Argentum sulphuricum
http://www.homeopathycourses.com/pdf/Argentum_Sulphuricum_Proving.pdf
= Geprüft durch Argentum sulphuricum Louis Klein
Vergleich: Siehe: Argentum + Sulphur
"Argentit" wird für die Hochtemperatur-Variante von Silber-Sulfid, nur stabil über 173° C, verwendet. Unter dieser Temperatur wandelt sich Argentit in Akanthit (= Silberglanz) um.
[Louis Klein]
Hannemanian Proving of Argentum Sulphuricum
Master Prover Louis Klein
Co-Master Prover- Emily Mantewsiwich
Compilation and Editing: Sherrill Sullivan
Mind: 02.00:12:42 Crashing pots in dish area (Café
area) don‚t startle me (often do).
08.00:15:20 Feel very slow and heavy mentally and physically, but am
typing just as normal. Balance seems a little off.
08.00:19:00 Four hours went by very fast, yet I feel so slow and
heavy. I went outside to wait for my
husband and was counting cars until he would arrive. Also as I was standing there, I couldn't keep
from swaying from side to side rhythmically for a long time; it felt pleasant.
08.00:20:15 I still feel very slow and that traffic is going too fast,
also that time is still going by very
very fast.
09.00:20:49 Disinclination to finish paper work already started.
02.00:20:55 Seem to have a
quieter, less impatient quality with people.
All day with daughter better than usual in terms of patience. Nice scene of daughter and husband playing
music together (very rare) and myself just watching, enjoying, not rushing off
to do things.
Yet still doing quite a bit.
Ideas for organizing but still finding notes scattered in different
places.
The desire is there to create a workable system. Starting to pare down the „seven jobs”. Delegated one easily after seeing that I was
going to not manage very well with all this on my plate. One job
I basically said I can‚t do.
Interestingly I didn’t feel a need or envy or anything driving me to
write poetry (no mater how bad) when talking to teacher about his poetry. Connected
to reality.
02.00:22:03 Excited to begin to dream.
Excited in general.
09,01:15:15 Friend stopped by and
when leaving ˆ I spotted neighbour and started conversation with her ˆ then
briefly threw a good bye over my shoulder to the friend. Later I realized I had
been very easily distracted in a way I felt was rude.
08,01:17:00 Irritated with husband but didn't feel like going with it or
expressing it. He asked me the names of
the two patients I had seen today and I could only remember one, the second.
02, 01:19:53 Met 3x with an old friend today after not seeing him for
nearly a year. Confident, not looking at
him with expectation or timid / fear. Basically I don‚t feel as thrown off or
tossed around
by the activity around me (I normally do). Mental concentration seems
stronger today. Deeper concentration is returning/settling after having been
disturbed by the travel and company during the weekend.
02, 01:20:08 Wrote a poem in less than one hour for a contest since
others were and I was waiting for someone.
Did it without angst or expectation of greatness. May not be getting
enough done during the day ˆ there is a lot to do but not forcing myself to get
it all done.
04,02:09:15 Colleague mentions mutual patient, one of three sisters (all
are patients). I can't remember which is
which and it's very disorienting. Not simply
a lapse of memory, it actually causes me to feel disoriented.
04,02:10:00 Letting my husband wait on me, asking for what I want. Working on a case. Many interruptions, irritating. Say "if people would leave me alone, I'd
get more done." "I need a door
(I can shut)." I usually just over-ride
this sort of comment and don't say them today I express them.
02, 02:12:02 Got upset after breakfast ˆ about laundry. I felt this was more than normal (if normal
is past few months) but also have had a lot of this type over the past couple
years. Difference may be in the feeling
of wanting to / and doing some pounding on wood or machine (laundry). The trigger was that my husband washed clean,
dry laundry and left me without things I needed.
02, 02:13:50 Missed the bank, turned around, missed it again.
04,02:16:00 Music on the CD player, instrumental orchestral music.
