(Helod-c) = Gardenworm
ist es nicht klar wie Helodrilus und wie Lumbricus. aussehen.
Helodrilus ist Gardenworm, beheimatet
in N. Amerika nach Louis Klein
Lumbricus in Europa
= Hyper. - Schießen;
Negativ: „Wie Würmer zu fühlen“ und weiche/zurückziehende Ausstrahlung .
zwischen Moral und Verlangen“. intensive Sexträume (ehebrecherisch/inzestuös) +
große Reue + Schuldgefühle erwachend.
kriminell zu sein = völlig unbegründet (fälschlich beschuldigt).
der Idee der Hernienbildung: weiche/elastische Impulsivität „Wie Gelee“.
Emotionen verhalten sich „Wie ein elastisches Band o. Bungee-Seil“.
Schwache Impulskontrolle + keine Härte vorhanden („Wie nachgebende Verformung“.
unbeholfene/sich zurückziehende Art/braucht Zeit mit sich allein zu sein weil
verletzlich gegenüber Kritik/Energien anderer Menschen/beschuldigt von nicht
Begangenes, wird in der Schule/bei der Arbeit gepiesackt. Sie nehmen Anklagen
auf sich (geringfügige/bauschen das unnötig auf) Introvertiert, Selbstversunken
(„Wie Autismus“). Braucht Unterstützung/Rückversicherung obwohl sie keine
Verbindung herstellen. Aggressives Verhalten folgt GewissensBISSE.
weich/entspannt + innerlich wegen Fehlern verspannt und auf äußere Einflüsse
verklemmt reagierend. Sie haben einen schuldbewussten und doch arglosen
Gesichtsausdruck und können in ihrem Verhalten und Ausdruck ein beinahe
karikaturartiges Bild abgeben. „Als ob von irgendetwas zurückgehalten“ dadurch
leicht eingeschüchtert. Sind niemals bedrohlich.
Patienten haben eine Ausstrahlung mit unbeholfenen, komischen, fast cartoon ähnlichen Gesten und Verhaltensweisen.
Mittelalter/Fantasien über Schlösser;
Phytologie: TCM: senkt Blutdruck/beeinflusst die Kontrolle der
glatten Muskulatur/getestet bei der Behandlung von Krämpfen.
- Zustand von
Wind (Gallenblasenmeridian) und Hitzesymptome. (< Wind in der Prüfung)
Hitze und löst Krämpfe. Wird bei warmen fieberhaften Erkrankungen mit hohem
Fieber gebraucht, die zu Konvulsionen und Anfällen führen.
- Treibt Wind
keuchende, pfeifende Atmung; Lungenhitze.
Repertorium: [Louis Klein]
Gemüt: Angst (kalt
abgeneigt/möchte alleine sein/versorgt sein
Apathie/stilles Wesen/dreht sich nachdenkend im Kreis um sich selbst/traurig
einem sexuellen Traum)
psychischen Kräften, negativen Mächten besessen/ist ein Verbrecher/ist falschlich beschuldigt/
negatives Verhalten (sexuell?/stehlen?)gefolgt von
Wahne „Als ob
einzukaufen (ungewöhnliche Stoffe/blau/türkis/geblümt/ Schmuck)
ist in Eile
Schläfen (l./scharf)/seitlich (r./l./scharf)
Schmerz in Septum l. (bohrend)
Mund: Abszess des
zwischen Kiefer und Kinn taub/“Wie auf Innenseite gebissen“
Innerer Hals: im
(Tonsillen r./l.)/Mandeln „Wie geschwollen“ einseitig, r. o. l.
„Wie Enge o.
Völle im Hals und Nacken“
Magen: Appetit - fehlend/vermehrt/Durst
Rektum: Blutung aus
Blasen: „Als ob
Urin: riecht kräftig
Genitalien: Schmerz in Ovarien (krampfartig)
in der Brust/trocken
Atmung: Atemnot, Dyspnoe, erschwertes Atmen
Giemen, keuchend pfeifendes Atmen
Husten: + Sprechen
Auswurf: Schwer auf
Bronchitis mit Kribbeln im Hals und „Als ob nicht genug Sauerstoff bekommt“
Brustleiden: Schwäche, Asthma
Zusammenschnürung o. eines Bandes“ in Zervikalregion
Herzgegend/stumpf/unter Schulterblätter /“Als ob sich öffnet“/ „Als ob
ausdehnt“/Schmerz im Nacken (wund)
taube (Armen/Rücken/Gesicht/Unterlippe zum Kinn)
Arme/in Füße/in Unterschenkel)
leicht“ in Arme/Unterschenkel
vergrößert“, Schwellung der Hände und Füße
schwer/Bewegung schwierig („Als ob laufend durch Sand“)/unbeholfen
Tief/verändert häufig die Lage
aufwachend (irritiert/geschwollen/müde)/> sich bewegend/schläft ein
Aufregend/Basketball zu spielen/von Behinderten/Boote/von College Campus/von
Durchfall/von erbrechen/Erdbeben/erotisch/von alten Freunde/von
(bewundernswerte) Gebäuden/einem wird geholfen
wird/Gewalttätigkeit/gleichgültig gegenüber Leiden/ein Haus zu bauen (wie das
Haus ihrer Jugend/mit vielen Zimmern)/Hunde/von
Neugeborenen/lebhaft/Musik/Mutter/ist schwanger/Pferde (Reiten)/Polizei/Reisen
mit Flugzeug/Reue/mittelalterliche Schlösser/Schwester/sexuelle
Perversion/springt aus einer Flugzeug/Stehlen/Tiere (Tieren, ½ Tier, ½
nicht im Gedächtnis(Unfälle (mit dem Auto/Furcht vor einem Autounfall)/Verfolgt
zu werden (von Räubern)/Verletzungen (Säugling)/Viele/von Vögeln in einem
Fieber: mit Krämpfe/rezidivierend
Kälte/Frost # Hitze
- Pickel/Ekzem < Winter
leicht blaue Flecken
Allgemeines: > im
Getränke. Verlangt: Eiscreme/fast food;
(„Als ob durch Torso weht“)/< Kälte
Unfälle, Autounfälle - Schleudertrauma
schwellen an/leine Wunden eitern
Vergleich: Arenicola marina. (= Wattwurm/find their food by filtering watt
sediment). Helod-c. (= Regenwurm find their
food by filtering earth). Lumbricus terrestris. (= Regenwurm find their
by filtering earth). Cypraea eglantina. (filters seawater).
RNA Graph. Petr. Calc. Tell-met. Arn. Art-vg.
Amph. Edelgase (= Stadium 18). Abs. Cartoon-ähnlich.
+ Zwitter + bereiten
Lebensraum vor für anderen + Annelidae
O + Fe im Blut
AußerordentLICH wertvoll, da sie den Boden durch ihre beständige
Durchwanderung gesund erhalten/gut belüften/entwässern.
einen Muskelmagen, der ähnlich dem von Vögeln arbeitet. Kleine Sandkörnchen
liegen im Muskelmagen und helfen dabei, harte Substanzen zu kleineren Partikeln
zu zermahlen. Blut ist menschlichen ähnLICH
(Sauerstofftransports durch eisenhaltiges Hämoglobin).
Hitze noch Sonnenlicht. Regenwürmer haben keine Lunge und nehmen Sauerstoff
über die Haut auf. Eine trockene Haut bedeutet den Erstickungstod für den
Regenwurm. Der Schleim, der
von der Haut
des Wurms abgesondert wird, unterstützt die Atemfunktion, erleichtert die
Fortbewegung durch den Boden und stabilisiert die Wände neu gebildeter Tunnel.
