Lamprohiza Anhang <yx

[Heike Faller]

Glühwürmchen: Über ein Lebewesen, das nur für die Liebe lebt.

Aus der Serie: Da draußen ZEITmagazin Nr. 23/2021 1. Juni 2021, 16:55 Uhr editiert am 8. Juni 2021, 19:01 Uhr

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Ich wollte Glühwürmchen sehen, und so verabredete ich mich mit René Spierling. Wenn es jemanden gibt, der sich mit Glühwürmchen auskennt, dann ist es dieser 38-jährige Mann. Als Kind, so hatte er mir am Telefon erzählt, sah er in der Türkei seinen ersten Leuchtkäfer, und eine Liebesgeschichte begann. Er nahm mit einer "Glühwürmchen- Bestandserfassung" bei Jugend forscht teil, studierte Biologie und betreibt seit 20 Jahren eine Website, auf der er Glühwürmchen-Sichtungen in ganz Deutschland einträgt.

Als er vor ein paar Jahren einen Job an einem Berliner Museum bekam, zog er nach Trebbin, ein paar Kilometer südlich der Stadtgrenze, weil er hier – genau – Glühwürmchen gesichtet hatte.

Wir liefen in einen Wald hinein. Es war Mitte Mai. Um diese Jahreszeit fliegen die Glühwürmchen noch nicht, sondern sie krabbeln als Käferlarven über den Waldboden. Ich solle nach schwarzen Käfern Ausschau halten, sagte Spierling, Käfern mit gelblichen Punkten an den Seiten.

Mit gesenktem Kopf mäanderten wir durch kahle Fichtenstämme. Es gab kein Unterholz, kein Moos in diesem Wald. Nur diese Bäume, dünn wie Fahnenmasten, die bedrohlich ächzten. Ein magisches Erlebnis würde man in dieser Baumplantage nicht vermuten, aber aus irgendeinem Grund gibt es hier, erzählte Spierling, zwei der drei Glühwürmchenarten, die in Deutschland ansässig sind.

Spierling ist ein richtiger Bio-Nerd. Stahlbrille der Marke Junior Flex, verträumtes Lächeln. Er teilt seine Wohnung mit selbst gekreuzten Chilis, Fischen und einer Glühwürmchen-Zucht, die bereits die 22. Generation erreicht hat.

Während wir durch den Wald liefen, erzählte er mir vom Lebenslauf des Glühwürmchens: Im Herbst kommt es zur Welt und verbringt dann anderthalb Jahre seines Lebens als Larve, eine Zeit, in der es eigentlich nur frisst, um Energie zu sammeln für den Höhepunkt seines Lebens, diese paar leuchtenden Tage. "Wie Feenstaub", sagte Spierling und ahmte mit dem Finger die beschwipsten Schnörkel nach, die ein Glühwürmchen fliegt.

Eigentlich, erzählte Spierling, diene das Leuchten der Partnersuche: Durch das Leuchten fänden Männchen und Weibchen zusammen. In dem Moment, in dem ein Weibchen begattet werde, mache es das Licht aus.

Nach der Befruchtung, noch in derselben Nacht, legen die Weibchen ihre Eier in die Erde. "Danach ist das Weibchen blattdünn, Luft raus, Aufgabe erfüllt", sagte er.

Kurz darauf sterben die erwachsenen Tiere. Die Paarung, der Moment, auf den sie sich so lange vorbereitet haben, ist vollbracht, ihre Nachkommen sind gezeugt, das individuelle Leben endet, und das Leben der Art geht weiter. "Sie leben nur für die Liebe", sagte Spierling.

Das Wäldchen stieß jetzt an eine Landstraße, wir liefen sie ein paar Meter entlang, vorbei an El Ranchos Steakhouse, und bogen dann in die Bahnhofstraße des Ortsteils Thyrow ein. Es gab einen Hüpfburgverleih, einen Friseur, und irgendwo am Ort gebe es auch einen Hundefriseur, sagte Spierling. Ein Schulbus spuckte ein paar kleine Mädchen aus, sie lachten und schubsten sich.