04,02:16:15 It sounds to me like there are voices in there somewhere,
but can't distinguish the words. I ask
my family for confirmation "are there words in this? Can't you hear that?"
04,02:16:45 Feeling irritable, crabby, somewhat like I'm a bit
crazy. (OS) Wonder if I'm making this
whole itching thing up. There are no
spots, no signs. The symptoms are worse
when I pay attention to them, maybe I'm making them up. Want to be a good prover, want to be an
excellent homeopath. Think I can't do
it, can't even be a good prover, blah blah blah. On the edge of tears.
04,03:09:30 Make up bank deposit at home, add it twice. Take it to bank and submit to teller who
says, "you're shorting yourself $100." Now this was a significant error in the size
of the deposit. I'm usually better at
math than that.
04,04:00:00 Vagueness seems to be a theme. As my friend and I walk I have difficulty
being very specific about some of the things we discuss.
04,04:09:20 I feel depressed, slow, don‚t want to deal with it. My state
is one of not being able to focus. Can‚t
decide what to do next. Get many things
part way done.
04,04:13:00 As I get ready for work my nose looks bigger. (I don‚t think is really is bigger.)
07,04:21:45 I was angry because
the house looked like a tornado had hit. Husband said I was snapping at him.
08,05:14:00 Husband observes I have been very focused and productive in
my work, but a little absent-minded about other details, such as remembering that
we have friends coming over in the afternoon.
04,05:16:00 Don‚t care about much of anything at work ̃the tips reflect
this.
08,05:19:00 Friends come to visit and the talk is enjoyable up to a
point. Then I feel they are overstaying and imposing. I would normally invite them to stay for
dinner, but decide I won't unless my husband suggests it. I have several calls from friends and
patients which I take in order to excuse myself from the conversation. I know it is rude, but I am relieved to have an
excuse.
02, 05:22:00 Unable to deal with
or respond well to daughter‚s moans of discomfort at mosquito bites (old, excuse
not to do something) This is just more
accentuated ˆ the feeling of not knowing what to do for her faking or exaggerating
side.
08,06:10:30 Actually stepped out of my usual role during an interview
and responded to something the patient said. Felt very disconcerted and off balance
for the rest of the interview although it went well.
04,06:19:00 At dinner made a few obscure conversational connections that
the rest of the family couldn‚t follow but I thought was very funny. Similar to being stoned on marijuana and the
odd connections one will make. Not as „gone”
as with pot though. This lasted about an
hour.
04,07:09:15-10:00 Today I kept
trancing out, and almost falling asleep.
08,07:09:30 Still feel very focused and efficient.
02, 07:11:40 Woke a little before 7 am.
Deep sense of happiness.
04,07:16:00 Hair looks kind of limp, flat and oily looking like a cat’s
coat does when it‚s sick.
04,07:00:00 Feel mentally alert, except I lost my car. I felt confused
and like I probably looked pretty silly.
04,08:05:45 I realize I like to
have secrets, I like to know things others. It’s sort of a power trip. I like
to think that I‚m magical and special. I procrastinate because I may not be
able to magically heal them.
02, 08:10:30 Desiring to cry.
Very sensitive and emotionally weak with kids who seemed more
rambunctious. Better around 11 h.
08,08:13:30 Very busy, productive work.
02, 09:01:10 (am) As I was
writing tonight I found my mistake in the recording of the days since I had to
write in a couple of day‚s symptoms and figure out the number. [one day off].
08,09:10:00 We has a surprise overnight guest last night and I found I really
enjoyed socializing and entertaining him
04,09:16:40 In traffic I stop so
that someone can make a left turn in front of me. I see an actual questioning expression on the
„face‰ of the **car** not the person in
the car, it was very brief, and looked rather cartoonish. I nod to the car, as
if to say, yes go ahead, I stopped for you.
08,09:22:30 Inwardly irritable and annoyed by our guests although I know
they are decent people and very friendly. I found them boring and
predictable, the woman talked too much. At one point I wished I could
just
escape, go outside, go to bed. But
I
was outwardly polite.
