Positronium
= an atomic
structure consisting of an electron and a positron/= Anti Matter
https://www.homeopathyschool.com/the-school/provings/anti-matter/
Vergleich: Siehe: Imponderables
Comparison. Pink with Luna + Magnetis Polus
Arcticus + Magnetis Polus Australis + Positronium + Radium bromatum + Sol +
X-ray.
In February 1998 we initiated a formal proving of positronium at the
the summer of 1997. Ethanol in a vial was exposed to the radiation of
decaying positronium - approximately 1,000,000,000 annihilation events being
captured over a 24 hour period. This was run up to the thirtieth centesimal at
Helios Homœopathic Pharmacy. This was the proving potency.
A brief account of electrons, positrons (anti-electrons) and positronium
follows this introduction and some account of Paul Dirac, the Nobel prize
winning scientist who first postulated the mathematics of anti-matter, is given
in an appendix.
About positronium: it is formed of a positron (anti-electron) and an
electron in mutual orbit; it is structured in a similar way to hydrogen,
however it has almost no mass.
It has been suggested that at the beginning of time the universe was
largely, though momentarily composed of positrons and electrons, of
positronium. It is the precursor of the hydrogen atom. Naturally, this atomic
configuration is only semi-stable. In the first micro-seconds of the universe,
as now, its components, electron and anti-electron annihilate each other when
they get too close, when the molecule collapses. This annihilation results in a
'flash' of electromagnetic radiation. Since positronium is made up of both
particle and anti-particle, it assumes a position mid way between matter and
anti-matter. When it decays, it is converted into a pulse of pure energy. This
threefold state has been picked up by a number of provers for whom the number 3
was prevalent in dreams and waking experiences. It also provides a convenient
way to arrange and "map" the symptoms and themes of the proving, as
we shall see later.
Positronium is readily produced in small quantities by the decay of the
radioactive isotope Sodium 22. It is used in the most exacting imaging
technology by the medical profession. This aspect was sensed and reproduced by
many provers also, whose detailed appreciation of internal structures was
unusually marked.
It has been postulated that in the big bang at the beginning of time,
matter and anti-matter coemerged, each having opposite charge, opposite spin
and moving in contrary motion, the one from time past to future, the other from
time future to time past. It is therefore also postulated that somewhere there
may be a parallel universe identical to our own but composed of a preponderance
of anti-matter in which events occur in anti-time. Were we to meet with this anti-universe,
then we would annihilate each other in one mighty flash! These aspects came out
in many provers, but none as strongly as for the pharmacist at Helios who ran
our positronium up to the thirtieth centicimal potency without knowing what it
was. I had marked the vial from Kris Kurtz,
"Misha's mystery!" She wrote about her experiences:
The Hunter: being hunted. Explosive, Running Scared. Being pursued.
Fear and fascination by death.
Final acceptance of being slaughtered or killed, like a rabbit or a
lamb, something innocent. Sacrifice.
Fear, anticipation in pit of stomach. Foreboding.
Heart pathology; breathlessness from irregular, inefficient, or weak
heart beat.
Lingering disease. People with repeated strokes or heart attacks, whose
life force is withdrawing and they are waiting for the next attack.
Feel like my hands are being tied up and bound, as if I have been
kidnapped and am about to go through an ordeal.
Weakness, trembling of the hands, loss of power.
As if I am in a situation where a member of my family has been brutally
killed or dismembered. Shock that another human being could do such a thing. As
if I found someone brutally murdered, particularly someone I knew.
Sinking feeling; downward pressure on the head (going down the back of
my neck; base of skull; downward). Collapse; could pass out.
Facing my worst fear; being trapped, as in a basement or cell, with a
man who is going to torture and kill me slowly with great malicious delight.
Cannot escape it, no way out. This is it.
(This is a deep unconscious fear that has come up for me in the past. It
manifests for me only when a man wants to commit to me in relationship.