Ich dachte: Jedes Lebewesen auf der Erde ist das Ende einer langen Kette, die vor Milliarden Jahren mit dem ersten Einzeller begann. Jeder von uns ist eine Krone der Schöpfung. Und mit jedem von uns kann sie enden – und das ist eigentlich der Normalfall: Die allermeisten Lebewesen schaffen es nicht einmal ins Erwachsenenalter, geschweige denn auf die andere Seite, in die nächste Generation. Dass ihnen das gelingt, dafür geben die Glühwürmchen alles, das ist es, dafür steht ihr Leuchten.

Wir standen wieder am Bahnhof. Erst da fiel mir auf, dass ich an diesem Tag kein einziges Glühwürmchen gesehen hatte.

(Leuchtende Glühwürmchen lassen sich in den letzten beiden Juniwochen nach Einbruch der Dunkelheit beobachten, vor allem um den Johannistag herum. Zum Beispiel in dem Wald, der gleich hinter dem Bahnhof von Thyrow, etwa 30 Minuten mit der Regionalbahn vom Berliner Hauptbahnhof, beginnt. Große Vorkommen gibt es in Süddeutschland, weiter nördlich verzeichnet Spierlings Website Sichtungen in Knoops Park in Bremen, im Stadtwald Eilenriede in Hannover und in Dresden im Prießnitzgrund. Ein Glühwürmchen-Tummelplatz ist auch der Waldfriedhof in Schaffhausen/Schweiz.)

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Das unterschätzte Tier

Glühwürmchen lassen nichts anbrennen

Sie ernähren sich von Luft und Liebe, riskieren für eine Liebesnacht den Tod und leuchten.

"Sie strahlen einen wunderbaren, gewissermaßen Erdsternen nachahmenden Glanz aus, welcher mit einer Laterne und dem Monde hinsichtlich der Helligkeit zu wetteifern scheint", schreibt

Alfred Brehm in seinem Tierlexikon.

So viel Poesie für was? Ein Insekt. Ein krabbeliger schwarz-brauner Käfer, vor dem bei Tageslicht vermutlich vorzugsweise kleine Mädchen schreiend davon laufen würden. Fälschlicherweise

wird der Käfer oft als Wurm bezeichnet, aber auch Wurm klingt nicht viel poetischer als Käfer. Dennoch hat es das Glühwürmchen als Protagonist in ein Gedicht von Friedrich Gottlob

Klopstock geschafft.

Dabei hat es eigentlich nicht nur die Beachtung von Dichtern verdient, sondern schafft etwas, worum es Scharen von Ingenieuren – allen voran Thomas Edison – beneiden sollten: Es leuchtet.

Zwar ist es nicht das Hellste (eine Kerze ist 1000-mal heller), aber dafür ist das Glühwürmchen einzigartig effizient. Während jede Glühbirne nur 5% ihrer Energie in Form von Licht und den

Rest als Wärme abgibt, ist es bei den Lampyridae genau umgekehrt: 95% der erzeugten Energie geben sie in Form von Licht ab - eine Effizienz, die bislang noch keine künstlich hergestellte

Lichtquelle geschafft hat.

Überhaupt: Leuchten! Nicht einfach Fluoreszenz (Medus.)/Phosphoreszenz (Klebesterne über dem Kinderbett)/Biolumineszenz = damit die eigene Lampe angeht, müssen sie nicht erst von

der Sonne aufgeladen oder angestrahlt werden. Etwas, was kein anderes an Land lebendes Tier als das Glühwürmchen kann.

Biolumineszenz ist die Fähigkeit von Lebewesen, über eine chemische Reaktion in ihren Zellen Licht zu erzeugen. Dabei setzt das Enzym Luciferase den Stoff Luciferin um. Als Nebenprodukt

dieser Reaktion entsteht Licht. Diese Reaktion können die Käfer an- und ausschalten, sodass sie nicht durchgehend leuchten.

