic and I am standing still and observe carefully
how it feels and then I do a step backwards and am free. (curative symptom f-pr
1)
* In my first sleep I wake up and I
hear my daughter very distinctly call (as if for help) "Mamma". It
turned out to be my hallucination. (pt)
* My mother and me are lying on the
beach, she lies very close to me. I think I have to allow that. But then she
touches me between my legs, very soft and tender, she progresses further and
then back and then further and on. I don't like it at all, but don't say
anything. My mother is in no way sexually excited or something like that. (f-pr
1)
* My mother and me on the beach
again, now it is getting flood and my mother floats away into the sea, but is
washed ashore again by the waves. My feeling is, "What do I have to
do?" (f-pr 1)
* Vision: a mother of flesh and
blood, three-dimensional, not a flat stripe. (f-pr 1)
Comment: The theme of mother seems
to be a major theme in B.W. ("disentanglement" from mother). The
setting of borders, this is mine, that is yours.
Almost always the mother-theme is
last to be solved in the end stages of the process. In our experience Thuja has been the "bottom" remedy for this
(Confusion of identity - loosing yourself), but Berlin Wall and also the Lac's are sometimes indispensable complements.
Male - Female identity/division
• Very obsessed with male and female
identity issues like (compensatory) male parts in women.
* Concerning male-female attraction
a working woman says: "Wer hat denn keine Sehnsucht"
(Who doesn't have desire). (f-pr 1)
• The stiffness in my shoulders
("the coat-hanger sensation") is less, also as if I have to move and
talk less demonstrative when I am stressed. I associated this before with a
part of my father that I took over to survive, but that is not me (he was
always very loud, dominating and impressively present). As if I had to put up
my male defence against this otherwise I was turned into a zombie and I would
have disappeared like my mother. (curative symptom f-pr 1)
* In an exclusive Japanese
Restaurant a female patient of mine is sitting at a table (she is a male-like
lesbian woman). With her arms she makes a few rough, angular movements.
"This is the male Japanese" she says, but there is also a female
version of this restaurant where I want to eat with you some other time. And
now she makes elegant, round, female gestures and her shoulders get exposed.
This gives me a very relaxed feeling. (f-pr 1)
Sexual Perversion
* A man pulls his trousers down (in
company) and wanted to have anal coition with a woman, who seemed not daring to
refuse. (m-pr 4)
* Someone (a man) is urinating over
my body and is sexually excited by it. (f-pr 1)
• Feeling of sexual lust, my legs
wide apart, as if drunk, no inhibitions at all. (f-pr 5)
War - Violence - Cruelty
* There is a medical team together
with a police force. It is Monday morning and the corpses have to be cleared
away. There are a lot of half dissected bodies just at the side of the road.
Out of sheer cussedness the police drives over the corpses, the corpses splash
open. I see open chests with the aorta branches curved downwards like walking
canes. I have the opportunity to go along with them and to enjoy my anatomy
hobby, but unfortunately I already have another appointment. (m-pr 6)
* I am walking with my mother at the
Lake of Geneva (where we used to go on holiday in my youth) and I was amazed
that it felt so good between us. Then I see an aeroplane crashing in the lake,
there is an explosion, 16 people get severely injured and later succumb and
die. (f-pr 1)
Eyes/See/Soul versus Blind/filtered
• Last night I had the feeling I was
blind, I opened the curtains a little and realised/saw I was not. (f-pr 1)
* I am in a new room, a stranger,
nobody wants to have anything to do with me. German language is spoken. The
room is a kind of cellar, half underground. They cannot see me really, there is
something with their eyes. I want to touch people all the time, I detest that
in myself. (f-pr 1).
* I am in a tent (like on holidays
in my youth) with my parents and all of a sudden I perceive the situation just
as it was in my youth. I see that when I was about nine years old I had a kind
of filters before my eyes, like a kind of contact lense
or film over my eyes. I think now I don't need these anymore, but then I did.
