Jupiter Anhang

[Olga Fatoula]

Jupiter rays

Jupiter

Fifth Planet of the Solar system, the largest Planet.

The brightest Planet on the sky after Venus.

Consists of gas: Methane, Carbonic salts, Hydrogen, Nitrogen, Helium.

Huge resource of thermal energy – suggested “the future Sun”.

Four large satellites.

Mythology: Zeus the Thunderer.

Astrology: the most beneficial planet. Responsible for prosperity, spiritual growth, abundance of life.

Exposition

The night 12th to 13th July 2008, 23:40 to 04:30.

During the whole exposition there is the feeling of excitement, as if drunk.

Woke up around midday. Ate a lot of toasts with honey. “Never ever in my life I ate so much 1) in the morning 2) farinaceous and sweet foods 3) in such quantity at once.” Desires sweet, honey. Euphoria.

Dreams: very fat women, with splendid forms.

Desire to immediately wash myself, brush my teeth. Desire to clean up everything, the garage, storage rooms, to throw out garbage. Summoned a truck to drain sewage.

Before potentising

Thunderstorm. Fear and delight. Good jolly mood. Recalling the years of study, funny stories. Fireworks in the neighborhood.

There are three of us. Checking ephemeris. Waiting for the best time to start, when the Planets are well-placed in the sky.

Arguing about the quantity of liquids.

Potentising

1 Two have problems with vision: turbidity, dimness, loss of focus, lachrymation, burning, foggy vision, objects blur and swim about.

3«I am in the center and don’t need to see anyone».

4-9 Nausea – all three, with spasms and pressure in jaw glands, „As if pregnant“/“As if have eaten a rotten cabbage“, pressure in glands, when thinking about smoking a cigarette nausea increases.

Pressure in the temples, bridge of nose, occiput.

Vertigo to the left, counter-clockwise. Vertigo like during anesthesia when everything floats in your eyes and you cannot catch objects. Blurring, moving, sliding apart.

7: Shivering, chill, «Goose-pimples», «something creeps».

8: Yawning, many times. In the protocol every minute: everybody yawned, then one-by-one. Nausea continues.

9-14: «Crowds of creeps» sensation on the skin. Yawning

15-23: «Strange way of counting». «Want to weep». «No way to out-argue». «The number of shakes of the vial is questionable». «Control each other». Accusations.

There is lack of trust to each other about the quality and accuracy of execution.

Also there is “eyewhirling” as one of us named it.

Spasms, pressure, nausea went away.

Physical symptoms became easier but emotional symptoms increased: active arguments, control each other in the number of jogs and hits of vials. Reading aloud, in turn, paragraph 270.

Sighing. Laughing. Good mood.

«Can hardly think». «Hardly can figure out what time it is».

«Very clear perception of what’s happening». «Everything around is clear».

«Bored». «Dull». «Funny».

Replaced the vials, they look not too clean.

Washed hands several times.

An impulse to start cleaning my house.

Sterilized all vials anew.

«Clear thinking». «Everything clear». «Vision sharp. Vision better by one dioptre. Can see without glasses».

Feeling to be in reality, here and now.

Plugs fly away from the desk. Vials fall down to the floor. Marker pen gets lost.

Some dilutions had to be re-done because taps flew away, liquids were spilled from vials.

CH 24-27: Concurred about the shaking.

When nausea went away we wanted to eat. Started with what we had – strawberries, a cheesecake, but the appetite increased and there came a strong desire eat some fine food, to eat WELL: tasty food, in a good restaurant, delicacies, finely cooked, with well-prepared sauce (increasingly).

Everything what was newly sterilized fell to the floor again.

New arguments (milliliters, drops, shaking).

Again not happy about cleanliness of utensils.

Jolly. Fine. Quiet and calm.

Got exhausted with the taps and vials, to re-wash and sterilize.

The child entered the room, asked for food.

CH 28-30: Hurray! The final run.

«Clarity». «Vivacity». «Euphoria sensation». «Complete calmness».

Full control over oneself and the surroundings.

Singing (1). Laughing. Doubt (1).

«A midge trips and my eye tips». «Tired of running around with rags». «I don’t need instructions!»