Therefore I have "escaped"
so far since I have chosen not to commit to anyone yet, but it puts me
in that irrational fear state that I will die and not be able to escape.)
Images that remind me of the Wests' cruelty and murder; of the
dismemberment and killing of that young girl in London.
Very difficult moving my limbs; feel greatly restricted, powerless.
Self mutilation; slow fascination with watching a knife cut through my
skin, or an artery, watching the blood; watching myself bleed to death.
The heaviness of all this just beginning to lift. Feel severely shocked
and sickened by it.
Also of interest is the fact that within half a year of these proving
experiences (having subsequently lost her fear of commitment) she married. So
surprised was she at the changes wrought in her being, which she attributed to
the depth and intensity of the dynamization process/proving experience, that
she begged to be told the name of the proving material, which by then we had
proved.
You have only to imagine the dawning of comprehension as the
significance of anti-matter and matter in conjunction, struck her! But I am
getting ahead of myself.
Formal proving began amongst 3rd year homœopathy students in March 1998.
In May we video recorded the group at the School as they reviewed their proving
diaries of the past two months.
As we have come to expect, provers who had not taken the pill were also
affected. Many of the recounted experiences were heavy. First thing next
morning, before anyone had arrived, I played back the recording, finding that
as the tape progressed the images began to break up. As a latter prover delved
into her sensations of contraction,
as if squeezed into impossible denseness accompanied by a sense of having
touched pure evil, the video tape image blanked out entirely. Her disembodied
voice, however, continued to describe her descent into this darkest of places.
I stopped the tape, running forwards, to find that the end, the last
provers accounts were technically fine: perfectly clear images. I put in
another tape: no problem.
I put back the proving tape and rewound it to the position of the
blanked out prover: sound without vision. I marvelled at the phenomenon of the
intense psychic field which the recounting of the proving had generated
interfering with the electronics or the tape in the camcorder. When we had
assembled for our morning teaching session the following day, we 'ran over' the
physics of Positronium, from big bang to anti-matter and matter, connecting the
signature to the proving: the basic split which had so clearly emerged, the
'light' side of spiritual confluence with beauty and goodness which some had
felt, or experienced as detachment from the gross physical aspects of the
sensuous, and the 'dark' side which the 'blanked' prover had so vividly
experienced. Then I explained about the video tape, the closing down ritual which
we had initiated the day before and were concluding today. And guess what: the
video tape image, while still breaking up somewhat, had begun to heal itself,
the image had re-emerged!
Of course, there is a perfectly materialistic explanation for this
phenomenon, namely progressive contamination followed by decontamination of the
video head after
repeated playings. However, the fact that this had been the first time
that the head of this camcorder had clogged up and the fact that it now plays
tapes perfectly, tends to mitigate against this explanation. Be that as it may,
there must be a material component in order that the phenomenon occur! In any
culture other than our own it would be felt and understood as natural that
water, wind, stones, and leaves all 'speak' to us, as do birds and beasts,
making our experience of the sensuous world about us that of a living, sacred
organism without a split.
I, in common with a number of provers, was effected firstly in a
positive way, I felt connected to spirit, but after a few weeks I descended
into a deeply despairing state, feeling the suffering of humans and the Earth.
This was not a new state of awareness, far from it, however it was
uncomfortably intense. It has not reoccurred since the proving. As the intensity
was marked, so has been the subsequent absence of eco-despair: the curative
action. I wrote the following poem while in the aggravated state.
Warring against Nature
Warring against
Nature, wrenching forests,
disembowelling
have us in the grip of
Karma. Of course we attempt
to bury our distress,
corpse like, in deepest graves,
above which carrion
birds of ill-health craw.
Dis-ease is an
expression, which like the spiral
of vultures describes
a deeper location.
Here isolation, fear,
shame, and hatred
are buried beneath a
mound of compensations
which we have tried to
turn into alters of virtue
or conceal behind
screens of manic activity.