Regenwürmer haben keine Augen und können nicht hören. Eine Ansammlung von
Sensorzellen an ihrem vorderen Ende nimmt Licht und Erschütterungen wahr. Der
schlanke Körper eines Regenwurms ist in zahlreiche Segmente unterteilt (100 o.
mehr). Da der Wurm keine Gliedmaßen hat, bewegt er sich mit Hilfe auf einander
folgende peristaltische Wellen vorwärts, welche die Segmente entlang des
Körpers erst ausdehnen
zusammenziehen. Jedes Segment besitzt ein Paar Borsten, die als Zugpunkte
verfügen über eine bemerkenswerte Regenerationsfähigkeit. Sie können keinen
neuen Kopf regenerieren, jedoch einen neuen Schwanz. Sie vermehren sich nicht
durch „Teilung“, sondern durch Paarung. Obwohl sie Zwitter sind, vermehren sie
sich doch durch die Kopulation von zwei Würmern. Bei der Paarung erfolgt die
gegenseitige Übertragung von Sperma durch einen temporären Hautkanal; darauf
gleitet ihr Clitellum (ein sattelähnlicher Ring) den
Körper entlang, um befruchtete Eier aufzusammeln. Dieser Sattel wird dann zu
einem Kokon, welcher knapp unter der Erdoberfläche abgelegt wird. Die jungen
Würmer schlüpfen nach einigen Wochen. Körper = 70% Eiweiß (geliebt bei
Vögel/Schnecken/Maulwurf/Füchse). Der Gemeine Regenwurm (gemeinsam mit einigen
anderen häufigen Regenwurmarten, dem „night crawler“ und „green worm“) war ursprünglich nicht in Nordamerika beheimatet.
Sie wurden im 17. und 18. Jahrhundert unabsichtlich von europäischen Siedlern
eingeführt. Regenwürmer sind glitschig und schleimig und rufen verschiedene
Assoziationen hervor. Im Gegensatz zur Furcht wie vor giftigen Kreaturen kommt
gewöhnlich erst eine gewisse Abscheu über das schleimige und weiche Aussehen
des Regenwurms auf, welche dann von einem beschützenden Gefühl abgelöst wird
fängt Regenwürmer in Gängensystem, wann Regenwurm
morgens zurückkehrt in tiefere Lagen.
I chose earthworm for a number of reasons. One was at
the urging of a number of friends and students who were Doctors of Chinese
Medicine and Acupuncture. Earthworm has been used for hundreds
ofyears in Chinese
medicinal concoctio. The other consideration was
looking at other remedies that were well proven. The current trend is to potentize substances such as venoms etc. for consideration
aggressive and egocentric patients. I found, though,
that most people, especially those seeking our help, don’t feel poisonous and
aggressive but rather small. They feel as small as a worm, or worm like,
Requirements for Potentization,
Preparation and Ingestion
Michael Quinn of the Hahnemann Pharmacy, San Rafael,
CA potentized the remedy is available from them-
Each prover took one dose
of the 30c. One prover took two doses. The proving
was done in California and the final extraction meeting was done in Berkeley,
Helodrilus Caliginosus: Common Field Worm or the common field worm
occurs throughout the humid areas of the country (USA).
It is more common than the native night-crawler,
particularly in the southern states. The field worm may prevail in the same
locality as the nightcrawler if the fertility level
is too low
for the nightcrawler. The
field worm is not a good reproducer nor particularly adaptable to commercial
Earthworms for Ecology and Profit”, Volume #1 By Ronald E Gaddie
and Donald E Douglas
In other words its a “wild worm” versus one grown for
Facts you always wanted to know about earthworms:
There are actually over 1800 species of earthworms.
Earthworms are invertebrates. They are also called
annelids because of the circular rings or many segments that make up their
Earthworms are extremely valuable creatures as they
keep soil healthy, well aired and drained with their constant burrowing.
Worms are used commercially for “vermin-compost”. Vermicompost contains worm castings and other organic
materials left by earthworms.
Worms have little capacity to grind their food. They
have a muscular gizzard which functions similarly to that of birds. Small
grains of sand lodge in the gizzard and help grind hard materials into smaller
particles. The ground up food enters the worm’s intestine The intestine secrets
digestive enzymes. The food is then absorbed into the bloodstream.
The blood of the worm is amazingly similar to ours,
having the same function of carrying oxygen, and having iron-rich hemoglobin as its base.
Worms have a remarkable ability to regenerate but
perhaps not of the same sort as fables tell. They cannot regenerate a new head
but will regenerate a new tail. They do not reproduce via “cuttings” but via
copulation. Even though they have organs of both sexes they still reproduce
with two worms. They join at the saddle. This saddle then becomes a cocoon and
this is left just under the soil. Young worms hatch out from it after a few
An even more interesting fact you always wanted to
know about earthworms:
Earthworms are slippery and slimy and evoke all sorts
of reactions. Usually, unlike a fear of venomous creatures there is primarily
an initial disgust over the earthworm’s slimy and soft exterior and
then a protective feeling (unless you are a young boy
There is some current research into the effects of Lumbricus or Chinese Earthworm. It has significantly
lowered blood pressure and has an effect on smooth muscle control as well as it
is being tested in treating convulsions.
Di Long: literal translation: “earth dragon.”
From Chinese medicine texts and discussions with
Chinese medicine practitioners here are just some of the conditions this
substance is known to treat:
Condition of wind (gallbladder meridian) and heat
symptoms. Note: proving < wind.
-Quells heat and stops spasms. Used in Warm febrile
diseases with high fever that lead to - convulsion and seizures
-Stops wheezing; lung heat
Section Day/Time Prover Symptom
05 The gastrointestinal is still there. No diarrhea, stool normal, but still gurgling, like intestines
are rearranging. Yes, I am still very quiet. I'm not
chit-chatter now. More introspective. Thinking more about what I'm saying.
05 Lower intestine stuff or ovulating is going
on. Ache, mild cramps.
Gurgling in intestines. Had to use will power
to stay in bed, but eventually it urged me out of bed. There was nothing, just
some slime and
This went on far about three hours 6 - 8:30 h., had to run to bathroom 3-4x
this time. Always ineffectual urging, just had the urge to go,
didn't amel. Finally after a run in the morning, I
had normal but looser than usual bowel movement. I can hear the stomach
now (22 h.). Wasn't comfortable all day, but not really in pain.
Back 03:07:00 01 Woke up at 7:00 h. with sharp, stabbing pain
in mid thoracic spinal muscles. Went away when I got up and moved.
Back 03:14:00 02 Sharp, pulsing pain in upper right buttock.
Brief, one second, repeated 4 - 5x.
Back 03 04 My sacrum has a distinct feeling of being
pulled downward into the earth.
Back 03 04 Sacro iliac joint
ache never really OS develops.
Back 05:08:30 04 Had a dull ache in my back all the way across
right below my shoulder blades.
The ache made me feel nauseous. It lasted about 5-10
minutes and happened on my dog walk.
Back 08 04 My back hurt in two places at two separate
times. Just below the shoulder blades across the whole back there was an aching
pain like my back was trying to open or expand. The other pain was around my
kidneys (OS), a dull pressure like they were swollen or congested.
Back 08 04 Sacro iliac
joint ached like a tooth ache.
Back 10 04 Neck tension, especially on the left. Left
sacro iliac pain.
Back 11 05 Neck really stiff today. Normally I crack
my neck, now it hurts. Neck is where I always hold my tension.
Back 12 04 My neck on both sides was very sore (front
of the neck). Wanted to put cold pack on back of neck and heat on front of
neck. Did get a chiropractic adjustment on neck and midback
which gave much relief but not to the headache. By the end of the day the left
occipital area was also hurting. Headache in temple went on until midnight when
I went to sleep.
Back 14 05 Head OK, just feels stiff in neck, right
on base of skull, stiff, hard to turn head, back and forward is a little easier
than sideways which is almost impossible.
Back 14 05 This pain in the neck, perhaps I have
Back 15 04 Shoulders felt somewhat tight.
Back 16 04 Upper back around the scapula is tight.
Back 18:19:00 05 7 - 8:30 pm shoot pain up the neck,
base of neck to skull. Feels like neck is grimacing. One or two quick shocks at
a time. Like a mini heart attack in the neck. Neuralgia thing.