Clear perception. REALITY. Just a feeling of the physical perception and understanding of the reality.

Accuracy of movements.

The field of vision increased to 270°.

Widely open, goggled eyes

Sharp strong pain in the small of the back (1).

Discussing Satabhisa (one of the Moon’s constellations)

An offer to go to a restaurant. (23:00 night)

The mood is perfect. Joking. Laughing.

Desire: susi, pasta with sauce, copious.

Strange, physical sensation of being in reality, «Here and now».

23:10: Fireworks outside our house, again.

Some quick impressions

Change of mood from euphoria to being totally bored.

Cleanness, sterile.

Control.

Dr Ivaniv [a Ukrainian homeopath] was really missing as a “live encyclopedia” and why else – nobody could not recall or remember.

Vision: from blurring and “eye-whirling” to very clear.

Dreams afterward:

Dream. Pilaf. A deep large plate made of white china with “wood-borer holes”.

Dream. Driving a car, down like in an underground parking, the car starts to fall apart and fall around me, I only hold the steering wheel which is already at pedals’ level. Many men around me, I hope they will help me. I reckon that the car is insured, but will they give me a new one? One of the men wipes the remains of the car into a dustpan, I am worried what shall I deliver to the insurance firm.

Dream. Me and a group of men dig a hole in the ground for a children’s swing. My wife comes and offers sex but I must finish the pit. She goes into a toilet, a strong well-built solid man follows her. I enter the cabin, they make love there. I am not concerned, I quietly say, “it will be my turn, because the girl to be born must be my child”. The toilet is amazingly clean. Feeling: cannot give to her what she needs but understand what it is.

Dream. Marriage with my own husband. The plot is, the bride escapes, he runs after, decides to swim, water is brownish-green, feeling not clean, the yacht floats very beautifully among all the garbage. The husband has a wound, cut and torn, like an anatomic cut. I am horrified. The surgeon in the hospital is my friend. All my friends are male. The doctor tinkers with something fora long time, “call for my friend, he is a Professor of medicine. He comes, we embrace, kiss, then everyone else comes, no single woman among them. All men are solid, big, strong, a “bear-like” constitution. Must help my husband.

Met the next evening, to discuss dreams and sensations. The mood is jolly again. Listening to a song about the Moon, the song that “got attached” to us. Over the last day and night: Feeling, can do 3 things simultaneously. Before going to sleep: headache with nausea. Melancholy, is it grief, is it sadness? Unclear vision in the morning.

Susi order is twice bigger than usual.

Stable quiet mood alternates with vivacious giggling.

Question about Jupiter satellites, because everywhere there seem to be, or really are, whirling midges following me, nicknamed satellites.

Themes

Quietness, calmness, tranquility

“Feeling of complete calmness”.

“Quietness bordering with indifference”.

“Everything goes unexpectedly calm. Easy”.

“Quiet = Nothing disturbs my plans.”

“Nothing bothers. I am calm. Unreachable”.

“Total tranquility. Superhuman.”.

“Calmness and balance. Happy”.

“Blissful calmness. I am impenetrable.”

The feeling of tranquility and euphoria came up during exposition of rays, then during the preparation up to 30C, but then we did not pay much attention to it.

“Much work, will I have time? But let it be as it is, I don’t care much about the situation. Take it as it is. Just do it, no worry.”

“Became quieter. Do things methodically. Doing my plans. Before that I did not have enough adrenaline, fought to death in tennis. Now there is no need to run and win. Just sit and study English.”

“Indifference and tranquility. Emotional coolness.” “Everything is violet” (Russian idiom meaning: “I don’t care about anything”). I am unreachable. Nothing disturbs. Everything around is a small trifle.”

“Tranquility and steadiness. Very happy with the state. A total large fat “plus” sign. Quietness in everything. Before could get in a quarrel with the neighbors because of a soccer score, damned them and promised not to talk to them, or to lay off my guard, take away the keys. Now I am calm, I do not worry – why do I need to do all of this? The brain is not striking like thunder into the head, I calmly switch the subject. Recalling the best years spent in our marriage, it calms. Do not argue with my wife, OK everything is fine, she is fine and it’s all right”.