Now I can see the whole situation objectively from the outside. The family
structure, the hierarchy between my father and mother, myself as a defenceless
child. (f-pr 1)
* My friend is lying on bed and
looks me in the eyes, I am standing at the head-end of the bed and bow over. I
can see through his eyes and see the whole of his past, his youth. I can see to
the inside of his soul. It is an eye contact as never before. (A day before I
already felt quite compassionate with his problems and past). (f-pr 1)
* Vision: two astronauts and a UFO
with very modern equipment especially in relation to eye-technique
(laser/photography). (f-pr 1)
• Together with my daughter I made
two masks. One mask I made with glasses, on the other I made 5 eyes. (f-pr 2)
* I must find back the lenses of a
certain person otherwise he cannot see. I look for them in a drawer. (f-pr 2)
* In a small aeroplane we take off
in the night. We are flying into the night. During the flight I reassure a man
(patient of my husband) who is frightened of everything he cannot experience
visually. Every motion and vibration of the aeroplane I recognise because I
have flown before in daytime with this aeroplane, so I can explain everything
that happens to him. I love the rising of the plane penetrating through the
clouds. I love the flying. The plane is offering very little protection, it is
only metal without any isolation and we can even feel for a moment a draft from
outside. Then we have flown through the night and are coming into the morning.
I am surprised that we are already in the morning so quickly. I look through
the window and see the night in a blotting black behind us. This is the most
beautiful and impressive image from the dream. The most beautiful feeling is
recognising every movement, vibration blindly which makes me feel very at ease.
(curative sympt. f-pr 2)
• In a book I happen to read
something that strikes deeply, "For to see it is not enough to keep the
eyes open, one has also to trust and believe the eyes and what one sees.
Nothing is making us more blind than a firm belief in what one already knows,
in spite of what the eyes observe. Any knowledge within the reach of mankind is
paired with selective blindness." (f-pr 2)
Comment: a wall takes away your
sight, especially a blind wall. You cannot see what is on the other side. The
wall is there to protect you from seeing what is on the other side because to
see that would be too painful, you would not survive. A wall casts also a
shadow on what is behind it. It is providing darkness (night, unconscious), it
prevents (traumatic) things coming to light (consciousness).
Berlin Wall gives you the emotional
strength to see and survive the sight, it gives you eyes.
Speed - Steep
* I have to climb a very steep
street. Just before the top a couple comes towards me with a dog. The moment
the dog sees me he breaks loose and from sheer playfulness he jumps against me,
I fall and threaten to slide down the hill. I have to keep the dog away, and at
the same time I play with him and laugh. With my right hand I hold on to a
cobblestone. The man of the couple amuses himself, the dog never does this and
he makes a picture.
If I get up and the dog too, I see
that his hair turns red (just as red as my own). (f-pr 1)
* We are going down a very steep
hill, almost vertically down, on a kind of skateboard with wheels and a
steering wheel. I am steering and my mother sits behind me and clings to me in
a cramp. I have to descend very carefully and concentrated and I succeed. I
think it is a good thing that I am in front, I have at least overview, and my
mother would only get into a total panic. (curative symptom f-pr 1).
* Everything in high speed. (f-pr 1)
* I am skating on an endless plain
of ice that is ending in the water of the sea. I think I have to stop now otherwise
I will end up in the water. I succeed. (f-pr 1)
* Together with my husband I run in
a wood, hand in hand (in reality a lot of trouble with husband). (curative
symptom?. case 6)
* K. is riding in a car and I am
sitting beside him. He drives on the right side over a bridge, and then he
bumps into the railing with his right front wheel. The car climbs up from its
own, gets over the railing and crashes down. I don't feel anything, but I know
this is the end. The car and we are totally crashed as if a road-roller had
gone over it. It all happened so fast (as if I didn't get the time to wake up
before the crash). (f-pr 1)
* I want to eat something and see a
sign for a restaurant. I have to go down with an elevator. It goes down in a
terrible speed and I have to hold myself on to big black cables (like in skilifts) and have to be constantly alert to grab the next
one in time. In the end I come on a kind of flat plain and see an endless way
ahead of me. I get a nasty feeling and I ask a big fat American who is standing
on the other side where this is leading. He says it is still thousands of
kilometres and they do it on purpose because you have to pay for every
kilometre. I didn't want that, but he said you are not allowed to turn back.