Die Zellen der Glühwürmchen erzeugen also eigenständig Licht. Das unterscheidet die zur Bioluminiszenz fähigen Insekten von anderen Tieren, die nur die Kunst der Phosphoreszenz und

Fluoreszenz beherrschen. Letztere leuchten nur, wenn sie zuvor mit Licht bestrahlt wurden.

Aber nicht nur die ausgewachsenen Käfer leuchten, sondern schon die Eier und Larven sind zur Biolumineszenz fähig.

Die Leuchtzellen, die Laternen genannt werden, befinden sich immer dicht unter der Oberfläche, können aber über den gesamten Körper verteilt sein. Nach innen sind die Laternen mit

Salzkristall-Schichten abgeschirmt, die das Licht körperauswärts reflektieren. Diese spiegelnde Schicht macht die Glühwürmchen zu so effizienten Lichtquellen.

Was im Volksmund "Glühwürmchen" heißt, bezeichnen Insektenforscher als Leuchtkäfer (Lampyridae). Diese Insektenfamilie gibt es fast überall auf der Welt. Glühwürmchen gelten als

Indikatoren für funktionierende Ökosysteme: wo sie leben, ist die Natur noch im Gleichgewicht.

Von Art zu Art ist es abhängig, ob beide Geschlechter fliegen oder leuchten können. Beim Großen Johanniswürmchen (Lampyris noctiluca) etwa können nur die Weibchen leuchten, während

bei dem Kleinen Johanniswürmchen (Lampyris splendidula) beide Geschlechter zur Biolumineszenz fähig sind.

Ihr Körper besteht aus drei Segmenten (Kopf, Körper, Rumpf) und wird mit 18 Millimeter etwas kleiner als eine Büroklammer. Die Larven sind deutlich größer und können bis zu 50 Millimeter

messen. Aber warum macht es das? Warum blinkt und strahlt das Insekt? Doch sicher nicht, damit wir Menschen darüber Gedichte schreiben? Für Glühwürmchen ist ihre körpereigene Lampe lebenswichtig: Sex, Fressen, Nicht-Gefressen-Werden – für all das nutzen Glühwürmchen ihr Strahlen.

Tropische Glühwürmchen-Larven leuchten etwa, um Kröten zu signalisieren, dass sie überhaupt nicht schmackhaft sind, oder um Beute in ihre Netze zu locken, wobei sie das Leuchten

weniger Energie kostet, als jede andere Strategie, über die sie an Beute gelangen würden.

Zur Partnersuche und bei der Fortpflanzung ist es ebenso unerlässlich, als Glühwürmchen im rechten Licht zu stehen. Glühwürmchen-Käfer leuchten nicht einfach irgendwie, sondern nach

einem artspezifischen Muster, an dem sich Weibchen und Männchen erkennen. Mit Signallänge und Rhythmus morsen die Käfer ihre Balzbotschaften nachts durch Wald und Wiese.

Doch je nach Art und Lebensraum flirten Glühwürmchen unterschiedlich: Amerikanische Leuchtkäfer-Männchen (Photinus pyralis) blinken kräftig und warten, bis das Weibchen antwortet.

Bei tropischen Arten synchronisieren alle Käfer ihr Leuchten, sodass ganze Waldränder im gleichen Takt blinken.

Andere Glühwürmchen-Männer setzen im Liebesrausch sogar ihr Leben aufs Spiel. Die Weibchen der tropischen Gattung Photuris ahmen die Signale der Photinus-Weibchen nach und locken

so Photinus-Männchen mit freudiger Erwartung auf ein paarungswilliges Weibchen an. Anstatt Sex zu bekommen, werden sie von den Photuris-Weibchen verspeist.