“Being late to the traffic police appointment, was quiet, I was not feeling torn like before. Everyone waited for me, there was no queue. Calmness, to hell with it. Something was delayed, postponed in the schedule, so what? Will have time for everything.”

“Being abroad, left my passport behind. Quiet. I will have time for everything.”

“Blessed quietness for which you thank God.”

“Got myself together and became thicker. Stable tranquility. Nothing takes me out of balance.”

“Quietness, no vibrations. It is nice here, quiet, calm, silent. There is no wild spirit, it is “neutral”.

“I am not concerned about attacks about me, they will not touch me.”

“Negative emotions have suddenly evaporated.”

“They phoned me from the office and said that the salary will not be paid, what could happen next is unclear. Took it easy, quietly, without usual quarrels and hysteria.”

“After lunch everything calmed down. House affairs do not take me out of balance. Having seen a sink filled up with crockery, calmly said to my daughter “wash it”. Told morals to my children, without emotions, just the words that I need to say.”

“Good, stable, quiet. Driving at neutral gear.”

The cat that also participated in the proving ceased biting and scratching.

Quotes from the provers describing their sensations:

“Got thicker.”

“Thick. Static power.”

“You cannot move it, it stands densely and tight.”

“It is not for a warfare but for a work.”

“No vibrations. A thick substance that does not shake. Does no vibrate.”

“Apply such a force that could move a stone mountain.”

“Density in which you have nothing superfluous. There is no elegancy.”

“A hill, it smokes with steam and falls apart.”

“Electric current over the skin, soft, as if there are ants running.”

“It is like a shell. Like the aura of the atmosphere protects you from everything. As if in a warm water. Or in a jelly of yellow color.”

“Permanent feeling that something creeps over me (ants, beetles, plant-loose), as if I am oiled with honey for them.”

Pulsation in the head and vibration in the body.

The head is getting thicker and the pressure is rising.

The size of the body changes: larger - smaller

The head is large. The head will explode

The inner pressure increases, causes to burst.

Vibrations in the body are very strong.

The space around is unstable, unreliable.

Unstable. Whirling around. It shakes as if in a boat. Nothing to catch hold of.

Movement. Speed.

Sensation

“The state of mind consisting of three layers:

1) Tranquility – the innermost.

2) Depression and melancholy. Spasm.

3) Thunderstorm – outside.”

(The elements storming outside balancing the inner quietness and indifference.)

Sensation

“There are three states of myself:

1) Neon, alive – the best.

2) Thick, hard. It’s only me who gets thicker, everything around changes. No interest in vivid life. A “dead null”.

3) Chaos. Brownian motion. Madhouse.”

My physical body does not feel anything. It is not alive. Even the taste of food is lost.

Indifference

“I am indifferent to what they think about me.”

“Do not care. Nothing is going to change.”

“Even if I am hit and killed by a lightning, so what? The mood is, indifference and quietness.”

“Indifference and anger. Everything is “violet”.

“Cool-tempered and indifferent.”

A prover’s verse afterward:

“Sky is violet and dull

Nothing worries anymore

If you have Jupiter’s vial

You will never care a straw”

(“violet” in Russian jargon means “I don’t care what’s happening around me”)

(original):

Indifference to wife’s grumbling. To wins and losses. Stopped to worry about the mount of money.

“It’s futile, in a month it will be forgotten anyway”.

“Ennui. Depression. Nostalgia.”

“I don't give a damn to things happening.”

Withdrawal, self-removal. A look from above.

“I am unreachable.”

“A view from above. I am aside. I am higher.”

“Withdrawn glance “from nowhere”

“Everything looks like being far and small.”

“Thoughts about futility and fussiness of the world.”

“I look at others and think: “it’s vacuous”

“Looking from high above, quiet, balanced.”

“I don’t sleep but the brains are not turned on.”

“Nothing worries.”

“Let it be as it is.”

“Life goes on by itself.”

“My vision is blurred and I my hearing is, as if from a long distance.”

“I am somewhere aside. Life is like a movie.”

Absent-minded. Forgetful.