We would like to
believe we are puppet masters,
yet when puppet
twitches, who then is boss?
How many wars against
ourselves must we fight
before it becomes evident
that vanquished
and victor inhabit the
same body? that monoculture
and cancer are
similar, being cells of one kind?
Although from moment
to moment we are
being refilled from
Nature's source, yet driven
by internal unrest we
turn away from clarity.
Obscured in bustle and
business finer tones
are lost to stoppered
ears.
Because impulses for
right and wrong
coemerge, harm is
engendered only
when we ignore the bird song in the
forest.
See, see, red as fresh
rust the vixen is abroad!
River flows deep under
arching trees
where kingfisher is
faster than blue fire.
The Substance
[Peter Fraser]
The History of the Atom
The concept of the atom, the smallest possible piece of a substance, was
first proposed by Democritus in the 5th century BC. It was not a
concept that appealed to Aristotle, whose philosophy guided western thought
into modern times, and had no real relevance until the nineteenth century, when
chemists and physicists became interested in the finer structure of matter. To
some degree, the concept that there were very small particles of a substance
was often assumed and it was convincingly demonstrated by Einstein and Perrin
around the turn of the century.
It was in the last years of the 19th century that J.J.
Thomson discovered that electrons were particles and that the atom was made up
of smaller constituent parts.
The first model of the atom was "The Christmas Pudding" model
in which the atom was made up of nuclear particles spread through it, much as
currants and raisins in a Christmas pudding.
Ernest Rutherford: In the first decade of the twentieth century was
using alpha radiation to look at the structure of the atom. He discovered than
when he fired this heavy radiation at a fine sheet of gold foil most of the
particles passed through, some altering course slightly, but a tiny number
bounced backwards. This was as surprising as if you fired a gun at a tissue and
the bullet bounced off it. The only plausible explanation was that almost all
the mass of an atom was concentrated in a tiny region, perhaps just a billionth
of the whole, while the rest was empty space.
This led to the Solar System model of the atom in which almost all the
mass and all of the positive charges are concentrated in a nucleus made up of
protons and neutrons, like the sun in the solar system, and negatively charged
electrons orbit it, just as the planets do the sun.
This model has serious problems but it does have the merit of being
intelligible, easily visualised and it does cover the basic facts.
Over the next 25 years various physicists, including Einstein,
Heisenberg, Schrödinger, Bohr, Planck and Dirac, came up with mathematical
descriptions of the atom that were increasingly accurate and which were
confirmed by experiment. Because this was a purely mathematical model,
experiment tended to confirm mathematics rather than mathematics explain
experiment.
By the late 1920's an accurate mathematical model of the atom had been
developed. This was known as the Copenhagen Interpretation. Yet this model of
the atom lacks “Anschaulichkeit”, this means that it cannot be visualised or
graphically demonstrated.
This mathematical description is accurate but it does not describe what
is there; rather, it describes the probability that a certain result will be
found when a measurement is taken. However, the act of taking a measurement and
the type of measurement taken have an effect on the result. If you measure a
sub-atomic particle as if it were a wave, you get a result that proves it is a
wave;
if you measure it as if it were a particle you get a result that proves
it to be a particle not a wave. In fact it seems that sub-atomic particles do
not have an actual existence until they are measured and the existence that
they take is affected by that measurement.
This seems to be complete nonsense but no one has been able to find a
description that does make sense. Most physicists have been deeply unhappy with
this state of affairs and have spent much of their time trying unsuccessfully
to disprove their own theories. Einstein famously said that quantum mechanics
could not be true because "God does not play at dice" though one wag
replied: "Einstein does not tell God what to do."
The Electron and The Positron
The Solar System model of the Atom is the most accurate one that has
“Anschaulichkeit”, that we can make a visual image of. It is therefore the one
that is most often used
to describe an atom generally. In this model the nucleus, or
"sun" is made up of positively charged protons and uncharged
neutrons, while the orbiting "planets" are negatively charged electrons.