I'll help you, they don't grab me. Just hide behind my back. We went back, the caissiere looked at me quite suspiciously, but let me go
anyway.
Cold (War); Ice - Suspicion
* It is winter and there was snow,
it was very cold. I am on my way to R., a friend (who in reality is very
difficult to reach). I can't find my way, then I come by my mother and she
tells me the way to R. She tells me to drop by on my way back to eat a bowl of
warm soup because it is so cold. When I get to R., we are going for a walk in
the dunes. In the dream there is something threatening about him. I am tired,I sit and lie down. R. also lies down beside me and
touches me. I say I want to go. He puts a hand on my chest. I feel suffocated
and squared. I want to stand up, but I am paralysed in my lower back or I am
stuck to something. I say I want to go to my mother because she is familiar to
me. R.'s hand is not filled with love, but is as an
iron arm of a robot that is why I am squared. (f-pr 3)
Perfectionism - "Ordnung muss sein"
• I want to clean and order
everything in the house. Chaos gives fear, everything has to be settled and
very precise. It is a kind of ordering to myself. (f-pr 3)
* I am in an aeroplane and make a
fuss about a toilet that I think is dirty, I didn't want to use it that way.
(f-pr 3)
Comment: Perfectionism can be seen
as bringing (extreme) structure (building walls) to prevent the fear of chaos.
Exclusive/Expensive/Money/Heavy-solid
* In a big villa on top of a hill, a
friend and me are babysitting. My friend goes out shopping and I take care of
the children and the house. When she comes back via thick, solid stone steps at
the backside of the house, it is my turn to go out shopping. It is very
important not to forget to lock the front door with an old (fashioned) rusty
solid key. I went down the road and passed all kinds of shops with beautiful
clothes. I wanted to buy for at least Dfl 3.000, but
unfortunately I had only Dfl 250. (f-pr 1)
Other symptoms
• Fear sexual energy is going to
escalate. (f-pr 2)
* The word: SYMBOL kept repeating
.(f-pr 2)
• Very frustrated when things went
wrong. Frustration seems to be a characteristic of this remedy. I cannot deal
with it, but also a feeling that I have to go through my frustrations. I must
confront them and do something about it .(f-pr 2)
• The feeling that "having to
win" is another important theme of Berlin Wall. (f-pr 1) Comment: one
could see winning as the other side (= overcoming the "walls") of
frustration.
• Weeping about incidents in youth.
Throwing doors with feelings of powerlessness, anger (Staphysagria
like). (f-pr 2)
• Weepy, with the speed of one tear
per hour, but still ameliorating. (f-pr 2)
• Desire to work at night
(quietness, more in contact with myself). (f-pr 2)
• I harden when I feel no emotional response
from the other person (husband). When I have given up hope after waiting a long
time I become as hard as concrete, inexorable. (f-pr 2)
• Feeling a very deep contact with
myself, afraid I will get addicted to the remedy. (curative symptom f-pr 2)
• I am drawn to buy light yellow
clothing during this remedy proving. (f-pr 2)
• I often caught myself smiling
(especially the first days of the proving). (f-pr 2)
• During the first contact with the
remedy I can feel its energy going to the site of my bronchitis. Stays there
for a while and then suddenly it penetrates me very deeply. It touches
something, like a deep hurt. (f-pr 2)
Physicals
• Frequent urination; must hasten or
will urinate. (f-pr 3)
• Irritation right little
toenail-edge. (f-pr 3)
• Perspiration night. (f-pr 3)
• A jerking muscle in the left elbow
and jerks of my right arm in sleep. (f-pr 1)
• Pain in left eye, motion <.
(f-pr 1)
• (Illusion of) the smell of
vanilla. (m-pr 4)
• Acute smell. (f-pr 2)
• Desire pepper salami.
• Cough at night, with green sputum.