Glühwürmchen sind überhaupt sehr unerschrockene Zeitgenossen. Während wir Menschen das Schneckenessen dem Klischee entsprechend den Franzosen überlassen, gibt es für heimische

Glühwürmchen-Larven nichts Schmackhafteres als eine schleimig-glitschige Schnecke, die sie mit einem einzigen Gift-Biss außer Gefecht setzen.

Die kleinen Leuchtkäfer nutzen jede Nacht, als wäre es ihre letzte. Sie strahlen aus sich heraus mit voller Kraft und sind dabei auch noch romantisch: Denn ausgewachsene Käfer fressen nichts.

Sie leben von Luft und Liebe. Und ihren Fettreserven. Bis das Licht ausgeht.

Weibchen stirbt nach Eiablage.

[Marty Begin, Toronto]

The Mother of darkness is here

Everywhere and in between,

The silence and the sound,

The void and the round,

The sky and the ground

Many of us are familiar with the magical feeling that we got as a child or even as an adult when we saw or see the firefly glowing on and off in the very dark bush where they glow:

What is that? – A light – ooohhh, it’s a firefly, they’re fireflies!

It was two summers ago when I had the childlike excitement of discovering fireflies, this time in an intentional adventure to find one to triturate so that I could have a remedy to give a patient

I imagined would need it.

It wasn’t much more than my imagination ironically that drew me to that prescription – that and a little help from my patient who told me she was like one: “When I stay busy it makes me feel

attractive, strong, competent, and connected with the world. I’m just walking along the street, just buzzing along – energetic, sassy…. I lay on the charm…People are attracted to me…..

When I’m travelling the most interesting creative people are attracted to me. I give off a kind of energy. I’m a little firefly….I love travelling - you leave behind all the shit in you, you can’t get out….

leave all the responsibilities behind you. It cures my constipation. I feel free, foot loose and fancy, light, strong, thoughtful, clear, and every historical ruin fills me….with a sense of discovery and exploration…”

When my 35 year old publishing editor said she was a firefly, the rest of the case just fell into place for me, and then I had to take a leap of faith to integrate my fantasy with reality, which is what

this remedy is all about. The opportunity presented itself shortly when my email invitation auspiciously decorated with fireflies told of the promise of a summer solstice celebration complete with

a barbeque, a bomb-fire, and fireflies. However my childlike enthusiasm was quelled a couple times – once when I found out what was meant on the invite were imaginary fireflies - light sticks

for the trail at my friend’s party instead of the real thing, and secondly, when after being re-ignited with optimism from discovering real fireflies high in the trees, I thought - but how will I get them?

Fortunately, Calin, 7 years old and a neighbor of my friend’s place, whose name is Gaelic for “child of light” and who pointed out the fireflies in the first place, was willing to hunt one down for me

for the mere offering of $5. After all it was a child’s job. Calin fulfilled her role perfectly and this time both of us were giddily preparing for trituration, although Calin wondered why I had to kill

the poor glowing beetle. POOF went the icing sugar I resorted to using since, leaving everything to the last minute, I couldn’t find any milk sugar. It flew up in the air like fairy dust and left my

friend’s kitchen a mess.

The fairy dust brings us to Tinkerbell and Peter Pan in J.M. Barrie’s play, and it’s archetype, which fits the firefly in a most uncanny way. The firefly, like the play, is about shining light on the dark

or the dark consuming the light. It is about not growing up because of the difficulty of facing the dark side and its intense feelings, and the resultant escape into “Neverland” the fantasy world of

fairies, elves, and Indians. In the play Peter keeps losing his shadow and must get it sewn on by his real world friend Wendy, the one who challenges him to grow up. Or on the other hand, its

about growing up quickly while lighting up the darkness of another, facing, and empathizing with, the dark feelings directly. In Jungian psychology men who never grow up have been said to have

the “problem of puer aeternus” (eternal youth) or the Peter Pan syndrome. Funny that my patient’s best friend she relies on for dream interpretation, is a Jungian analyst, which is very fitting, given

the rich and intense symbolism of my patient’s dreams that she loves and wakes up from with her heart racing. After all dreams are the light in the dark.