Neck less stiff. If it would be more that 1-2 joints
it would be scary and painful. On both sides, right up the nerve cords right
next to the spine. Feel 'after shocks' tenderness where it happened. Should get
a massage but it is definitely a nerve thing and not a muscle thing.
Back 19 04 Neck is tight. Did some neck rolls and it
hurt to do them.
Back 19 05 Weird neck jolts start to dissipate. Now
approximately every hour a couple of jolts. Had reflexology done, helped loosen
it up a little, could crack my neck afterwards, felt really good. Have to
grimace with the jolts, not comfortable.
I would not be that short, I would have a problem
with it. Comes on in any positions, still or moving, time of the day.
Back 20 04 Shoulders and neck and now back near
kidney area are tight.
Back 20 04 Have some joint aching in my shoulder
Back 21 04 Neck and shoulders very tight.
Back 23 04 Back, neck better today.
Back 23 05 Neck really stiff at base of head
(normally it is just the shoulders).
Back 24 04 Back and neck on and off.
Back 25 04 Left sacro iliac
really aches. Could be from rigorous (horse) ride yesterday.
Back 25 04 Right trapezoids mm cramp this morning.
Back 28 05 Neck really stiff at base of head
(normally it is just the shoulders).
Bladder 16 04 Difficult to completely empty my
bladder even if I force it. Have had this for a few days.
Chest 06 05 Breast tender; odd time for that in my
cycle. Normally this happens only a few days before my period.
Chest 09:17:00 02 Anxiety in region of diaphragm.
Feel some tightness in breathing.
Chest 10 05 The worst is the burning in the lungs.
Achiness all over. Hard to function. Hard to work up mucous.
Chest 11 05 Can hear a deep wheezing. Have to work to
get anything up. When I'm sick always first cold then bad cough.
Difference is now that it is not productive, it is dry
and asthmatic side. I just take it slow today. It's going deeper. Hard not to
take any remedies. I took vitamin C (2000mg) and Zinc (60mg).
Chest 11 05 Lying down, wheezing, something is in
lungs. Can't talk for a long time without coughing. Mucous not as green as
yesterday. More clear today. Cough more great irritability. Hard to breathe,
breathing makes me cough. Shower stream and hot tea makes cough better.
Chest 11 05 Doing OK today. Better today. Cough is
deeper. Rattle. Younger son woke up with croup. Lungs are weak link in family.
Chest 14 05 Sternum is very sore (lower end). Put
some Traumel (Homeopathic low potency complex cream)
on it and neck, seemed to help.
Chest 21:22:30 02 Feeling of congestion in chest
worse in evening. A section of pain, dull, burning in left chest, possibly
head. Continuing for 20 seconds.
Cough 00 05 8 year old son has bronchitis for 8 days.
Coughs until throws up. Went finally to MD. Don't want to do steroids.
Give him bronchodilator. Does it have to do with the
proving? Poor guy! It is very odd for him to be sick so long. 8 days is a long
time. Coughing until you throw up is hard.
Ear 16:22:30 02 "Stuffed up" section in
Nose 02 Intermittent flow of clear fluid from both
Ear 17 02 Section of congestion and blockage in
middle ears. Cracking noises when moving jaw.
Ear 19:11:30 02 Brief, sharp pain in left ear. Deep
inside, probably eustachain tube.
Expectoration 09 05 Post-nasal drip from throat up to
Nose 09 Can taste brassy smell in nose and mouth. In
nose, smell it just when I cough. Coppery taste, is this smell what people mean
when they say metallic taste? Nose ran when I coughed.
Extremities 00:15:00 05 Numbness down left arm.
Lasted 2 minutes.
Extremities 00:17:00 05 Sciatic pain down buttocks,
right side (that before) Sciatica went away. I started the proving even though
I wasn't in great shape. Remedy seems to resonate. I go on with life easier
Extremities 00 02 Feet seem unusually cold (front
part of feet and toes).
Extremities 01:10:00 04 Fingers are swollen.
Extremities 03 04 My entire legs feel larger, wider.
Still a strong see of awareness in my feet, almost a tingling seation.
Extremities 03 04 Arms feel lighter.
Extremities 04 04 Shoulders
seem more relaxed.
Extremities 04 04 Strong
feeling of feet tingling and now occasionally hand tingling (in palms).
Extremities 04 04 Legs feel
heavy and difficult to move. An effort to walk uphill, like walking through
Extremities 05:11:00 02 Left wrist pain on extended malion following fall on rollerblades yesterday
(exacerbation of OS).
Extremities 05 04 Sometimes feel lightness in arms
but not like yesterday.
Extremities 05 04 Tingling in entire legs, feet,
hands, and across scapula.
Extremities 05 04 Legs felt heavy, difficult to move,
effort to move up hill, like walking through sand - resistance.
Extremities 05 04 Today can feel all my toes, not as
rooted into ground. Tingling is more today, more distinct.
Extremities 06:13:00 02 Aching pain in right bicep
last for about 5 seconds.
Extremities 06 04 Upper thighs have tingling from
feet to knees. It's not tingling.
Extremities 06 05 Back, right shoulder blade in a
spot towards the middle of the back on the end of the shoulder blade, sharp,
stabbing pain. Yesterday night after 22 h. watching a movie laying in bed. Came
on suddenly, out of the blue. Every time inhaling, pain worse. Got a little
frantic, hoping this doesn't last long. Had to lie down and relax. It was still
aching, could only take short breaths
and went to sleep. Tried to work it out for 3 - 5
minutes, but then just laid down and went to sleep. Today went for a run (first
one for a long time). Was still tender feeling, aware of the spot.
Was a spot as big as a nickel, radiating nerve pain.
Perhaps like a muscle spasm, but almost too pinpointed for a muscle spasm.
Extremities 07:15:30 02 Brief, less than 1 second,
sharp pain in region of right ring finger. Metacarpal. Pain briefly extended up
Extremities 08 04 My right knee ached and my right
baby toe had a pulling pain. All I could do is come home and lay down and try
to get warm. I felt like I was getting the flu.
Extremities 08 04 Still have tingling in feet (when I
think about it).
Extremities 08 04 My hip joints ached and it hurt to
lay on them.
Extremities 09:23:00 04 Went to bed about 23 h. and
woke at 3 h. after a fitful sleep with tossing and turning and feeling like
inside my legs and feet I was burning hot and somewhat swollen.
My body was not hot, but a lot more so in my legs and
feet. This was an old symptom of 5 - 6 years ago.
Extremities 09 04 My wrists keep going out of
alignment and snapping.
Extremities 09 04 My hand joints were aching (thumb).
Extremities 13:09:30 04 My hands feel like they are
trembling. Nothing visible.
Extremities 14 02 When I drive, soreness in joints of
left hand, on plam of hand, middle finger. If I press
down on palm, where finger connects to hand, a bony perturbance,
is sensitive, when I drive and holding steering
Extremities 14 04 Shoulder joints ached.
Extremities 15 04 Top of foot still hurts on and off.
Feels like a muscle is too short and pulls so as the last toe seems to pull
upward. Happen when I move my foot a certain way. (very old symptom)
Extremities 15 04 Felt the tingling sensation in my
feet and somewhat in the legs.
Extremities 16 04 Noticed this morning that my nails
no longer are splitting as badly longitudinally. This was very pronounced
Extremities 18 04 Realized that my right toe problem
is where an old bunion used to be on the side of my foot in my twenties.
Extremities 19 04 Woke feeling swollen and stiff in
my hands and feet.
Extremities 32 05 Something is up with left knee.
Feels strained. Was walking and running a lot today. Non-stop days.
Eye 01:15:50 02 Very brief, 1 second, piercing pain
just below the right corner of right eye, on bony ridge.
Eye 06 04 Tired feeling in eyes, hard to keep eyes
Eyes 00:16:30 01 Five and a half hours after dose,
noticed dark circles under eyes.
Eyes 10 05 Eyes burning.
Face 09:00 02 White residue on lips and coated
Day not noted.