04,10:00:00 I feel like my mind is making some good connections as if
I‚m
getting some healing from the remedy, healing on a wordless level.
04,10:00:00 Feel organized, purposeful.
No more dragging my feet and
thinking I should do that while doing something else entirely.
08,10:07:00 I feel miserable, spacey.
04,11:00:00 Since the proving started I keep seeing people that I think
are
others, like people
from the class, people I went to high school with, people from my
hometown I
used to wait on.
These aren‚t people I know well that I think I‚m seeing. Occasionally in
life this happens, but it
seems like it‚s very prominent since I took the remedy.
07,11:06:00 Felt a little
aggressive. A parent challenged me
(prover is a
school teacher). I had
to respond; normally I might have let it go.
02,11:20:30 After the struggles with my daughter I wanted some comfort
from
my husband. When he continued to
read rather than relate to me, I went away
crying and hurt. This didn‚t last
long which is distinctive.
02, 12:00:00 I have been feeling lazy ˆ not wanting to do much or tired
a
lot. This relates to why I
haven‚t written here. There seems to be
a point
of overload and shut down when I‚m doing too much. I haven‚t been sick
though, which is often the response I get.
07,12:00:00 A little grouchy.
02,12:20:12 It has been difficult to write the little sx down. I am loath
to expend the
energy. Perhaps as I have been
using more of it on my daughter who has
conjunctivitis.
My temper with my child seems over all better these past three intensive
days (her with
pink eye). The only time I seem
to not handle my patience well is in the
direct struggle
over her medicine drops. This is particularly hard with the lack of
confidence I have in
myself ˆ highlighted by the use of them at all. Plus that she is hurt by
them.
07,13:00:00 Short tempered with family.
02,13:08:45 Around 8 am I despaired for my child‚s eyes are not better,
especially that I
couldn‚t survive another 4 days of only nursing her. I also „flipped
out‰,
anxious that I
had made it worse for her by using the medicine and not enough
homeopathy.
08,13:13:00 Very busy, getting a lot accomplished. Feel I am better a
organizing and prioritizing things. I feel as though I see things, see
reality, more clearly than usual.
Like seeing deeper into things, this was
a quality throughout the proving.
02, 13:19:00 While putting out
supper, wished for proper dishes to make a
nice presentation (very unusual).
Hunted for something for sauce for fish,
unsuccessful but didn‚t matter in the end. Eating didn‚t interest me at any
point (cooking or sitting to eat).
But tried to make nice stuff anyway, not
satisfied with plain food.
08,14:09:00 Busy making order, organizing, planning projects. Feel a lot
of
physical and mental energy.
08,14:15:00 Beautiful weather, can't resist being outdoors, enjoying the
smells and working in the earth.
04,15:05:30 It‚s almost time to leave.
I‚ll be late. Oh well, doesn‚t
upset me much.
02, 15:20:45 I‚m noticing tonight that I‚m staring more and differently.
Feel that I‚m not doing this proving properly because of inability to
devote
time to clarify the sx.
04,16:18:00 Forgot to call supervisor, wrote it down in the wrong place.
Somewhat unusual for me, I usually remember appointments.
09,17:00:00 Upset about interaction with peer at work. Ongoing animosity
but
some angry notes to me ˆI really felt like gut-punched. I had gone to
supervisor to c/o about her work.
02, 17:22:42 (writing about 2 16 @19:00) Hit an elk. My husband driving,
daughter in back. I was in the
passenger front seat. Quite lucky to be
OK.
As far as sx go ˆ there was a good deal of calm in me, helping my
daughter
cope and husband deal with it afterward.
I was fairly detatched even going
up and moving aside a chunk of the guts to get it off the road (the bulk
was
moved by 3 guys). Could look very
objectively at the liver, etc. Also
this didn‚t result in a nervous response later, at least so far. I did
forget a few small responsibilities this morning but I don‚t think that
represents any Sx. There was
quite a moment of fright, bouncing in the car
to stop and watching the car behind us nearly swerve into us after
flying
over the carcass.