The Peter Pan archetype must be so entrenched in the firefly remedy that provers and supervisors had dreams of pirate scenarios and in one case flying hand and hand with the spouse (reminiscent

of Wendy and Peter in the play) over the Moroccan desert, coincidently one of my patient’s “Neverland” escapes. There were a lot of dreams of flying in the proving, two being over the desert.

Archetypes are patterns of the collective unconscious and amazingly there was no shortage of the expression of those patterns in the surrounding popular culture, which I believe was part of the

proving that I think actually began when I decided to use the remedy for my first little firefly patient. It continued with her healing process and then into the proving, and hasn’t quite stopped.

During the year following that beginning spark, the first Peter Pan movie in ten tears came out. If you want to understand this remedy completely, I highly recommend watching it as I did with firefly associations effortlessly falling into place for me because of what I’d seen in my case.

And right around the time period when my patient dreamt of looking at herself as a zombie – an empty dead shell that still exists but has had the life sucked out of her, as she had felt, many zombie

movies seemed to emerge like the Shaun of The Dead and others. In the proving, one prover is extremely affected by The Grudge, a movie about lethal evil infecting places where people died in great

anger or sorrow. Also during the proving a colleague who knew of the proving but couldn’t find the time to partake seemed to find time with her husband, in a monomaniacal style, to watch all the

Buffy the Vampire episodes, a more or less adolescent T.V. series. As well as “Buffy” being about the redemption of the dark side, the producer went on to make another series called Firefly, which

was taken off the air the same year the firefly was coming to be seen.

Just before the proving, Finding Neverland was released (also worth seeing for firefly purposes), a film about J.M. Barrie’s (played by Johnny Depp) inspiration for Peter Pan. And at the time of

writing this (Dec. ’04), I see a Toronto Star front page headline over top a J.M. Barrie photo taken in 1906 of the “Peter” that inspired his play, which reads “Original Peter Pan set to fly Off

Auction Block.” Apparently the $47,000 photo will be auctioned off at Sotheby’s in England along with original manuscripts and costumes, to coincide with the centenary of the first performance.

The light of the firefly, although not so efficient energy-wise really wants to get out there and be seen, just like fairies that must be believed in, in order to exist or be healed from a sacrificial poisoning

for Peter Pan. And that point, as well as my quest to verify what I learned from my seemingly fantastical prescription and result, lead me to do the proving. And as you’re starting to see, everything that came up in my case, the source knowledge, what I’m writing now, a lot of emerging pop culture, and the proving symptoms/experiences all perfectly became as one - one little Lamprohiza splendidula!

I thought I’d checked, but with the help of a colleague, the Lamprohiza species is the one I discovered about 5 months into my case to be available at Helios pharmacy, and this is the species I used for

my proving – in the 200, and 30, and one prover got a 100C for fun. The proving ended up involving 12 women and 6 men, some provers way more responsible than others, and some visible more than others. The species I potentised myself was probably Photinus pyralis, but changing species didn’t make any noticeable difference in my case. Other beetles or Coleotoptera we use in homeopathy are Coccinella septempunctata, or the lady bug, Cantharis (Meloe) vesicatoria or Spanish fly, and the less known oil beetle Meloe majalis. The beetle family, as suggested in Cantharis vesicatoria, have

some vesicular action, and there was some definite herpetic action in the proving.

We also see the connection to the “beetle” family when prover #21 tells of the primary response to the remedy, a general feeling that was common with other provers:

20 – 21 h. For the past hour, I’ve felt very alert/awake/excited, as if slightly tipsy. At the same time, I feel jumpy/shaky, as if I had drunk coffee! It’s very unusual for me to feel this way at the end of

a long day, especially since I felt tired the whole day. Now I feel really “hyper” and I’ve also had the urge to sing odd songs like “she got a ticket to ride” from the Beatles. I hope I’ll be able to sleep tonight.