Face 00:17:50 05 Pain (allergy attack?). No. This is
the proving. Pain in cheekbone, underneath both eyes. Pain extends along this
bone from temple to root of nose.
Face 06 05 After getting off phone yesterday: biggest
white head ever on my chin. Had to pop it. Now it is healing. Usually heal
slow; now in one hour from small thing into huge white head.
Face 09 05 Feeling tired, really dark circles under
my eyes. Wearing make up for the first time in days. Kept wiping eyes, thinking
it is smeared make up, but it isn't. : circles under eyes, not like
normally dark lines under eyes. My son even asked
what that is, and if he will get that too when he gets old.
Face 31 05 Before going to bed, neuralgia in chin,
between lower lip, not extending to corners of mouth, down to end of chin. When
I touched it, it stopped. Didn't hurt, felt like nerves are swelling up. About
the size of a half a dollar. Lasted for about 20 minutes. Just before going
Female genitalia 00:00:01 04 Started first dose at 8
.h., Saturday of Easter weekend. While 2 pellets were under my tongue I got my
period. Day 25 of my cycle and usually the day I get it. Woke at 8 h. and took
my remedy before rising.
Female genitalia 00:00:45 04 Had bilateral ovarian
cramping with an occasional sharp pain. > pressure of hands on both ovaries.
Went away when I got up and moved around. Lasted 15 minutes.
Female genitalia 01 04 This is all I remember. I have
painful ovarian cramps especially on the left side this morning.
Female genitalia 02:21:00 04 Got my period with no
pain or symptoms. Unusual.
Female genitalia 03 04 Been feeling a strong sexual
desire with is unusual during my period.
Female genitalia 04:18:30 03 Started period on day
21; 7 days early.
Female genitalia 04 04 The
flow of menses is heavy today, unusual for me, usually lighter.
Female genitalia 09 05 No libido whatsoever. Not that
unusual. But now it's getting really prolonged and worse. I just want to stay
in my own feeling, feel more internal.
Female genitalia 15 05 Got my period today. : seems
like dark purplish. Breast tenderness subsided, more exasperated.
Female genitalia 16 05 Period normal color now.
Female genitalia 17 04 When I was laying in bed this
morning I had ovarian cramping that was very noticeable. I wonder if I am
Female genitalia 25 04 (Supervisor): Many earlier
menstrual symptoms > walking around.
Female genitalia 25 04 (Supervisor): When headache
gone, strong menstrual cramps behind pubic bone. < Walking around. >
sitting, sitting still, felt good to do that. Bleeding of this period is
different. Not so protracted. (long pause) (She doesn't usually have menstrual
Female genitalia 25 04 No menstrual left sided
headache for the first time in a year.
Female genitalia 25 04 Vaginal discharge slightly
yellow with an unpleasant odor that I can't quite
Generals 00:02:00 04 About 10 h. went for a walk with
my dog. Feel an incredible see of body lightness, but can really feel my body.
Generals 00 04 (Supervisor): Can feel all of body and
feel more inside it. Extremely grounded. In fact I cannot (can't make out the
word) as though I feel rooted.
Generals 01:12:01 02 Strong appetite, stronger than
usual desire for sweet cookies.
Generals 01:22:00 02 Very tired, fell asleep while
Generals 01 02 Thirsty.
Generals 01 04 The weather is affecting me. It's
colder and windier and agitating to my nerves.
Generals 01 04 (Supervisor): I had a lot of
Generals 01 04 (Supervisor): It was raining when got
out. I can get chilled really easy. The damp very interesting (may have said
temperature and not damp).
Generals 01 04 (Supervisor): Cramping better. Up and
walked around, didn't have it rest of day.
Generals 02 04 Got chilled easily. Got agitated,
because it was colder.
Generals 02 04 Get cold quite easily (my low back). I
bundle up and then can overheat, then uncover. Then get chilled.
Generals 02 05 Yesterday didn't take a shower all
day. Normally I never do that. Just didn't care. Kept thinking: OK tomorrow
morning, but I didn't. Finally took one at 13 h. The last weeks I took
normally two showers a day. I just didn't care about
hygiene. Do things around house. House starts to look really good, mostly
because son is home, so I am home.
Generals 02 05 Feel really tired around 13 h., ready
to take a nap.
Generals 02 05 16 – 20 h. feel good, this is normally
my down time in the day.
Generals 03 02 I am tired, tired.
Generals 03 04 (Supervisor): I don't like it damp.
Generals 03 04 (Supervisor): Sometimes with too much
wind I get bothered. It's as if it can blow through me in spots, (in body
torso, not extremities or head). Like I would have a hole and would be cold.
Generals 03 05 My temperature is a little warmer than
Generals 05:21:30 05 (Supervisor: I ask her husband
to talk about his observation). Nothing. Still bossy, aggressive (laughs, just
kidding). She is a little more calm (they hadn't talked about that together).
Generals 05 04 Tired today.
Generals 05 05 Woke up
really tired. : all day really tired. 5 - 5:30 h. eyes burning, tired, swollen.
Still swollen a little now. Taking bath rugs out, dust, was going crazy because
of the dust. If I had to
start to sneeze could not have stopped. Really
sensitive to dust.
Generals 06 04 Tired, tired, tired.
Generals 06 05 Body temperature is a little higher
than usual. Hot in bed. Normally I'm all bundled up in bed, not now.
Generals 06 05 Never before little wounds swelled up
like yesterday. Today not swollen, red or bruised feeling anymore. : white
blood cells coming in really fast around little wounds.
Generals 07 02 I have been craving sparkling apple
cider. Last night thirsty, maybe a little thirstier.
Generals 07 04 Want to shop. Look at things. Try on
clothes. Look at beautiful jewelery.
Generals 07 04 Woke feeling groggy and swollen and
irritable, but that passed as soon as I was up for 10 - 15 minutes.
Generals 07 04 Very thirsty.
Generals 07 04 Also really want to smoke cigarettes.
Generals 08 04 (Supervisor): Drawn to very weird
clothes; very soft, vibrant, this fabric, iridescent, wanted really badly
texture wasn't good but iridescent really incredible green, odd things. Bought
a floral skirt, has turquoise, will go back to other
store and get that turquoise sweater. Nearly bought this dress with huge yellow
florals on it. "It was a drug induced
attraction, I know it."
Generals 08 04 (Supervisor): Sunday 14 h., snowing,
wind blowing. By 17 h., freezing cold again. I hate the wind. I get scared.
H/A congested (sinuses) occasional right stabbing
pain. Stuffy nose, went away last night (started around 16 – 17 h., got worse 3
Generals 08 04 (Supervisor): Slept 23 h. to 3am. Had
a dream Guy was really bossy - he was like a proving supervisor. He told me
that the proving was over. I felt disappointed and wanted to argue.
I know that I was tossing and turning in my sleep.
Inside (under skin of legs and feet) was hot and felt a bit swollen. Really
warm. There is no temperature range; either I am too hot, or too cold.
This feeling of heat; had 5-6 years ago; let to first
remedy I ever got; sulphur.
Took it away. Then got cold. At 3 h. all joints were
swollen. My right thumb joint (was better at 10 h. when I woke).
Wrists and ankles were cracking and snapping. I got
up and wrote it all down. Better if up and moving around.
Stiffness and swelling went away. 4 h. went back to
sleep until 10 h. (slept solidly). Woke up today feeling 'pretty good.' When I
woke up at 3 h. everything was worse and then it all turned around up until 16
h.. I was feeling pretty good.
Generals 08 04 I took a couple hour nap. Woke and
stared out the window watching the wind and snow blowing thru the trees and
feel very cold and desolate. I wanted to take a hot bath but was too tired. No
appetite, but at one point ate a half piece of raisin bread toasted with
raspberry cream cheese. Very thirsty for cold (OS/RS).
Generals 08 04 During the night, the weather had
changed from upper 50°s to 15°. About 14 h. it started snowing and really
blowing. By 17 h. I felt freezing cold.