07,13:00 Short tempered with family.
A little impatient with kids at
school; got
onto (scolded?) art class about coming into room noisily.
07,18:00:00 Short [tempered] with family.
04,18:11:00 Haircut, fluffy, cute.
07,19:00 Very short tempered with family. Low patience for non-compliance
with kids,
and husband‚s work schedule. He
has been gone every night. He says I‚m
being non-
supportive. He says I‚m being
selfish.
04,19:00:00 Slight feelings that people are talking about me behind my
back.
Partly why I got my haircut, though internally I wanted to anyway.
08,19:12:00 Driving the car about seventy miles, driving slower than
usual,
not wanting to speed up and pass although I know this frustrates my
husband
who is with me. Just want to feel
unhurried and enjoy the scenery.
08,19:18:00 Cooking food to take to an elderly friend and observe myself
doing it in an extremely efficient and matter-of-fact way, wanting to do
it
well but not spend too much time.
This focused, practical frame of mind has
been quite typical lately. Not cutting corners, but not wasting time
either.
Not planning, just jumping in and doing and finishing.
07, 20:00:00 Very short tempered with family. Had an argument with husband
after
kids went to bed, yelling. And he
tells me I only think of myself and how
things affect
me. I did not cry like I usually
do when we have these kin of talks. I
just thought about
what he said and decided I would really try tomorrow to think of
everyone in
the family
before myself. Although I did not
view my actions in the same way he did.
I do not
think he is wrong; I just looked at my life like everyone was doing
things
to me, so I was
frustrated. He said I was only having
a selfish outlook.
08,20:11:00 Received bad news about my brother's state of health. Felt
like
crying
but wanted to suppress that feeling, didn't feel it was helpful. Instead
was sad but
philosophical about it, thinking about the positive things in his life.
07,22:00:00 Mood seemed okay unless challenged or provoked. Then I seemed
to
attack, verbally. I couldn‚t let
anything pass, I had to make a response.
04,24:10:00 Losing some words. e.g. „anemia‰
couldn‚t think of the name of
the condition. At a meeting with
an acquaintance I‚ve had some problems
with in the past. I don‚t know if
it‚s self-consciousness that causes the
lapse. I‚m having difficulty
following the conversation.
04,24:10:00 It‚s hard to be cordial to this woman. Persistent thoughts
about
this woman, she‚s out to get me for some reason, (possibly jealous of my
position in the esteem and affection of another woman.)[I honestly think
this is part of what‚s going on, not part of a delusional state from the
remedy]. She doesn‚t have the
same ethics I do, I‚m trying to be
professional about it all, but she‚s bugging the hell out of me. My
thoughts go round and round and round.
Discuss it with my husband, my best
friend, my proving supervisor, another friend, still another
friend. I‚m
trying to work this out. Why is
she acting this way? Feel tired and
depressed. I‚m annoyed with
myself that I‚m focusing all this attention on
this woman, but I must, can‚t get out of the circles.
04,24:00:00 Feel restless as well as depressed, at loose ends, can‚t
focus
on study.
04,25:00:00 Spent the entire morning on the phone trying to work out my
differences between myself and the colleague referred to yesterday. This
obsessing is an old issue. Feel
depressed, puzzled, while on the phone I
clean walls in the room off the bathroom. Try plucking my eyebrows, I‚ve
got the idea they are too bushy.
04,25:00:00 In the past week I‚ve bitten off all nails. Compulsive finger
picking. I feel very insecure.
04,25:00:00 Feel tired, flat, low energy. Discouraged sort of.
02, 25:07:40 In the past week, lazyness increase. Irritibility also
increased at times.
04,26:08:45 I feel domestic, cleaning walls and such yesterday, a corner
and
the compost bucket the day before.
Today I‚m going to make soup and
cookies.
07, 27:00:00 Good mood until we drove around to look at houses. Then got
grouchy
later that evening. Snapped at
husband about not picking up the mess
04,27:07:00 GOD I am sick of these people!! What a pain!