She certainly experienced a kind of “beetle-mania” One other interesting connection to the source that manifested in prover # 14 (one who made a late appearance) was the feeling that she had to

move her head from side to side as if she were a dove or pigeon, and as if her eyes were on the tops and sides of her head so she had to move her head to see. (Literally like a firefly) I love those

bizarre source sensations in provings that make us ponder the possession that happens. This prover was also able to identify a strong dichotomy in things -heart or mind, black or white, yin or yang-

that kind of thing, she said. This duality is fundamental in the expression of this remedy – how things get very dark before we start to see the light again, or the dynamic between light and dark.

Other words in the proving commonly used to describe the general feeling which was a primary response in many provers were: clear, light, a buzz, logical, jittery, giggly, high, pure adrenaline,

elevated, good, happy, busy,energetic, handle a lot of things competently, upbeat and giddy, chipper, light, swing into activity – doing and being, a mild “speed-like” anticipation, impulsive but impressionable, heightened awareness and openness, a morning person now, and I need to be walked.(like a dog presumably)

An opposite primary reaction to this kind of adrenal rush, or in some cases the secondary reaction came with words like blah, scattered, need to escape from responsibilities, foreboding, very tired, sad, irritable, chaos and stress, a fog and tuned out. And this included a dread of the approaching winter.

Prover # 8 described these light and dark polarities very well:

8 02: XX:XX I’m in a very good mood which I might attribute to the sun

8 05: 17:00 Anyway, on my way home, and after a rainfall, the sun came out quite brilliantly. The light was beautiful. I was going to get home for a nap but after this, I stayed awake because the extra

light was so invigorating. Made me think I’d better plan a sunny retirement.

8 07: XX:XX (3 entries) I’m dreading winter; There’s a broadcaster in his early 30’s with MS. He’s been in remission for over 8yrs because he mega-doses on vitamin c. The highest incidence of MS

is right here in Canada. This guy thinks it's because we see so little sunlight from October to May. Maybe he's right. I'm sad about the approaching winter. It's never bothered me as much before.

The dread of the dark cold winter, metaphorically speaking, is very thematic for this remedy. Again, we see the total denial of the dark or shadow side or on the other hand, embracing it, or shining light

on the dark. My first firefly patient’s challenge was to integrate these two sides of her, as they couldn’t be more in a dichotomy with each other. Incidentally, her attraction to and amelioration from the sun, and the opposite, was very marked. The dark and light side for her was especially reflected (and I specifically use that word) in her relationships. A very common dream theme in the proving was dreams of old boyfriends or the return of past relationships in general. And for some in the real world, very past relationships, romantic and otherwise, would resurface after many years. At the start of

my case, my patient had what she called a “Peter Pan boyfriend” and even though she didn’t see it, she too was very non-committal. After a few subsequent relationships that reflected the dark and

light side in her, she came to be more integrated, and facing the Peter Pan problem, she is now living happily ever after in a house with the first more settled Peter Pan man!! Her mind and body have

also come together as her somatitized problems have totally improved. Her irritable bowel and hormonal problems that we also saw in the proving are gone. One prover’s period became regulated

curatively in the proving as did my patient’s on the remedy.

One supervisor who ended up needing an antidote (I used luna, as the glowing full moon affront the dark clouds was a proving notable, and the heightened emotion associated with luna) was more

ready than ever to end her marriage, and another prover made a proposal to his girlfriend after not wanting to face it.

Another prover clearly was seeing her dark side of addiction and bodily abuse reflected back to her by her husband. That prover’s whole trip during the proving was to start really respecting her body

and integrate body and mind. And this was exactly what was happening in my case where my patient would kind of be at war with her body – a real mind/body split. The same prover gave her husband

her reserve dose (that maybe I shouldn’t have given people): 7 02: 01:00 I got D to take the remedy and now we’re communicating even better than yesterday.