Generals 09 04 (Supervisor): 16 h. to 4 h., things
Generals 09 04 (Supervisor): Woke feeling fine, went
shopping again, was totally focused, didn't even think about outside world.
Generals 09 04 (Supervisor): Things got bad until 4
Generals 10:15:00 02 Feeling very hot this afternoon.
I have the windows wide open and a cool breeze is blowing, but still
Generals 10:16:30 02 Chilly # overheated. Keep
rolling sleeves up and down.
Generals 10 02 Thirst for juices (sparkling) apple
juices. Pretty strong thirst.
Generals 10 02 Today I was cold and hot, would open
the window, would have to roll up my sleeves and then it would start blowing
papers, close the window, would start getting hot. Impossible to get a
temperature that I could feel comfortable with. Usually I can work for some
period of time.
Generals 10 04 Good energy by 11 h. Bad from 9 – 11
h. Very tired.
Generals 10 04 (Supervisor): Today I have a little
stiffness, a little chilly, again if too much clothes and then I move around
too much, I overheat.
Generals 10 04 (Supervisor): Wind; I think I am
afraid of being really cold, very unusual, I grew up in Minnesota. I always
liked the wind, its very unusual for me. I couldn't even got out, had to ask
someone else to take the dog out.
Generals 13 04 Don't feel very refreshed.
Generals 14 04 Couldn't get up during the night or
early morning to record dreams or even go over them in my mind.
Generals 14 04 Felt tired on waking, but cheerful.
Generals 15 05 This neighbour is such a pervert. If I
would be (?) woman I would tell him to stop. He can only get away with it because
of his age. All of these boys I went out with were in my dreams lately. Never
think about them in real life. Husband wasn't in this dream. Dreams are
regressing (into earlier adolescent when I didn't know my husband yet).
Normally I dream about present times. Felt good, like
no responsibility like having a husband. Mother was in all my dreams so far, my
protector. Dreams night 13-14 couldn't remember, was so
sick. Yesterday never went out. Didn't do anything.
Generals 16 04 Feel tingling all over today, even in
the earlobes, and it's not a bad sensation.
Generals 17 04 (Supervisor): Like everything (some humor in her tone) it seems to go away when I get up and
walk around. An amelioration for this remedy.
Generals 17 04 Tired all day.
Generals 17 04 Was so enjoyable. Today was perfect
weather day for me. Warm but a slight soft breeze. Only in low 70's. Overcast
with some sun, and then late in the day at 16 h. a warm rain.
Generals 17 04 I feel weary.
Generals 17 04 Woke up today feeling really tired and
Generals 17 04 (Supervisor): Yesterday and today I
want to create a peaceful and unhurried atmosphere. I went out of my way a
little to not get hooked into a busy scene. Went to Monclair
postoffice, avoiding Piedmont (busy area).
Generals 17 04 Really tired all day.
Generals 23 05 Weird things are happening. Tonight in
the study group, nobody showed up. Never happened before. I affiliate it.
Normally there are at least 4 regulars. I ran the group for 4 years, lost
steam. It is not like me, not to do anything for it. My client didn't show up
either, very weird.
Generals 36 05 Lots of cancer is coming up for people
around me, over the last week. Breast cancer. Melanoma over back.
Head 00:01:15 02 Sharp pain, just above right temple.
Very brief, but repeating 7 or 8 times at intervals that seem to be the length
of a heartbeat.
Head 00:11:45 02 Brief, sharp pain in upper temple.
Head 00:14:30 05 Second dose five minutes ago.
Numbness from lower lip to chin, where you can put tongue between lip and
teeth. Lasted five minutes.
Head 00:15:50 05 Neuralgia in left side of head.
Moving from front (above left eyebrow) to the back (the base of the head) Lasts
all day. Now still there not much.
Twitching pain. Like a blinking light going off and
Head 00 05 Something definitely going on in the head
Head 03 04 Shadow of my menstrual HA; left sided occiput.
Head 08:14:00 02 Sharp pain in left temple extending
over top of head while walking.
Head 08:15:30 02 Very angry at work after finding
that I AS had lost two hours worth of work on the computer. Wanted to hit the
computer with my fist. Followed by shooting pain originating in front of head
above right forehead and shooting rearward.
Head 08 04 I had a headache that was like a congested
feeling (sinusarea). Then I'd occassionally
have a left temple stabbing pain.
Head 08 05 Something was going on with head the last
few days. Keep getting little head aches on the left side of head. Today in the
afternoon. This is almost normal for me, but I don't get them daily for short
periods of time (approximately 15 min.). Head ache on top of head, dull ache,
comes on slowly, goes away fast. Chocolate makes it better. Maybe I need more
sugar. I helps the head ache.
Head 10 04 Feel like I was getting my usual left
occipital HA. Went away in 20 minutes.
Head 10 04 Woke with headache on left temple. A dull
throbbing that effects the upper teeth on the left.
Head 11 04 Went to sleep at 23 h. with some headache.
Head 11 04 Woke feeling good. Slight shadow of a
headache in left temple and left occiput.
Got up too late to eat breakfast and by noon headache
much worse. Got a massage at noon and headache escalated to the point of
nausea. Had to work until 19 h., came home, vomited, part of
the headache, the part in the occiput
was > but the temple part remained.
Head 12 04 Usual headache. It went away with deep
breathing -- a new method. Desperation is the motivation!
Head 12 04 Had a headache on the left side most of
the day. Left temple. No nausea until the very end of the workday, about 19:30
h. I work and still had my left temple headache.
Head 14:08:45 02 Head pain left side where frontal,
temporal meet. Brief, less than 55 seconds. Sharp pain, ext. top of head.
Head 17 04 Got a headache in the mid-afternoon.
Head 17 05 Dandruff is better. : feels like hair is
growing fast. Everybody tells me my hair is getting so long.
Head 18:10:30 02 Dull pain in vertex while shampooing
hair. Occurred when pressure was applied to head.
Head 19:11:00 02 Sharp pain in right mastoid, close
to ear. OS Short duration; 3 seconds.
Head 19:17:00 02 Pain in vertex, right side while
urinating. A pressing pain. Similar to pain in vertex experienced while
Head 28:23:00 02 Pressing pain on sides of head,
became more apparent while urinating.
Head 31 05 Same symptom as day zero. Numbness from
lower lip to chin, where you can put tongue between lip and teeth.
Head Pain 00:00:30 01 30 minutes after taking dose
had slight headache, center of forehead, (3rd eye).
Was dull ached, on scale of 1-10, would rate as a 1
or 2. Lasted about 2 hours. No modalities noted.
Internal Throat 00:00:20 01 20 minutes after taking
dose had slight soreness of right toil. Lasted about 30 minutes.
Internal Throat 00:01:00 01 One hour after taking
dose (noon), slight soreness of left toil. Lasted approximately 30 minutes.
Kidneys 02:17:00 04 Drove to PA and have some kidney
pain, like a see of being enlarged.
Male Genitalia 02 02
Genitalia; right testicle, pain, fairly sharp, happened as I was getting into
the car and didn't last long.
Mind 00 04 The world of nature felt very soft and simmery.
Mind 00:08:00 04 Took remedy.
Mind 00:09:45 04 Feel giddy as if drunk or tipsy. I
tried hard to overcome it, willing to make the effort.
Mind 00:15:00 04 Rode my horse, feel very rooted.
Mind 00:15:00 04 Can feel my legs from the inside
Mind 00:17:00 05 Feel more relaxed. Last couple of
weeks was wearing my shoulders on ears. Better.
Mind 00:19:30 02 Felt emotio
more strongly than usual while reading a fairy tale to daughter.
Mind 00 02 Was late getting daughter to Mom's house
where she sleeps. Felt a headache, normally would have developed into a situation
where I would have been angry.
Mind 00 04 (Observations of supervisor): Prover 04 definitely sounded more relaxed and less precise,
not inaccurate, just more relaxed. There was a slightly cheerful, pleased tone,
like a "pal" maybe.
