Alligator mississippiensis
The central
issue has to do with power. Self confidence and self assertion were some of the
strongest themes in the proving. Many of the provers described a feeling of
self reliance and an
ability to
do things that they felt uncomfortable with before. This was associated with a
feeling of increased alertness. There was a strong feeling of freedom,
fearlessness, majesty and beauty associated with that power. There was also a
feeling that there were no limits to what one could do. This was experienced by
some provers as a mania, while other provers experienced
significant
depression, even to the point of feeling that life was not worth living. This
remedy has been demonstrated to be effective in bipolar illness.
Negativ: greed and anger. The greed was best exemplified
through themes pertaining to stealing and theft. There were strong fears of
robbers.
Dreams:
robbers/espionage/crime families and urges to steal coupled with a lack of
remorse.
Mythos: the
crocodilians carry the world in Aztec belief, have been associated with greed
and hypocrisy, as well as judges of guilt and innocence. The opposite side of
this issue had to do with the need for increased security.
The anger
could be intense and sudden. Mostly manifested as irritability, coupled with
intolerance and impatience. Several described it as a “chip on their shoulder”.
The anger was easily
triggered
(noise). Feeling attacked and having to defend oneself (from others
“stupidity”). Being “touchy” and “snappish”.
One prover
described it as follows:
I was
really irritable-intrusive thoughts throughout the day of anger and
irritability. My terror was that I could not control my anger. If I did not
everything would explode. It was a feeling of
infinite
anger-so angry that I could destroy everything around me.
When
someone picks up a baby alligator this generally elicits a plaintive distress
call and all the alligators in the area elicit strong aggressive defensive
behaviors.
Many of the
provers described a strong connection to death. One prover related that her
fiancee had suddenly died 9 months prior to taking the remedy. She had
struggled trying to make sense
of this
experience and to achieve closure. The night after the first dosage of the
remedy, she had an experience which lasted the whole night in which she
reconnected with him. She says:
He filled
my entire dream - as if he was the only thing that existed. We talked all night
and it lasted all night and I cannot tell you everything that was said. There
were so many things that were covered that I wanted to say and never said
before. He soothed away all my pain-it was more real than anything I ever
experienced while I was awake. It was beautiful beyond compare and
there was a
feeling of peace and joy. What allowed me to do this was that I felt much
closer to death than before-life and death were much closer. Now I feel much
more and peace with my
fiancee
than before.
She also
had a similar experience with her ex-husband who had also died.
Mythos:
Crocodilians connected to the underworld and to death. Sobek was the
crocodilian God directly related to Set, the God of darkness and death. They
were described as ferryman
for
departed souls as well as judges of the dead. This also took the form during the
proving of reconnecting to that which had been lost.
The energy
of the proving was often intense, sudden and violent. It was described by many
as a feeling of panic or terror which was intense and overwhelming. This was
described as being
similar to
how it felt when suddenly abandoned as a small child. One prover described:
I was
asleep for one hour and woke up paralyzed with fear and total terror. I was
frozen and could not move. It was the most fearful that I have ever been in my
life. If I moved a muscle I
would be in
real trouble-felt my heart would pound out of my chest-I felt the terror when I
was 6 years old and left alone when my dad had to take my mom somewhere in
Chicago and I was left alone, It was very similar to that.
My blood
pressure went up afterwards and this persisted for weeks (150/105). I felt
anxious, irritable, trembling- it felt like sympathetic overflow; on edge and
jumpy.
Crocodilians
are mostly nocturnal hunters and rely on stealth, speed and surprise. They are
idle hunters, lying in wait in the offshore shallows and relying on camouflage.
They are rarely seen
prior to an
attack.
Animal
themes in the proving. In addition to the themes of attack and defense, many of
the provers experience increased sexuality and themes of competition. There
were many experiences and dreams of animals throughout the proving. In
particular large animals were a recurrent theme.
Water
themes were strongly present. This manifested through images of diving,
swimming, floating and fish. Many of the provers had a strong craving for fish
and in particular salmon. Provers spoke of feeling peaceful and at home in the
water. One proving became mesmerized by large fountains during the proving and
spend many enjoyable hours with them. Another interesting aspect of the water
theme had to do with irrigation.
four of the
provers had dreams relating to irrigation. This may have to do with the
importance of water levels for the alligator nests. These nests are precarious
and with even small amounts of flooding they can be destroyed.
The
sensitivity to noise in many of the provers was fairly profound.
This
produced significant irritability and was strongest with voices. Crocodilians
have a very fine sense of hearing.
Opposed to
the violence and rage was also a feeling of peace. This seemed particularly
associated with water and darkness, floating and creeping slowly along. Several
of the provers who were not particularly comfortable with darkness noted that
they felt increasing comfort with this during the proving. The peace with
darkness also manifested with making peace with death. A number of provers also
described the feeling of cocooning (being safely protected). Crocodilians are
symbolically associated with darkness and the greedy moon which devours the sun
each night. They are also associated with the cycle of death and rebirth.
Strong
general themes include l. sided; > exertion/icy coldness, < afternoon,
stitching and craves fish. > from exercise is interesting in that
crocodilians have extremely high levels of exercise
and take a
long time to recover from any exertion. Several of the provers experienced a
metallic sensation in their body. One prover experienced significant
hypertension after the remedy, which he had never experienced previously.
Strong
physical characteristics included lack of appetite during the day but
dramatically increased appetite at night, explosive frontal headaches + nausea,
dryness of the throat and throat pain, nausea, diarrhea, neck pain, increased
sex drive, deep sleep, itching of the lower extremities, acid reflux, sprain of
left groin muscle, pinching hip pain better sitting, sensation of dislocation
in left thumb, difficulty falling asleep and restless sleeplessness. In regards
to the acid reflux, crocodilians are noted to have the most acid stomachs of
any vertebrates. The increased appetite at night is related to the nocturnal
activities and feeding of most alligators. Several provers described a feeling of
enormous weight and pressure on their shoulders (crocodilians are said to carry
the world on their back in Aztec mythology).
DD.: Heloderma suspectum,
Amph.
Aves many biologists
consider alligatos evolutionarily closer to birds than to lizards.
Tyranosourus rex and Maias-l. two dinosaur bone remedies, both of
which have similar characteristics.
Vergleich: Aframomum melegueta (= Paradieskörner/=
alligator pepper/= Guinea grains or pepper). Siehe: Reptilia