Prover # 8’s Halloween costume she called “Suicide Romantic” reminded me of the relationship element of the firefly “…old military jacket, little plastic red hearts, wires and black candles (unlit) with wicks and alarm clocks all stuck to my person with black electrical tape.”

Many provers felt a great empathy for the suffering or tragedies of others (and it seemed a lot of those were being encountered/heard of). They also felt an openness to hear the deep authentic feelings expressed by others. It’s common in provings but almost seemed more marked how supervisors experienced many of the symptoms of their provers. On the other hand generally there was an intentional disconnection from others. In one case this quality of isolation emerged from the overwhelming sense of being “trapped in her feelings”

The dark side is about strong emotions like grief and jealousy, and the guilt and depression that will result from avoiding them. It’s about tragedy, death, abuse, drugs like heroin, prostitution, pedophilia (probably), sex, shit, blackness, denial itself, war, poisoning, freezing, stealing your soul, and sucking your blood. What I’ve been taught in my case(s) and proving is that to pursue the light to the extreme

is to encounter the darkness – as we see in addictions, and to face the darkness one either escapes into the light, or adapts to and accepts the dark side. It’s as sure as night turns into day and day turns into night. If we try to resist the emergence of either dark or light, the insidious oppression will grow stronger until it must be exorcised. Interestingly one supervisor, a counselor who does dance workshops, created a new workshop she called, “THE DARK EMBRACE – A movement journey into the dark embrace of mystery and magic” The poem she made for her flyer is the introductory one above.

The most extreme examples of these themes are two provers who disappeared and didn’t show up to the final meeting, but appeared later to reveal their stories.

One was a woman, whose native spiritual name was Star Magic, believe it or not. (There is also some native element to the remedy I believe) She was reasonably happy with her marriage, but noticed that her husband had a jealous tendency and would kind of hold her ambitions down at times when she’d be excited about something. And she felt that way with others as well. During the proving her

husband became literally insanely jealous, and she had to get away from him and I think she’ll end the marriage. Ironically though, (and thankfully) she felt liberated and self-empowered like she had

found her true self again. That feeling – to find or keep one’s true self against the backdrop of dark oppressive forces, was thematic in my case and elsewhere in the proving.

The other was a male who went on this prostitute adventure and ended up with an incredible feeling of empathy for an abused and beaten prostitute who told him of other dark horrific stories out there

in that dark place. He concluded that other people problems could hardly be problematic relative to what he felt about this prostitute. Generally in his regular self, this prover often ponders what it is to

be enlightened, and about attachment and detachment.

A few provers seemed to resonate closely with this remedy. There was one prover, quite sensitive to the remedy, with a kind of not grown up Peter Pan baseline. He said he only takes responsibility for things when there’s a crisis. In the proving he had intense foreboding feelings as if that crisis would happen and he really should do something about something. He also had some magical native sweat lodge experiences. A couple provers had the desire to cleanse - in a big way. Another prover’s own nature – a reserved, lie low disposition -was the opposite of what came out with her- a desire to strut

her stuff and show off a little wearing more makeup, stylish clothes, and feeling good about it – unheard of for her.

Just a few more physical points that stood out were: Slivers/splinters (glass or wood); hunger/no appetite; desire for pizza/junk food, cheese; Hot, broiling/cold, freezing; nausea, pungent smelling urine, metallic taste, and alopecia aerates.

Although there are many expressions of a remedy, my feeling for the firefly, based on clinical experience (3 very good cases) and now this proving, is that that the expression I’m presenting to you now

is what needs to be seen fundamentally. Of course there is a lot more in the proving and clinically than what I’ve presented here, and different takes and more discoveries are absolutely possible.