Some of the electrons in an atom are less firmly held than others and in some
materials they "escape" and wander about. In metals it is these loose
or free electrons that "carry" a current through wires and do work in
light bulbs and appliances. With the right device electrons can be dragged free
and "fired" through a vacuum.
It is a stream of such electrons, manipulated by magnetic fields, that hit the
specially treated surface on the back of a television screen and so produce the
picture.
Around 1930 Paul Dirac developed an equation that described the
electron. At first he believed it was incorrect because it came up with what he
thought were impossible solutions. He eventually accepted that these impossible
solutions must be correct and he demonstrated how they proved that for every
particle there was another particle that was both alike and opposite.
The smallest and therefore the easiest to create and identify of these
anti-particles is the anti-electron which came to be called the positron. A few
years later positrons were found among the particles generated by cosmic gamma
rays, radiation from outer space.
The positron is mathematically best described as an electron moving
backwards through time. Although this concept is fundamental to Feynman's Quantum
Electro Dynamics, it is something that even quantum physicists have trouble
getting their heads around. A positron behaves just like an electron with all
its attributes reversed. When an electron and a positron come together they
annihilate each other, all their mass is converted into energy. This is what
makes anti-matter the ideal fuel for the
At high enough temperatures this process of annihilation is reversible
and during the first microseconds after the "big bang" positrons and
electrons were being continuously destroyed and created. At the temperatures on
Earth it is much more difficult to make anti-particles and they are only
created in quantity in enormous underground particle accelerators such as CERN
which is many kilometres in diameter and straddles the French-Swiss border.
Positrons can be more easily made in small quantities by the decay of isotopes
of elements which do not have sufficient numbers of neutrons to keep them
stable. They are used medically in Positron Emission Tomography, which is
probably the most accurate and detailed method of looking inside a living body.
Positronium
Although positrons and electrons will annihilate each other if they come
together, in the right conditions they can form a reasonably stable substance
in which an electron and a positron circle each other without immediately
coming close enough to react. This substance, positronium, is much like a
hydrogen atom without mass. Positronium has the ability to become 3 very
different forms. If a neutron, the uncharged particle within the atom, were to
combine with the positron a normal hydrogen atom would be formed; if an
anti-neutron were to combine with the electron an atom of anti-hydrogen would
be created; and if the positronium were to become unstable energy would be
created and the positronium itself would become non existent. This inherent
threefold potentiality: matter, anti-matter and energy, is an important
characteristic of the substance.
Pharmaceutical Preparation
The homeopathic remedy "Positronium" was prepared using
positrons from a Na-22 source, which were passed through a nitrogen gas cell to
form postronium by capturing electrons of the nitrogen atoms. The resulting
positronium beam then impinged on a metal surface, where the positronium atoms
decayed, giving off the characteristic 511 keV radiation. A glass vial filled
with 96% ethanol was exposed to this radiation for 24 hours and then potentized
to 30C by the Helios Homœopathic Pharmacy. The strength of the positronium beam
was approximately 10 million positronium atoms per second. A total of
approximately 10^9 (1.000.000.000) annihilation events were captured by the
glass vial.
Mind Themes of Positronium
The mind symptoms have been divided into the following themes. This is,
of course, an entirely arbitary division and many symptoms could be placed in
more than one category. It does, however, have the advantage of bringing some
order and clarity to the mass of materia medica.
Matter
Weight
Earthy
Stony
Compression
Oppression
Oneness
Centred
Calm
Within oneself
Self-centred
Clarity
Clarity
Structure
History
Organized
Unsure
Torn apart
Foreign place
Energy
Energy
Curiosity
Restlessness
Weakness
Aggression
Aversion to exercise
Indifference
Practicality
Flat
Can't be bothered
Indifference to sex
Isolation
Decay
Threatened
Ugly
Destruction
Dirt
Death
Evil
Appendix
Heisenberg, Schrödinger and Dirac
The three eponymous equations of quantum physics were written by three
very different men.