(f-pr 2)
• Stiff and painful over whole body
morning on waking. (f-pr 2)
• Dizziness. (f-pr 2)
• Pain lower back radiating to lower
abdomen and hips. A pain like labour pain, in waves, burning; sitting <,
lying >, beginning motion <, continued motion >. (f-pr 2)
• Burning, shooting pains at the
surface at the level of the left hip. (f-pr 2)
• Constriction throat before sleep.
(f-pr 2)
• Back as if broken, as having slept
in a too soft bed, morning on waking. (f-pr2)
• Cramping in uterus, at night (as
before beginning menses). (f-pr 2)
• Headache above right eye during
menses, pressing amel. (f-pr 2)
• Headache above and behind left eye
while running. (m-pr 7)
• Headache is worsening with cold
chills, warm bath>. I have to lie down from the pain and fall asleep. (f-pr
2)
• Terrible itching about the front
side of the elbows. (m-pr 8)
• Pain in old scars, <<
touching skin around it. (f-pr 9)
• Heavy menses (blood running down
the legs) and headache, provoked by BW 30 were immediately gone after Berlin
Wall LM 1. (f-pr 2)
Summary Picture of Berlin Wall
In the next article the given cases
give some indication in what kind of problems Berlin Wall can be of use. Very
often Berlin Wall is a very valuable intercurrent (Nat-m.)
in cases where traumatic incidents from the past have been walled off and where
the indicated remedy didn't or insufficiently touched those trauma's. We have
seen two kinds of types reacting well on Berlin Wall.
1. The "wall" types,
closed, walled off, impenetrable; sometimes with barbwire on it ("don't
touch me"). DD.: Nat-m. other muriaticums,
Sepia, Aurum's, Calcarea's,
Lac's.
2. The "borderless" types,
they lack a wall. Everything and everybody can walk in, defenceless. No
structure, therefore confusion and panics.
The walls in type 2 are not against
the outside world, they have been erected inside against the unresolved
traumatic experiences from the past that are lurking in the unconscious and
trying to emerge to consciousness. Most of them have reacted on Thuj. Phos. Stram.
Lac's, Hydrogen or hallucinogens (Anh.
Cann-i) in the past. After Berlin Wall they have the
ability to set clear borders, they often can "see" clearly now (and
painfully) how it really was (The theme of eyes in Berlin Wall). You can see
type 1 as a compensation/compulsion surviving mechanism of type 2. If you lack
natural borders the most logic defence is building an impenetrable wall
(nothing can come in and nothing goes out).
The deepest delusion of Berlin Wall
is probably not being able to make a distinction (a natural border) between
himself and the other person. The Berlin Wall person very easily lets the other
person inside of himself (no border) and then sees (and judges) himself from
the other person's perspective. The repertory rubric: ‘Fear, observed, of her
condition being’ is one of the expressions of this problem. It is interesting
to see that Calcarea, Lapis -c-b, Lapis-mar-c are all
in this rubric, all stony substances, also Berlin Wall can be added (see case 1).
Germany in the form of Germanium is also present in this rubric.
Discussion
After this presentation of Berlin
Wall on the boat trip the atmosphere in the group changed from one of harmony
and mutual understanding into a discordial one (a
proving symptom of Berlin Wall?). One party had some kind of an averse feeling
towards the remedy arguing that we can also start proving the rope of a ship or
prison wall(s). One participant confessed that she was quite angry when hearing
that her husband was prescribed Berlin Wall, it being a "non-remedy".
The other side claimed Berlin Wall to be the materialised (manmade) concept in
the outer world of (the inner) separating, dividing walling off
(survival)mechanism present in most western civilized (wo)men
and therefore a potentially deep acting remedy for a lot of patients. The
discussion got a bit "emotional" in which I (being in one of the
parties) got the feeling I was not heard, as if talking to a wall and therefore
could not hear anymore. If I cannot hear anymore the other party will get the
feeling of not being heard, as if talking to a wall. Fortunately we could dance
our walls away in the evening. I must confess that the same controversial
feelings were elicited in me when I heard of Berlin Wall as a homeopathic
remedy for the first time. My "Berlin Wall" was broken down when I
trusted and believed my eyes seeing the effects of Berlin Wall as a homeopathic
remedy.