If some of you are having trouble believing, the entire proving will shine sometime in 2005 on Lou Klein’s website: www.homeopathycourses.com. The remedy may also show up on the next version of Referenceworks. The summary below is what I originally made from my first case. Amazingly, all of these symptoms/ideas came up in the proving except perhaps the interpreted archetypes (A) and a couple points from source material (S) and the odd exception that was only clinical (C):

Phosphorescence (S), bioluminescence (S)

Glowing, flashing, fire, light, spark, brilliant, to be seen, be noticed, small

Hold a flame/ burned, singed; frozen, paralyzed

Energy efficiency, inefficiency, hummingbird(C,S)

Childish enthusiasm; like a child

Huge passions

Little girls, little boys, about age 7 or 14

Poison (C,S,A), defense, aggressive mimicry(S)

Pollution, chemical

Purity and clarity

Clean/dirty

Appearing/attracting and disappearing/repulsing

Commitment /non-commitment

On and Off

Visible and invisible

Fleeting, flying

Memory disappearing – amnesia, worse on waking

Fantastic dreams verses real life

Childhood fantasy

Sexual attraction, unrequited/abusive sexuality

Dark and light, black and white, darkness aggravates

Light and heavy

Pessimist/optimist

Overpowering the size of a fly(C)

Overwhelming power disguised as vulnerability

Vulnerability and power

Protection of vulnerability

Taken advantage of

Fear of needles

Fulfilled/filled and unfulfilled/homoeopathiepleted

Unreciprocated energy output/love

Free/escaping from responsibility, travel

Working hard to shine

Desire for and ameliorated from travel

Romantic adventure

Not growing up

Duty/caring for the family and the job/task; Anxiety for family

Free in the light and trapped in the dark, or vice versa

Digging a tunnel (S,C)

Deeply underground (C)

An animal down there

Like a geyser (C)

Dinosaurs (C)

Vampire, blood, fear of needles

Invasion of evil, Exorcism

Zombies, an empty shell

Extinction

Androgyny

Shape-shifting (C)

Vulnerability, skeleton, mortality

Body goes cold and numb with emotion

Innocently haughty – childish egotism

Forsaken, violated feelings

Isolation

Difficulty integrating the dark or shadow side

Denial of the shadow/dark/hidden side; missing/losing the shadow

Self reproach

Reflection of the shadow

Seeing yourself through other people’s eyes

Difficulty expressing true feelings

Can’t live with conflict (discord)

In a heartbeat it’s gone

Hidden guilt, suspicion, investigations

Elicit and lawful; guilty or innocent?; suspected of a crime

Coquettish

Loquacious

Little girls story telling

Fairytales (A)

Fairy dust (A)

Peter Pan and Tinkerbell (A)

Peter Pan and Wendy (A)

Tinkerbell (A)

Seen, loved, admired, and believed in.

Cocky, strutting rooster

Narcissistic sacrifice, unrequited sacrifice (Observed and interpreted)

Difficulty in gaining perspective on, or integrating, big/homeopatiage and small, work and freedom, dream life and real life.

Delusions: separated: mind and body are

Delusion, she is a dog

Depression, indolence

Weeping after coition (C)

Weeping, while trying to talk

Weeping, general

Anxiety, heart palpitations on waking, and on waking from a dream

Desire for red wine/and aggravated by

Sleeplessness, waking frequently

Sleepiness, unrefreshed, morning

Shuttering in grievous pain

Fear of impending disease

Delusion, she is contagious

Hypocondriasis

Menses, irregular

Metrorrhagia: menses: between

Dysmenorrhia

Oral contraceptives aggravate

Screeching noises from the depths/bowels(C)

Rectum, bleeding from (C)

Hunger with the pain

Nausea with heart racing on waking (C)

Constipation: alternating with diarrhea

Abdomen, pain, cramps, with

Rectum, constipation, following emotion (C)

Abdominal pain, pimples with

Abdomen, pain, sharp and nauseating, as if pouring vinegar on an open sore.(C,P)

Extremities: upper limbs: stiffness: shoulders

Extremities: twitching

Face, swelling (C)

Skin: eruptions: pimples, herpes (lips)

Skin, eruptions, pimples, burning, wine aggravates

Skin, dry and burning, as if somebody lit a match on it. (C, P)

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