Heisenberg was of the German Romantic tradition. He hated the cities and
loved climbing mountains and the poetry of Goethe. He was deeply dissatisfied
that his work had proved that you could not have an accurate picture of the
atom (The Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle) and that it could be described
perfectly only through mathematics.
Schrödinger was a passionate man and a notorious womaniser. While
Heisenberg found inspiration walking in the mountains, Schrödinger found his in
the excitement of his latest affair of the heart. He was also unhappy with a
purely mathematical model and attempted to develop a classical wave model. In
the end he came up with a different mathematical model that still lacked
“Anschaulichkeit”. He eventually showed that there were two mutually exclusive
models, neither of which could be visualized and both of which were apparently
true.
Paul Dirac, whose equation led to the discovery of the positron, was
unusual in that he seems to have been quite happy with a purely mathematical
model. His only complaint was that the mathematics was too complicated and so
the theory lacked the simplicity and beauty that he sought in mathematics. He
believed that: "Physical laws should have mathematical beauty."
Paul Dirac was born in
This reticence became a life long tendency to say only what was
necessary, to say it in the most clear and concise way, and to say it only
once. When Dirac wrote an article or gave a lecture he considered it
unnecessary to change his carefully chosen phrases. When somebody in the
audience asked him to explain a point he had not understood. Dirac would repeat
exactly what he had said before, using the very same words. He was only
interested in the big and interesting problems. "He would never, between
his great discoveries, do any sort of bread and butter problem. He would not be
interested at all."
Dirac had almost no feeling for poetry and literature, in which he
differed from a surprising number of the great modern physicists. He commented
on Crime and Punishment: "It is very nice, but in one chapter the author
made a mistake. He describes the sun as rising twice on the same day." He
once said to Robert Oppenheimer "How can you do both physics and poetry?
In physics we try to explain in simple terms something that nobody knew before.
In poetry it is the exact opposite." When Oppenheimer offered him some
books to read he politely refused saying that: "reading books interfered
with thought."
"Dirac's ascetic lifestyle, his indifference to discomfort or food
has been likened to that of Gandhi. He neither touched alcohol nor
smoked." His wife claimed that he was not an atheist, but he did once
state that he was the physicist Pauli once said: "There is no God and
Dirac is his prophet." His lifestyle has often been described as monastic
and he was said to be one of the few physicists who could work as well on a
desert island.
On being awarded the Nobel Prize his first instinct was to refuse it
because he did not like publicity. However, when
In 1937 he married Margit Wigner Balasz, the sister of a professor at
Paul Dirac trained as an engineer but when he graduated he could not
find work and went back to
A little before he died Dirac was asked to talk at the
My life has been a failure." Niels Bohr seems to have summed up
many people's understanding of Dirac when he said, "Of all physicists,
Dirac has the purest soul."
I have written at length about Dirac because many of the distinctive
features of his story echo themes that came up in the proving. It is not after
all surprising that the discoverer of a substance should have a certain
affinity for it.
Much of this material was shamelessly culled from Paul Dirac: aspects of
his life and work by Abraham Pais in Paul Dirac: The Man and his Work edited by
Peter Goddard.
[Sankaran]
Positronium (invisible; annihilation) bears some similarities with
hydrogen (conflict between earthly and other-worldly existence). For two people I've seen in the past, there
was a sense of being physically present but not truly interacting with
others. One person had grown up with an
alcoholic father, who would back her into a corner and verbally abuse her for
hours. She described the experience as
being shot repeatedly by an AK 47--she had no place to retreat except within
herself.
The second person had been in psychotherapy in the past, and her
therapist at the time made the astute observation that she was making herself
invisible (and she also described doing so in our interview). I don't recall the circumstances which
contributed to this pattern. Although
positronium cured both patients of retreating within themselves for protection,
after the remedy they found themselves "present", on the world-stage,
and now they had to learn new ways of dealing with the world in general.
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