She asked my opinion more, on small matters, almost
child-like. I don't know her well, but this seemed a change. A little more
open. Calm, at ease, observant, comfortable to talk to. At ease in expressing
Mind 00 04 Feel very quiet inside. Cannot be hurried.
Walked very slowly, feel no see of impatience.
Mind 00 04 At times I felt like I was tripping.
Mind 00 04 Don't want to go inside. Want to be in the
open air, in the sun.
Mind 00 04 Am I writing down enough stuff and doing
Mind 00 04 Supervisor asks, How does your head feel?:
(sighs) Something's different. It feel fine. Something different (underline
different). Not big enough or pronounced enough. Can't put finger on
it. A modified version of when you do mushrooms,
organic psilocybin. And it goes along with the body awareness.
It’s a very fine vibration. Noting to irritate. A
vibration in the cells. A little faster, mildly pleasant. Makes me more body
aware. I tend to be more in head. Now feel bottoms of feet. Started with
pelvis, then went down to feet.
Mind 00 04 Thought what if it got worse everyday and
I couldn't life my feet up? (Re: the feeling feet could root).
Mind 00 04 Notice a lot of white moths outside and RS
Mind 00 04 Or not finding a parking place in
Chinatown. I just drove around until I found one. I didn't realize how often I
feel hurried. I've had days off in a row before. Internal see of not being
hurried. (Sentence underlined). I just didn't care.
Mind 00 04 I was thinking I feel too good! I'm not getting
very much done!. Didn't have the right thing to wear today. Must be a plant,
wanted something flowered. Reserve area of my clothes, that
I looked through for something. Not feminine, but in
that vein of softees.
Mind 00 04 Would have been fine to not talk today.
Mind 00 04 Things that normally would pressure me
didn't. (Sentence underlined). Just little things -- my riding schedule.
Mind 00 04 If anything gets in the way, it can be
Mind 00 04 Today I wanted to be able to let the horse
run wild in the arena, but there were a lot of other people so I couldn't. I
instead of being preoccupied, I didn't care. (Last sentence underlined.)
Mind 00 04 Had a nice walk, then to Chinatown to pick
up new contact. While I did that, I concentrated more, on the car, etc.
Mind 00 04 Noticed nature quite distinctly especially
trees and shrubs. Saw the outlines of their leaves so precisely.
Mind 00 04 (Supervisor asks what clothes she chose).
White tee-shirt with white embroidered flowers. Antique skirt white material
was Gramma's wedding slip. Embroidered flowers at
Label at back poked neck, so later changed. Soft
white long underwear and sage green top, feels good.
Mind 00 04 I talked to people today. I was friendly (Laughts gently). Usually I have an agenda, a schedule.
Talked to 2 different neighbors--sitting down and
An effort for me to carry on a conversation with
somebody like the neighbors, ordinarily. It was fine,
comfortable, I wouldn't have done it if it wasn't comfortable.
Mind 00 04 The world seems to have slowed down.
Mind 00 04 I walked up to a larger bush with yellow
flowers and realized it was the fragrance I had been smelling and looking for
six weeks. The sweet lemon-like aroma that has filled the air for weeks.
Mind 00 04 Feel my feet could root.
Mind 00 04 Wanted to look at trees and shrubs. At the
top of our hill the breeze was stronger and the different larger trees made
each a distinctive sound and became like a soft song of trees.
Mind 00 04 Supervisor (I ask about communication with
the dog and horse): I had a good ride with my horse. I was better off with my
horse. They have a lot of visualization you can do, like being a
tree. I did things I've been trying hard to do, like
making traitio, being centered.
I had less fear today. I don't know about Teddy (the dog). She ranaway from me after the walk. She didn't want to come in
the house. It didn't seem personal. Now she is in near by my feet. That's how I
ended up to talking to the neighbor.
Mind 00 04 Difficult reading out loud. Tongue
wouldn't work quite right. Stumbled over words then got very emotional about
what person had wrote to us and started to cry. Felt touched and open in my
heart. Price, peaceful everything is okay.
Mind 00 05 The whole world looked grim and violent.
Bizarre energy. Are other provers experiencing
similar things? As long as nobody was getting killed (laugh).
Mind 00 05 Lightened see of awareness.
Mind 00 05 Over the last two weeks shift happened. I
made decisions faster, taking care of things. I really do it now, instead of
putting it off. Had problems speaking up for my self. Something shifted, now I
just do it. I feel like I am getting organized. Always did surface now I am
getting to the bottom.
Mind 00 05 Before remedy: I was feeling anxious about
my marriage the past week, feeling unable to do proving. Mailman forgot to
bring package, had to come back after delivering mail down street.
The package was substance E.
OK. When I can't get followup
calls done. Just have to surrender to it. This happened before.
Mind 03:12:01 02 Feeling irritable and angry. Feel
like I'd like to hurt someone, then feel remorse over the thought. Muttering
and cursing at the ATM when no deposit envelopes were available. Someone
handed me an envelope and I started to storm inside
Mind 03:20:00 02 A feeling of sadness and despair, a
kind of heartache.
Mind 03:XX:XX 02 Supervisor--I'm paranoid.
Mind 03:XX:XX 04 (Supervisor): Started being relaxed
again, feeling balanced, awareness in feet; "tingling" as if
awakening, not unpleasant, kind of pleasant, kind of like mushrooms, feel
something that wasn't there, better see of cells, sometimes couldn't lift up
feet, attached to ground, merging into ground.
Mind 03:XX:XX 04 Notice I'm not wearing or want to
wear as much jewlery. It feels like too much.
Mind 03:XX:XX 05 General: I'm in an indifferent
state, quiet state. No qualms of things going on. (In italics: she sounds,
feels introverted. Feels bad that she can't give more symptoms. Speaks slower,
more internalized, longer pauses between talking. Calmer. (3)
Mind 03:XX:XX 05 Quieter than usual. Was on farmers
market, normally I am all up, "hi" to people, etc, but today I was
quiet and didn't say anything.
Mind 04:12:30 03 I feel pre-period last two days.
Irritable and feel a sharpness to responds to situation and people.
Mind 04:XX:XX 02 Supervisor--Hard time coming to
terms with the question of good and evil? I've been think about the importance
of keeping connection to higher state/the divine, the forces if you lose that,
kind of being used by lower forces.
Mind 04:XX:XX 02 Supervisor--been thinking more
strongly about it than usual as life goes by I look at different types of
spirituality, right now Christian hermetic, Christian-the evils of the flesh,
lower impulses, if not done with higher things in mind are not good.
Mind 04:XX:XX 03 I feel a sharpness to my responds to
situation/people. I saw a sign on office bathroom handwritten saying,
"Please close door when done"...my quick response was
"Why?" in a quick
Mind 04:XX:XX 03 I feel like my sentences are short
Mind 04:XX:XX 04 I amnot so
resentful about things, comments that before would have hurt me. I let go of
things. Don't have any outbursts of anger.
Mind 04:XX:XX 04 (Supervisor): My behavior
is different, like stoned, it would be easier to describe these symptoms if I
was depressed. It think about trees a lot, or a shrub. Wonder if remedy is a
some kind. I look at trees and think of them more.
Mind 04:XX:XX 04 (Supervisor): Psychedelic, different
consiousness. Level of consiousness
has altered somehow, better level of consiousness.
Some sort of curative or maybe more positive change of how things were (before)
more positive, when I was patient and not hurried. I've stepped beyond the
mundane. More flexible and enjoyable, things don't bother me. I'm not getting
upset internally as much.
Mind 04:XX:XX 04 Fear of getting chilled so bundling
up to go outside.
Mind 04:XX:XX 05 Feel like I'm a boring person. Which
is OK. Feel a little sad about it. Sort of quiet. That's OK. That's just where
I am at now. This feeling came on in the last few days. There is more behind
it; it's not really sad or sorry for myself. Check in tomorrow, perhaps I can
name it then.
Mind 04:XX:XX 05 Took a nice hike. Went to birthday
party with son. Nice day. Felt HA coming on, it was probably the heat.