Unlike Androct.
Tarant. or Anac., where the
intensity of the situation causes individuals to attack or show signs of
malice, the remedy, Berlin Wall, was more a defence posture and not a survival
strategy of attack. This difference marks out the distinct qualities of Berlin
Wall, since I suspect this defence strategy arises from an innate sensitivity in
the Berlin Wall patient, who finds his emotional self too difficult to confront
or express and so the energy becomes channelled into the aggressive pursuit of
excellence for its own sake. This is a dramatic overcompensation for the anger
felt probably at the incomprehensible nature of ‘his childhood war zone’.
There is a huge amount of obstinacy arising from this posture of walling off
their emotions, but we do not find indignation, just an indifference and an
ability to ‘tunnel their perspectives’ and ignore anything detrimental to their
outlook.
Those who suffer from family strife
and oppression (childhood/brought up in the shadow of an oppressor/paternal,
physical +/or sexual abuse).
Unspoken or inaccessible grief. Dumb suffering.
Sense of being unable to escape (suppressed personal + creative expression).
Creativity is stifled, ridiculed or pressed into the service of something else.
Opportunities and talents wasted by ruthless ambition of parents.
Depression of unspoken origin. Often + severe headaches. Older patients can be
out of touch with the causes for their long held grief and depression. For
those who can't tell fact from fiction within their lives due to brainwashing
effect of the oppressor's influence.
Sense of inappropriate guilt. Alcoholism (liquor used as escape).
Enormously aggressive energy; hurried with apparent purpose but signifying
little.
Impulsive: children who have a desire to inflict physical hurt on others (Anac). The impulse is part of a fascination with cruelty (Anac is basically insecure, Berlin Wall is not here
concerned about the ego).
Self destructive tendencies for those who have an impulse to ram their car into
a lorry or a wall; or who would like to experience jumping from a height
without a parachute.
For those who use drugs to increase their enjoyment in the power of their
aggressive creative energy.
Far sighted entrepreneurial types (workaholics) who can see the obvious dangers
of their life style but enjoy it in spite of the inevitable destructive
quality.
Righteous anger spiritual pride: Staph = C.
Suspicious; expects the worst; constant state of fear.
For those who live a life of perpetual mortification as well as those who
perpetrate the situation. For the victims of bullies and bureaucracy.
Inability to escape so they try and lose themselves in mundane work
Syphilitic and Tubercular
For overbearing, tyrannical types who constantly complain about the pathetic
and feeble nature of those in their charge and do nothing to alleviate the
situation.
Thema: Win-win;
Lösung: positiv:
Connecting # seperating; negativ: Masking/walling off;
Kind: Children
of ambitious parents who are pushed (Carc.);
Positiv: Nice/soft/friendly/tolerate others
who come to close;
Negativ: Forsaken/separated/mask/oppressed
[from outside (political/family/mother/sexual/Sekte/Neo-faschisten/mobbing/bullied)
which causes an ex-/implosion]/perceiving self as victim/terror/lack of
structure/overstructured/traumatic
incident/impenetrable/borderless/clear borders,
Forsaken/SEPARATED/DESpair.x; stiffled in
creativity/(partly) not connected (out-/inward). Bonsaigruppe./inner world suffices/don’t have to
be expressed in the outside world/no need to belong to the outside world. Angry
inside + not in proportion.
Caring professions resulting in burn
out +/o. brain deadness
Blinded/”Brett vor
dem Kopf” schützt for
painful inside/
Type A: The “wall” types, closed, walled off,
impenetrable; sometimes with barbwire on it ("don’t touch me").
Type B: The “borderless” types, they lack a wall.
Everything and everybody can walk in, defenceless. No structure, therefore
confusion and panics. (Thuja/Phos/Stram/Lacs/Hydrog/Anh/Cann-i)
Ursache: Stroke/emotional situations
(temporary blind/deaf);
Komplementär: Staph (
Repertory:
Gemüt: Abrasive + suspicious/states of
possession (Stram/Bell/Hyos)
“As if brainwashed”/lack of courage
to break free (past/inaccessible trauma’s).