During potentising it was also mentioned «Hardly can figure out what time it is».

Three provers forgot that they were participating in the proving.

At that time these were only facts, somewhat annoying – regarding the provers having forgotten about the proving. But while processing protocols it turned into a symptom.

“I am scared to go mad. Fart – and schizo.”

Forget to eat.

Lost the keys, money.

“Forget everything in one second.”

“The memory does not hold even a minute.”

“Having «lobotomy» it’s dangerous to drive.”

“I realized how good my memory was. Today I have not yet got friends with it.”

“Probably this is how Alzheimer's disease progresses.”

“Turned on the water tap, went two steps aside and forgot about the water flowing.”

“Ironing things – turned around for something, forgot about the iron.”

“Dialed the entrance door code, forgot to open the door.”

“Something is ringing – thought it just seems to me, forget to pick up.”

“Turned the page [of my writings] and a word is not finished, because I forgot what I had been writing about.”

“It seems to me, I am still OK with my brains.”

“By 23:00 a turbid sensation = unclear brains.”

“Dementia is a one bus stop away. A bit more and I will need a nurse. An idiotic fun inside.”

“A client came whom I expected to come in a week. We met just two days ago. She told that yesterday her husband and herself had forgotten everything. Her brother had already picked her mother by car as agreed, and she still drove to pick her up.”

“Husband is a lecturer in a university. In order not to leave behind his uniform and the text of the lecture he put them on the floor just across the entrance door. In the morning he overstepped them and drove away.”

Inspiration. Forgiveness. Getting free.

“Forgave everyone. Forgave relatives whom I resented 20 years. Want to help them.”

“Pray for your enemies so that they become friends”

“Clear up your thoughts. Kindness. Beauty. Life. People. I adore everything.”

“Generosity to people and forgiveness.”

“Began to look at people differently.”

“Want to be on good terms with everyone.”

“Contemplating about the soul. Do I know who I am?”

“Decided not to take guilt for others’ actions, not to control, not to demand.”

“Just live! A day comes – you live!”

“It is so easy: the soul fulfills its mission. Let everyone run his own program himself.”

“That’s enough! Stopped limiting myself by abstruse thoughts”

“As an inspiration, a thought came: I am in a state when the rhyme of life needs to be followed both spiritually and physically.”

“A thought as an inspiration, as a gift: in the soul as in the body the recollection of your abilities does not correspond to your real abilities for a long time already.”

“Dream is a gift. The main thing in it is love.”

“Erotic dreams. For the first time did not feel remorse, just got pleasure.”

Dream: was adoring the beauty of my wife, felt deep in love with her.

Religion

“No desire to pray, nor to go to the church.”

“Visit church every day.”

“Intensive desire to go to church.”

“Chatted about various things: about peoples’ fate, about Russia, about the church.”

“After the prayer the condition improved.”

“While in proving me and my wife went through the ceremonies of christening and marriage in the church.”

“Difficult to pray. Tired energetically.”

Death

“A thought: my parents will die soon, imagined funerals, pain in the chest because of this loss, nearly swept.”

“Saw my granny in a dream, was very happy.”

“See in my dream my deceased granny and brother.”

“Wake up at night, dream of the apartment of the deceased relative. Sudden fear of the dead, turned on the light, could not sleep, physical shiver.”

“Contemplating about the life-death cycle.”

Body <=> Soul

“Keeping the day rhyme sharing spiritual and physical: prayers and exercises”

“A vicious circle: if you do not move the muscles become weaker and vice versa. Need for artificial replenishment increased. Same about spiritual practices.”

“First time in my life went to a sports club.”

“Ready to bring [my body] into order.”

“Sudden flow of thankfulness to the body.”

“Started to visit spa regularly. Body therapy helps to overcome depression.”

Money / Wealth / Gold

Dream: money, banknotes in packs, counting.

Dream: found precious stones in water.

Thoughts about the need to have a lot of money.

“Many plans. Work much, selling garbage things and buying what I need.”

“Dropped by a jewelry store, bought a golden bracelet with white plenty of white stones. Just wanted gold.”

“Before going to sleep, a fixed thought: “gold, gold, gold”.