It continues on
in this vein, people calling in sick, coworkers complaining about the
help I
assign them. My attitude
plummets.
04,27:13:00 I feel very tired, dragging through the day, I wish it were
over. I‚m tired of the regulars
and don‚t want to even be friendly to them.
I am (friendly) though, and wonder if they know I don‚t care.
08, 27:14:00 Mood is fine, however. More than usual number of phonecalls
from patients and "sucky" people. I mostly deal with them with good will
and equanimity and let a couple of them pass.
04,27:16:00 I feel pretty self-indulgent.
04,27:00:00 Depressed, tired,
flat, disinterested in Husband‚s budget,
tired of spread sheets.
04,27:00:00 I‚m irritable, easily bothered. At work by customers mostly.
Tolerant of family and friends. Would
rather be alone, but then I can‚t
really motivate myself to do anything.
State of ennui. Everything takes
too much effort.
04,27:00:00 Desire to be more perky and not so flat and bored. I bore
myself, you see. I‚m tired of
hearing myself talk. I feel very self
involved.
04,27:00:00 I was off work. No
customers to hate. Tired, listless. Feel
very loving with mate.
07, 28:00:00 Very short mood, weepy, at anything gone wrong. I wanted to
cry and
go home after the timing was off
for me to join my family (at church), but
I stayed and
hid out in the nursery. Hard time
focusing on tasks, tried to do work 12:30
to 14:00.
Mind wandering on other thoughts.
04,29:00:00 I write an email to the woman I was obsessing about one
short
week ago. Send copies out to all
concerned. It‚s all out in the open,
everyone can see what I said.
07, 29:00:00 It is getting much harder to make myself fill out my
journal,
because
my days are bad; much conflicts with people around me at home and work.
08, 36:18:00 Extremely annoyed by two members of local homeopathic study
group whose personal sniping at each other and one of them threatening
to
stop coming because of it, could bring the group down. Feeling "Why
can't
they leave their petty personal trips out of it? They are ruining it for
the
rest of us." Indignant and
disillusioned in both. One is a close friend,
but I feel very angry with her part in it and feel I don't want to
commiserate with her about it.
07, 44:00:00 Bad problem at work for last five months is really
escalating
this week,
especially today. A bad note from
the Parent challenging what I said. They
say it‚s not
trueˆit is. Bothered me very much
all day, hands shaking, couldn‚t cut
paper, kept
messing up. Took all my thoughts
all day. Kids came home, very short
tempered,
yelling. I was rough with them
putting them to bed. They were all
crying.
After they
were in bed, I cried and cried. I
hated myself. Why did I act the
way? I
wanted to drive
away and never come back. I
almost did. I don‚t know why I
didn‚t. I just
kept crying.
I did not want to be around my family.
And I especially did not want to
have the Parent
attack me again, as the frequency is getting to be every day not ̃I
can‚t
stand it.
04,44:00:00 My attention span for reading is different somehow. As if I
forget what I just read, but somehow still remember it in the back of my
mind. Feels like I‚m preoccupied.
04,45:09:30 I feel self-conscious about how I‚ll look.
04,45:00:00 Thinking a lot the last week or so about the transient
nature of
life, how short life is. How we
get old and then die. Rather melancholic
ponderings about my kids when they were little. Noticing aging people, my
own gray hairs, etc. I don‚t feel
particularly old, but life feels so very
short.
07, 45:00:00 Official school meeting.
I got very mad and make a remark
back. I was asked to leave. I had a Large rock, size of a softball,
inside
my stomach. It
stayed for three to four hours. You
could have felt the rock with your hand
on my
stomach.
04,46:00:00 Feeling a bit confused.
07, 46:00:00 I have had a hard time writing in this journal, because I
have
had many
conflicts with several people recently.