Overwhelming opposition (hospitals/court)/Panic, need to escape but can’t
(mother). TERROR.
Divided in: stay with me + don’t come close/penible
Deep grief + unaccessed/unspoken/sense
of blackness/isolaTED/alone/numb/despair
(recovery/everything will fail)/indescribable evil/darkness.
Frequent weeping/tears just flow (past events)
Not showing anything: MASKS,
unsmiling.
Suspicious, uneasy, shifty eyes; cannot look one straight in the eye.
Hangdog (= Galgenvogel = Person, der unter
Missachtung der Gesetze vom Unglück anderer einen materiellen Vorteil macht) of
head, beaten.
Painlessness in usual painful
complaints (Op/Stram/Hell).
Competing/aggressiv against themselves
(drugs/alcohol/driving a car into a confronting car/smash themselves into a
wall)/FRUStrated by unexpected turns + confronting
others in the situation
Impulsiv - anything can happen (Merc/Prot)/loosing
his way on well known route/
Aggressiv to others/animals (fascinated by
it)/Deceit/Guilt, not resolvable.
Delusion: a wall/DIStance
between loved people + self/ist blind
Fear sexual energy is going to
escalate.
> Weepy
Schwindel: Dizziness.
Head: Headache, deep crushing/congestion/bursting + depressiv
and photophobia; gives the feeling of being cut off and isolated.
burning in spots
Headache above r. eye during menses, > pressing.
Headache above and behind l. eye while running./< cold chills/> warm
bath. Has to lie down from the pain and sleep.
Auge: Pain in l. eye, < motion
Nase: (Illusion of) the smell of vanilla.
Acute smell.
Hals innerlich: Constriction throat before
sleep.
Bauch: „As if a hole in the gut“
Harnröhre: Frequent urination/must hasten or
will urinate.
Urin:
Weibliche Sexorganen: Cramping in uterus, at night (as
before beginning menses).
Heavy menses (blood running down the
legs) and headache,
Atmung: ASTHMA/crushing on
chest/suffocation.
Husten: Cough at night with green sputum
Rücken: Back as if broken, “As if slept in
a too soft bed”, morning on waking.
Glieder Stiff joints + swelling: “a claw
coming into it”.
A jerking muscle in l. elbow and
jerks of r. arm in sleep
Schlaf: Narcolepsia
(20 h daily)/Insomnia.
Träume: Police/(perverse) sex/dead
bodies/mother/(blind) eyes [(lost) lenses]/flying (in airplane)/going downwards
(with speed + difficulties)/ice/holdung posture in
difficult situations/driving in a car (crash)/mother
Schweiß: Perspiration night.
Haut: Pain in old scars, << touching skin around it.
Allgemeines: Verlangt:
pepper/salami;
Stiff and painful over whole body morning on waking
Pain lower back radiating to lower
abdomen and hips. A pain like labour pain, in waves, burning; <
sitting/beginning motion, > lying/continued motion.
Burning, shooting pains at the surface at the level of the left hip.
I am drawn to buy light yellow clothing during this remedy proving.
Repertory from (meditative) proving:
Ancestors
Autism
Birth
Bullied
Cold
Confined
Depressiv
Pharmaceutica
Duality
Dying
Endometriosis
Fear
Gallstones
Radiation from natural sources
Kidney stones
Madness
Syphillitic
Paralysis
Possession
Schizophrenia
Shock
Trauma
Sleepless
Stuck/Suppression
Transitions
Vaccination
Victim
Liver/Gall bladder/Spleen
Head
Heart
Throat
Thymus
Verreibung = Fall:
Vor Verreiben: Ich bin krank, einen Bronchitis mit schrecklichem Husten.
Ein Gezeter geht los (ich bin Gast). Ich kann es nicht loswerden und wir werden verbannt in ein kleines, kaltes Zimmerchen mit niedriger Decke.