“Want to finger precious stones in my hands.”

“During a trip, bought a golden pendent for my housekeeper.”

“It would be good to buy a villa on Azure coast.”

“The habitual house has become too small. Expand it.”

“Dream: The whole night putting money into the safe.”

“Pomposity is important, the environment. Expensive restaurants.”

“Want to have a lot of money to help relatives.”

“I liked it in the café – design – even TV screens in huge golden frames.”

“Want to re-paint the walls and add a golden shade.”

“Felt independent, can afford a lot.”

“Amount of money does not bother any more. The feeling is, I have a lot. Stopped checking balances.”

“Need to urgently pay the bills. But loath to do it.”

“Increased housekeeper’s salary.”

Gourmand / Appetite / Food

“I want refined delicacy, beautifully served.”

“Started to desire restaurants at nights.”

““Usually I ate whatever I had and was happy. Now I want only this dish and that dish.”

“Permanent desire for pilaf. Restaurant Uzbekistan, invited my wife every night at 23:00.”

Dream: large and full plate of pilaf.

“Averse to lunches and dinners at home. Nearly weeping.”

Dream: my mother and me are in a restaurant, selecting a table

“Desire nicely decorated table. Bought a new table cloth, a new table set, my table is always nicely and richly laid.”

“Began to eat everything. All seems tasty.”

“The body responds to food quietly, nicely and positively.”

Dream: searching for food and alcohol.

Dream: finding out from Uzbek guy, how to buy good pizza in a cheap stall near an underground railway station.

Appetite sharply increased.

“Again overeating: mozzarella, walnuts, ice-cream, …”

“Hunger in the morning, cannot endure.”

“Eating often, everything. Even if not hungry.”

“Want to eat but cannot decide what. Drinking water.”

“Ate everything what was there on the table.”

“Ate a pot of honey. Desire sweet.”

“Cannot eat anything, spasm in the throat at once.”

“Forgetting to eat. Only recall about it in the evening.”

Appetite and food symptoms were noted in absolutely all provers, including the cat.

Cars

Cars: old, broken, without steering wheels, without chassis, pre-war models. Traffic accidents, stolen cars.

“Repaired my old car, now it is better.”

“Want a new car. Promised to myself to buy one if I give up smoking.”

Transport: yachts, motorbikes. Speed.

Cars and transport themes were present in every prover. Or dreams about old, broken down cars, without wheels or engine, or other parts.

Sexuality

Both men and women had these symptoms.

Dream: women, full-bodied, with plump shapes, in flesh.

Dreams: wife, with other men.

Erotic dreams.

Dreams: many men, strong and solid constitution.

Dream: a girl that I departed from.

Dream: two dogs entered into copulation.

The cat: all male cats in the village were hers; delivered three kittens two months later despite her very young age and the no-mating season for cats.

Other themes

We had also the theme of a family: recalling of the past years in the matrimony. Love towards the partner. There is no one better. Anguish when separated with the partner.

Relatives / People close to you. Relationships. Love.

Pregnancy. Children. Conception. Men / Women.

Elements, natural force: thunderstorms, tempest, lightning, water.

Space: need to expand, too small, not enough.

Dreams: space wars of three races. I am in the army named Russia. Perfidy. “Ours-theirs”.

Sudden thought «I exist on the planet Earth”.

Colors: yellow, orange, red.

Other mind symptoms

Loss of activity. Laziness. Boredom. Annoyance.

Desire to sleep. vs Sleeplessness.

Depression. Ennui. Nostalgia. vs Joyful. Work. Execute methodically.

Physical:

Vision

Blurry, «eye-whirling»

Hard to look at close-by objects

Loss of focus

Wide range of view, the field of view widened

Can read without glasses

Other descriptions: unclear, double, whirling, painful to look, lachrymation.

Nausea

- strong

- “went to bed exhausted, sickening”

- “want to close my eyes, feeling sick”

- as if pregnant

- better after eating, after coffee

- spasms in glands, as if nausea

- as if sea-sick

Skin

Creeps, jimjams.

“Electricity over the skin”.

Small wounds, cuts, scratches close up and heal quickly.

Rash - right-side cheek, neck.

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