It‚s the part of myself I do not
like. I‚m ashamed
of myself. I do not like to show
this side of me. It has not been seen
for
a very long time,
four or five years. Now weekly
and more often daily. I do not like
myself
right now. I
had been doing so well, especially the last two years after Sepia and
Ferrum. Now doing
so bad. Most conflicts are my
fault due to me being so thin skinned and
taking every
comment so personally. I feel
attacked by the people I‚m in conflict with,
and I can‚t just
ignore them or let their comments roll off my back. I must defend myself.
This has
caused many problems in the last two months.
04,46:07:00 I‚m feeling a bit more superstitious the past two weeks,
since
that passive-aggressive „attack‰ by another person. I wear a special
necklace made of lapis so I‚ll be conscious of speaking and
protected from
speaking wrongly or too much. Wearing
a black undershirt feels really good.
I like the lace around the neck. I was told the Navajos always wear
something black as a protection against evil spirits and evil
influences.
04,46:00:00 It‚s not that I feel superstitious but I‚m thinking and
remembering more about when I was more enmeshed in the magical thinking
realm and acting accordingly. Is this denial, compensation or what?
04,46:10:30 I had a cup of tea, looked for my stir stick, it wasn‚t
there,
dug into my purse to get out a spoon to stir the tea. Drink the tea, set it
aside. The red stir stick is
right there on the table by my left hand
(where I had looked for it before).
Red stir stick on a white table cloth,
but it disappeared.
04,46:12:00 Confusion, I think I hear instructor say look in the back of
the
packet, it‚s really the front of the packet.
02, 46:23:30 Noticed several times that I wrote words wrong while taking
notes ˆ getting to the end of words and realizing I had switched parts
around, semi aware yet lazy enough to not stop in the middle.
04,157:00:00 Evening: I don‚t
want to talk to anyone. I don‚t like this
flatness and tiredness. Feeling
of defeat. Doubt of myself, my abilities,
can‚t concentrate, just want to read light fantasy novels and
sleep. And
clean house!
DREAMS
10,01:00:00 Dream: I was commuting between work in Denver and was
driving on
the freeways. Some anxiety anticipation about getting there on time.
04,01:05:30 wake up with the alarm (have to work at 0630)
Lots of dreams, but don't remember any of them. Seems like they were fun
dreams.
10,01:04:30 Nightmare. In the
dream a man held something threatening (I can
‚t remember what) and was menacing me with it. A male friend (I didn‚t
see
him in dream) kept the first man at bay several times. One time he
chased
this man and then they jumped into water, like an ocean and the man who
was
the menacer dove deep in the water and got away. I was witnessing this
dive. Then this man was menacing again and then I woke up.
08,01: 05:30 Frequent waking, light sleep. Dream: helping others, mostly
children in a war-like siege situation.
09,01:07:00 Selecting vintage wine at wine shop with a coupon.
02, 01:19:53 I‚d dreamed of trying to get something logistically
organized ˆ
but I forgot whether this was a place to meet or what.
04,01:24:00 Lots of dreams-don't remember them.
09,02:00:00, „Lead shoes‰
mentioned in a dream but that‚s all I remember.
10,02:00:00 Just before waking.
Several dreams in a row of common things in
My life. Can‚t remember them--just that they were one after another and
quick.
07,02:02:00 I woke from a dream that I had captured some little animal
that
was
flying around, like a bat. But
after I caught it in a cage, it grew very
large, the size of an
opossum, and had no wings. It was
black and furry but had white fur on the
face. It
looked like a „furbie‰. It looked
at me and then tried to push very hard
with its feet to get
the lid off the cage. I knew it
was trying to escape, so I put the small
cage into a larger
cage, one I could walk in to. I
put the smaller cage on a table inside the
larger one and
got out quickly. Then the animal
did escape; he became small again and flew
around
much like a bat. I walked away
and then I woke up.
07,02:05:00 I had another dream, about people this time, but couldn‚t
remember it in the morning. Neither
dream was scary or intense.
02, 02:07:40 Dream after asleep
again: We lived in a house made of
cement,
in a place that was similar to another country like Mexico / India. Outside
there was a table that was set up.