V. = 18 Jahre alt/sehr isoliert durch seine Familie.
Verreiben:
C 1/1 Husten = < aber weniger quälend.
C 1/2 Atemwegen = freier/ Ich muss Hustenreiz nicht folge leisten.
C 1/3
C 1/4 Atemwegen immer freier/Kopfschmerz
C 1/5 Hustenanfall/“Als ob was im Rachen steckt“.
C 1/6 Schweißausbruch
Nach Verreiben:
1en Tag:
Traum: Ich siehe eine Karte von Afrika. Ich siehe eine Karawane, die im Inland die Biegungen der Ivorküste usw. folgt durch eine düstere/wüstenartige Landschaft. Gerade ist PANIK da. Nachts werden Vorräte gestohlen. Eine junge Frau hat ANGST. - - - - -
Traum: Mir wird gesagt, ich muss nach Indien fliegen und ich muss in 20 Min. am Flughafen sein. Ein Mann wird mich fahren. Ich suche schnell was zusammen: Pass, EC-Karte und ein Paar Kleinigkeiten. Chaos ist überall. Ich laufe aus dem Haus und stehe plötzlich im Garten des Nachbarn. Ich drehe mich um und will zum Auto laufen. Dann wird entschieden, wir fahren mit dem Bus. Wir laufen zum Haltestelle. Es gibt mehrere und es ist nicht klar wo genau eine ist. Man läuft vom eine Stelle zur andere. Ich versuche nachzufragen wo einen Bus geht. Die Auskunft ist nicht klar. Es gibt 2 Bussen. Eine ist grün und eine andere ist braun.
Wir warten weiter. Ein metallisches Geräusch kommt der Strasse herunter. Ich denke: „Es ist der Bus“. Es ist aber ein langes, rotes Metall mit rotem Lichtschein, das weg geschoben wird. Irgendwann ist mir bewusst, dass einen Mann mich observiert hat aus Nachbars Garten. Der Mann kann nun gehen und hat gutes Wetter. - - - -
Traum: Ich habe den Kopf eines Bekannten in einem Hund wieder gesehen. Ich habe gebannt hingeguckt. - - - - -
2en Tag:
Traum: Ich sehe eine grüne, rote, gelbe und schwarze Figur, die aussehen wie Männchen einen Halmaspiels, aber schlanker. Sie stehen still und sind nicht verbunden. - - - - -
3en Tag:
Traum: Ich will frische Tomaten in einem
Gericht tun. Eine blonde, junge Frau gibt mir eine Packung getrocknete Tomaten.
Ich weise sie darauf hin. - - - - -
Nachts bin ich wach geworden von einen Schmerz im Herzgegend + ein Taubheitsempfinden im l. Arm/Hand/Schulter/Lende bis Füße.
Die Hustenanfälle werden weniger, aber es folgt ein taubes Empfinden in l. Arm/l. Lendenbereich bis in Füße. Schmerz im Herzgegend = < Anstrengung. Dieses taube Empfinden ist nach 3 Monaten noch da.
2 Wochen lang öfter „Als ob was Lebendiges weg springt“.
„Als ob Dingen fallen.“
„Als ob vieles wackelt“
„Als ob ich zur Seite knicke“ sitzend
Ich habe gewalttätige Gedanken über die Lösung zwischen Männer und Frauen. (Sohn)
3 Wochen: V. hatte eine, ein wenig, unsichere Stimme, nun ist sie dunkler und sicher. Ist unzufrieden mit seiner Schularbeit (hat er noch nie geäußert), will aber das Abitur machen in 15 Monaten.
Traum: Ich nehme mit der englische Referendarin einen Poppsong auf. - - - -
Traum: Ich wohne alleine in einem Haus. Kleine Kinder kommen und beschlagnahmen das Haus. Ein kleines Kind will sich rächen. Ich habe sie vertrieben. Sie beobachten mich durchs Fenster - - - - -
Vergleich:
Siehe: Mauergruppe + Baumaterialien
Vorwort/Suchen Zeichen/Abkürzungen Impressum