Had to push myself to talk. If I would have had a
choice, I would have gone off by myself.
Mind 04:XX:XX 05 Waking up, felt good (). Quiet,
don't have a lot to say today. Don't want to rock the water. Don't want to
start anything, so I don't have to finish it. Feel kind of sorry for myself.
Have these magnificent dreams and such a dull life.
So I'm just quiet and watching. Don't want the excitement to be in arguments
and flare ups. Longing for other excitement. Gave up alcohol last
September, now I don't have this as an excitement.
Mind 05:15:00 02 Supervisor--Nose: 3:00 p.m. ate and
after eating started to sneeze, sneezed 4 or 5 times. "I can never just
say the number, it always has to be 5 or 6, 40 or 5, etc."
Mind 05:XX:XX 01 Three times today hit my right shin
against a coffee table (I never do this 3 times in one day.)
Mind 05:XX:XX 02 Supervisor--When you're in a pit,
you can get distracted by looking at the pit rather than concentrating on
Mind 05:XX:XX 02 Supervisor--I have a bit of bravado
today, I am still troubled, the flip side is optimistic.
Mind 05:XX:XX 04 Feel like I'm all alone. Don't want to
be very social.
Mind 05:XX:XX 04 Having a hard time being patient
with my mom who keeps talking of her pain. Don't want to take care of anyone. I
want to be taken care of, pampered.
Mind 05:XX:XX 04 Strong see of well being. Less
Mind 05:XX:XX 04 I look different in the mirror. My
face has a heavy, fallen look to me. I'm gray or pale. I look old and more
Mind 05:XX:XX 04 Feel very sad and lonely in a quiet
Mind 05:XX:XX 05 Weird old lady in supermarket. Face
peeling like burnt. Something was off about her. Felt as if I look too close
she would lash out at me. I saw her bitching at produce man because there were
no ripe bananas. Saw her in other isle, talking to a girl. Mother of girl came
to me. This old lady said to my daughter, "you're a rude girl." I
tried to find somebody to complain about her.
Woman and child didn't know what to do. Mother had to
explain that there are mean people in this world. I started to freak, thinking
she would talk to me and I would have to be rude to her. At
cashier, old lady again. She is checking out, goes
back to get something, takes forever. Cashier takes next person. Old lady was
outraged about that. I felt like she is violating the human kind.
Mind 06:XX:XX 01 I feel that I may have been
possessed or influenced by a negative entity. I was at the opening night for my
husband's new business venture, a bar and restaurant.
I had drank 1.5 glasses of wine, a long time
acquaintance, who was drunk, was introducing me to her friend, who was also
drunk. When her friend was told that I am a chiropractor, he started
ranting and raving about how terrible chiropractors
are. I almost started to cry and then I snapped into a rage. I didn't say
anything but grabbed my purse off of the bar stool, the strap of my purse
caught the stool and the stool crashed to the floor. I stormed out and went to
get something out of my car. I didn't think to disarm my car alarm and while it
was going off I really didn't care if it bothered anybody. I felt upset the
rest of the evening. I believe that my drinking alcohol and my negative
emotions allowed a psychic invasion of my being. Especially since alcoholics
attract negative beings to them, I was surrounded by negative energies and
continued on Day 7.
Mind 06:XX:XX 02 Supervisor--feeling like I want to
move up and out of gutter of heaviness. I've been feeling a lack of spiritual,
the gross vibration don't suit my being. I feel better when I'm tuned into
finer/more subtle things-of a higher quality.
Mind 06:XX:XX 04 Sad and lonely today, children very
irritating. I have no time for them.
Mind 06:XX:XX 04 (Supervisor): Deep sadness and
loneliness, not specific, nothing in particular, a melancholy.
Mind 06:XX:XX 04 I was very attracted to different colors and design when shopping. I am very attracted to
pastels especially pale yellow, periwinkle, blue-turquoise-flowery desig. Wanted
very soft creams blues turquoise.
Mind 07:14:30 02 Supervisor--Vivid internal pictures
of RS faces of people I know. Facial features and gestures very clear. Lasts
for about 10 seconds.
Mind 07:XX:XX 01 Woke up feeling depressed, negative,
grouchy, with low energy. I would see a dark, masculine energy or being in my
space. I bathed with sea salt, burned sage and candles, surrounded myself with
light and asked that this being go to the light. I felt better for about 30
minutes. Then felt off-center, tired,
cloudy-thinking, weepy, which lasted until approximately 14 h.`
Mind 07:XX:XX 02 Supervisor--if I was a painter I
could have painted her, not that they were there, almost as if I'd tuned into
them like a radio signal. (At extraction question if it has something to do
with Hale Bop?)
Mind 07:XX:XX 04 Feel like I am not connecting with
people, that I'm being reserved or stand-off-ish.
Like I'm not letting the real me be seen. Don't want to share my pain.
Mind 07:XX:XX 04 Feel lonely but not as bad as
yesterday. Always feel very close to tears. I'll never get the love and
affection I want. I don't get enough now.
Mind 08:15:30 02 Very angry at work after finding
that I had lost two hours worth of work on the computer. Wanted to hit the
computer with my fist. Followed by shooting pain originating in front of head
above right forehead and shooting rearward.
Mind 08:XX:XX 04 (Comment of another supervisor): My
impression is represented here too; usually prover 04
and I can really connect when we talk. I see her loneliness and distance from
me and the
world. She is strong and in the 'proving' but there
is that distance.
Mind 08:XX:XX 04 Spent the day shopping (about four
hours) with my friend and was very focused.
Mind 08:XX:XX 04 (Supervisor): I think I am
embarrassed that I have these feelings, for some reason I shouldn't have these
Mind 08:XX:XX 05 On beach today, wanted to go in
water with bra and underwear, just didn't care.
But didn't want to embarrass my two boys and the
water was also too cold. Normally I wouldn't even think about doing something
like that. I am more introspective, don't care how she looks like.
Went out without any make up the last few days.
Normally always put on at least a little bit of make up.
(Supervisor: like yesterday she sniffles during the
phone call, no sneezing this time).
Mind 09:23:00 02 Someone yelled outside on the street
as if in extreme distress. Followed by other voices, so it didn't seem
necessary to investigate.
Mind 09:XX:XX 05 The quietness is kind of gone. Only
feel quiet with husband, don't want to stir things up. Usually I don't give a
shit and just say what I want to say.
Mind 10:XX:XX 02 Supervisor--(Asked if influenced by
Hale Bop?) been thinking a lot about staying tuned into higher forces-to be
positive different chakras. 2 petals
lotus-between eyes-ego-antennae, staying in tune,
tuning into things you need to know. Thinking about these things, don't know if
it has to do with proving, if it is proving view it is as
curative, spent many years on auto-pilot, whatever
comes up, I let it take over, I've never felt like being in charge of my being,
"this is what I am going to do, this is my belief." Never
felt I had enough information or knowledge to make
these decision, in the absence of that, come what may, see what comes up, and
see where it takes you. Have decided that is not the way
to go, a lot of chaos in the world, a lot of
parasitic entities, without some structure/higher guidance things aren't going
to fall into place. Just for the heck of it, it could happen and sometimes it
does, when young, it happen automatically.
Mind 10:XX:XX 03 Grieving for my sister and her limitation.
I thought I was done with this emotion. I feel sad deep inside my heart for her
Mind 10:XX:XX 04 I do miss D. (could be one of the
reason's why I am lonely).
Mind 10:XX:XX 04 (Supervisor): Working so intensely;
sometimes I feel all my failures face me when I see my whole practice all
together. Haven't done my job quite right enough.
Mind 10:XX:XX 04 Happy most of the day. No
loneliness, better feeling of relating to people emotionally. Love my jog.
Mind 11:XX:XX 04 (in response to question from
supervisor): Feel I can connect with people now, can hug people.
Mind 12:XX:XX 03 Feel I'm processing something about
my sister. I have been thinking about her a lot. I'm not sure what's going on.
Not totally aware there was nothing I need
to work out. Things are coming up.