First I recognized old cloths of mine;
they were to be given away. Next
a lady was giving away food, breakfast and
one piece of raw meat to each neighbor.
Some of the meat was covered but
most was just there.
02, 02:21:40 dream from this morning. There were stairs leading to and
from
our house‚s doorway, as if the side walk went between a wall by the street
and the wall of our house. I went
out the door to the right, down the
stairs to the open street. There
was a table with clothes that I recognized
as my old coat, etc. These were
being given away, I didn‚t want them.
Another woman was giving away food ˆ breakfasts of bread and meat to
take
home. A young man ran up the
stairs on his way past our house and I felt a
twing of worry for my daughter who had a room just off the open
doorway. I
realized I wouldn‚t necessarily be aware of any harm to her if I were in
my
own room. Woke uncertain about
the reality of my house for a few minutes.
04,02:23:15 Someone telling me "A kid's hands are his work‰ Meaning
you can
look at a kid's hands and tell what they should do as their life's work.
04,02:23:15 Dreamed a friend wanted to borrow my car, because hers
wouldn't
turn off. I don't want to lend it
to her, but feel like I should be
generous. I'm a bit leery that
something will happen to my car if I lend it
to her.
04,02:23:15 I'm at some sort of gathering, see a girl with her left eye
very
crossed. Think "left-sided
strabismus" in the dream. Big party
scene that
I'm not really participating in. Dancing and partying.
04,02:23:15 Dreams with lots of people.
10,03:00:00 Early morning dream that I used a Polarity massage technique
on
a client.
08,03:06:00 I am in Russia, feeling very confused in not understanding
the
language and only a little of people's gestures and expressions.
04,03:06:30 Husband being suspicious of how I spent "the
money". I tell him
I'll put his name on my checking account if he wants. He makes many excuses
why that won't work. I tell him
it will work and explain how. If he wants
to take over the money management I'll let him. He doesn't want to though.
The theme here to me is that I'm proving myself to him.
02, 03:07:02
Dreams
1)
Invited to a dinner with many important people. A princess in white but
modern clothes was there with a few people at the beginning. I knew we were
meant to meet and be together; I was male at that moment. That meeting took
place and we loved each other. There
was a shift into my own spot, own
female sex. We were downstairs
(basement) in a wealthy family‚s house but
they never came to the gathering.
I seemed spread out at the table,
scattered stuff around me. I was
looking at the wall between the two
doorways that had the coat of arms of all the guests displayed. For those
without such family background there were simple solid colored cloths
with
some embellished design (one for all).
One of those was for me. A kind
man
waited for me; I was the last in
the room. The lights were turned
off. I
was still collecting my stuff. He
and I went into the hall to climb the
stairs which were supposidly behind some cupboards. I opened the cupboards
and found supplies for making / decorating cakes. I found a bag of two
sweets ˆ nougat and chocolate, rare delicacies. We decided we could take
them, they wouldn‚t be missed. The
stairs never appeared but the sense was
we left, carrying on a pleasant conversation all the while. [I seem to
remember a scene afterwards with rain, stairs and bicycles outside the
house; I was obviously not of the right class, riding away on a bike but
everyone mistook me for part of the household.]
2)
My husband and I had two guests sleeping on our beds. They left.
Another guest was expected. H.
helped remake the beds but very sloppy. I
lay down to rest. The two guests
were expected to return instead. I fixed
the beds back with old sheets, straightening out them better.
3)
A cat had a very valuable diamond on its paw. It was the Forgotten or
Forgetting Diamond. It had been
taken from a ring of several precious
stones. This ring was somehow
related to my history, had been mine or from
my town. I held the diamond. It had appeared like a multi-faceted, clear
stone set in a silver setting when the cat had it. In my hand / finger I
saw it as a smooth cloudy stone, similar to an Indian Star Ruby but the
color was a rich tan/okre.
09,03:09:00 About in-laws and being snubbed by sister-in-law at some
kind of
family reunion. She had new haircut and looked very sophisticated.
04,04:00:00 Lots of dreams, no recall.
09,04:00:00 Dream: 1. Sitting in culvert of some sort with some man. Wonder
why we are there and why we have to sit in the mud. Floodgates of some
sort
open and I am washed away in the water. I am deep in the water and then
float to the top but am being pushed backwards with the rush of the
water. I
loved it after I was sure I would rise to the top. Still wondering if I
will
have to land back in the mud.
09,04:00:00 Visiting someone‚s 3-story home. Lot of details of why I am
there are forgotten. Some man invites me to the back yard to sit on a
ball-like thing on which we fly around the back yard. It was
exhilarating
and then becomes a little scary when we are as high as the roof of the
house
that seems rather dilapidated. Whew! Exhilarating, but too much and I
asked
to come down.
04,04:00:00 My daughter has sent pictures of her college. Then I am there
at the campus. There is a field
lying fallow, weeds are coming up in
patches. The weeds are tufts of
irises, tall ones, say 3 feet tall. I
joke
and say „the corn didn‚t come up well did it? They need to replant.‰
Whoever I‚m joking toward doesn‚t think that‚s funny. I know this type of
iris is a weed, not corn at all, the feeling is that tobacco was
supposed to
be growing there. Someone tells
me I‚d feel better if I was wearing a silky
shirt. I say I don‚t have any,
you should buy me one. (another
joke) The
scene of the dream and the fallow field is like the island where the
boys
lived in the movie „Hook‰. There‚s
a kind of underground house, or like the
inside of a huge plant room like are at zoos. No feeling from the dream,
just having a good time seeing „where my daughter lives‰ and joking
about
the corn. As the alarm rings I‚m
looking as someone holds up a large spoon,
it‚s made from a new sort of metal.
The steel is a different color, sort of
pewter colored.
07, 04:10:30 I also had a dream about a flying squirrel. He was hurt and I
was going
to help him get down the mountain. It was very muddy on the
mountain. Bet a
guy was
there and made a ramp so the squirrel could just slide down the
mountain, so
he didn‚t
need my help.
02, 04:20:52 Dream this morning was of new boss and I. I had to fit through
a very
narrow place. I had done so
before but it seemed even narrower and I had to
move the
walls to fit.
10,05:00:00 Had a dream that I had Gall bladder problems and was taking
[remedy]. When I woke up I thought I should get a pap smear as I haven‚t
had
one in many years.
04,05:07:35 Many dreams, not remembered.
04,05:00:00 We bought a big
craftsman style house. My ex is in the
living
room playing the same simple phrase over and over on the piano. The ŒB‚ key
below middle ŒC‚ is broken, won‚t give a sound. He tries it again and
again. It‚s always broken.
04,05:00:00 I‚m at a large movie theatre, restaurant, mall-type complex.
Lots of people. My daughter loses
$11.27 down a revolving doorway. We try
to figure out how to retrieve it.
No use. My 14 year old daughter
takes
the electric bill from me and pays it.
She wants to help out.
04,05:00:00 At the theatre my current husband and 2 friends are in front
of
Argentit w = Ag2S/= Argentum sulfuratum naturale/= Silbersulfid.
Argentum: Festhalten an/Angst Tradition/Bewährtem/geschaffene
Position/Erfolg nicht halten zu können
Sulphur: Positiv: 1. anderen zu Beziehungen
verführen/Harmoniebedürfnis; Negativ: philosophieren, Beziehungen/Äußerlich verwahrlosen, 3.
Eifersucht
Argentum Kunst/Kreativität Handhaben/in Stand halten
Sulphur Gruppe/Familie Erinnern
Positiv: Zielgericht/schwimmt mit den Zeiten;
Negativ: < Veränderung, Immunsystem/Herzrhythmusstörung;
‡ Aufbauschwäche/verstopft/Steinbildung
‡
Vergleich: Argentit w Ag2S + Silberglanz (Ag2S) = unterschiedlich.
Wirkung: lithämisch/sklerotisch