Mind 12:XX:XX 04 Very sad in the evening from about
20 h. to bed. Feel like I never get the love and affection I want and that I'm
not appreciated enough in my relationship
and in some past relationships.
Mind 13:XX:XX 04 I feel so bitter, sour, resentful of
Mind 13:XX:XX 04 Emotional yesterday and today. Cried
easily on occasion with clients. Got teary eyed.
Mind 13:XX:XX 04 (Supervisor): Can't think or talk to
anyone. Didn't want to talk or listen. Too much stimulation.
Mind 14:XX:XX 02 Woke shortly after dawn, thought
there was an earthquake occurring.
Mind 14:XX:XX 04 Most of the day felt like in limbo,
wanted to come home. Professional things happened. Strong.
Mind 14:XX:XX 04 Couldn't quite function mentally,
felt foggy all day, an odd sensation in my head that I couldn't quite connect
or get clear. Something felt in the way or held back.
Mind 14:XX:XX 04 Spent much of the day alone by
choice. Didn't really want or have the energy to talk to people. Felt maxed out
on concentration and listening to others (problems).
Mind 14:XX:XX 04 Feel free to go and do whatever.
Mind 14:XX:XX 04 Thinking got better as I spent time
with my brother by 19 h.
Mind 14:XX:XX 04 Loved going to the river and looking
at the flood. Loved walking by the river in the wooded areas and thinking about
the river. (River flood of Minnesota. Made
the front page of newspaper).
Mind 14:XX:XX 04 I could really connect with him
emotionally and mentally. Really enjoyed our time -- most enjoyable part of the
Mind 14:XX:XX 05 "Energy level?" This
morning broke down in tears. Asking: what am I doing wrong? Husband has no
compassion. He thinks he is doing all the work. I feel
really isolated right now. It is hard to be a health
care provider and being sick. It is just not fair to tell people about a
healthier way of living and not being healthy myself.
Mind 14:XX:XX 05 I know that in two weeks I will feel
much better. Last two days didn't feel at all like talking. Especially not to
talk about my sickness. When stuck in house, feel very dull.
Makes me feel insignificant. Love to talk to people.
Have to do that every couple of days at least.
Mind 15:XX:XX 04 I bought 'Into the Wild.' Morbid. I
read a short story about this a while back. I try to figure out his remedy. He
is odd. I'd seen it before and turned it away.
Mind 15:XX:XX 04 Relaxed and happy. Am noticing that
I have a higher level of patience (little things). Not so hurried. Don't feel
the 'edginess' (that I sometimes feel).
Mind 15:XX:XX 04 Relaxed, happy, higher level of
patience (little things). Examples: waiting in line or waiting for cars to go
at stoplight. Not so much "late" get going here.
Mind 15:XX:XX 04 Feel at ease, safe, less fearful.
Mind 16:10:30 02 Mouse intermittently dead (?)
working on computer. Mouse cursor freezes and won't move till computer is
Mind 16:11:00 02 Office neighbor
came in and asked me to fix his computer voice mail. His database of messages
had become corrupted and I was able to fix it by running a maintenance utility.
Mind 16:12:30 02 Got a flat tire (right rear) while
taking children from school to day care. Cold worsening throughout the
Mind 16:XX:XX 04 Would love to be away from the city
and camping somewhere near a lake or the ocean with no noise or cars. Also
wanted to go on a road trip with my friend, maybe to Four Corners area to buy jewelry.
Mind 16:XX:XX 04 As soon as I am in nature the more I
feel the tingling, see of grounding, and much more peacefulness.
Mind 16:XX:XX 04 (Supervisor): That see (of
connectedness with nature) is just there, Perhaps the remedy hit my weak point.
Perhaps I just never knew I had asthmatic tendencies?
Respiration 14:XX:XX 05 Yesterday taking deep breath
there was this squeak at the end of inhaling. Never had anything like that.
Cough much deeper and more productive. Fever < 16 – 18 h.,
lying down, after sleeping a while. Fever was at
Respiration 15:XX:XX 05 Felt OK waking up. After
taking tea, melon, vit C and Zinc, had to cough so
badly almost threw up. Gagging cough. I got ash with and felt really sick.
Driving son to school, still as white.
Respiration 15:XX:XX 05 Lungs feel cleaner or perhaps
deer? Couldn't breathe. Felt like I have emphysema. Felt like lying down, just
took it easy. Had to lie down at 14 h.
Have a little fever. I was just too exhausted from
Respiration 15:XX:XX 05 Cough starts with tickle in
throat now and is spasmodic. I can feel mucous all the way down to stomach.
Lungs are so heavy, feels as if they touch stomach, full of mucous.
Feels like emphysema. How can people keep smoking
when they have that?
Definitely worse thinking about symptoms.
Respiration 16:XX:XX 05 Now can hold it for a few
minutes before I have to cough. For last few days cough so unproductive. Neck
Respiration 16:XX:XX 05 Yesterday nothing changed.
Kept coughing, very productive. Can't smell breath but I know it smells
What is coming out of my lungs is greenish flemish yuki. Breathing better;
constricted feeling and wheezing is gone. Was coughing through night, had to
get up to spit out stuff.
Skin 05:XX:XX 05 All are painful, sore, like a
bruise. Feel like a witch (laughs).
Skin 05:XX:XX 05 Splinter in left hand, was normal at
15 h., not all read around it, swollen, painful. In palm, little nick, all red
around it, swollen. Hurt back of right leg today, feels like puncture wound,
feels bruised all around it. All these little nicks
look like they could get infected. Did I get...(disease from dirty wounds).
Pimple on chin, huge, red, will have to pop it. Something is up with healing
Skin 05:XX:XX 05 Pimples on right side of face.
Really big, bad ones. Red swelling pain, had to pop it tonight. Wasn't there at
15 h., by 20 h. had to pop it.
Skin 06:XX:XX 04 (Supervisor): Skin looks terrible;
blotchy, pale, still grey.
Skin 06:XX:XX 04 (Supervisor): Skin is terrible, have
pimples. Don't look as grey today.
Skin 08:XX:XX 04 (Supervisor): Skin looks terrible,
pimples on face and chest. Don't feel as if I look as old and grey (has to be
the cream I'm using).
Skin 16:XX:XX 04 Skin somewhat better, but still
Sleep 00:01:30 03 Woke up between 1 and 1:30 h. 2
nights, no symptoms. First and second day of proving.
Sleep 01:XX:XX 04 Didn't want to go to bed early last
night Staying up much later.
Sleep 03:XX:XX 05 Sleep very well and deep. Wake up
with good energy.
Sleep 04:XX:XX 04 D says I've been tossing and
turning at night. Flipping over and back. Have no see of it and am sleeping
Still don't want to go to be and stay up even if I'm
Sleep 05:XX:XX 04 Woke up, had been sleeping soundly,
no see of anything during the night. It was like I slept and fell into a deep
Sleep 05:XX:XX 04 Sleep so soundly at night I don't
even feel like I dream - no see of any dreams on waking.
Sleep 06:XX:XX 04 Slept hard last night. No dreams.
Almost had one, or a bit of one.
Sleep 08:XX:XX 05 The last two nights, very restless
sleep. Woke up really, really tired. This morning, woke up at 5:30 am and felt
like I had no sleep at all. More tired than usually. Like drugged head,
wishing I could just keep my eyes closed. It feels
like I am not getting enough sleep, even so I sleep a lot. The dreams are like
processing all night.
Perhaps I am hyper vigilant to remember my dreams.
I'm trying so hard.
Sleep 13:XX:XX 04 Tossed and turned all night.
Disturbed by dream and flipping around.
Sleep 16:XX:XX 05 Slept very well last night. Woke up
rested for the first time in a few days.
Sleep 16:XX:XX 05 Sweating in bed at night still.
Felt clammy in morning. No fever.
Sleep 19:XX:XX 04 Woke feeling very well, like I had
an excellent nights sleep.
Sleep 24:XX:XX 04 Woke startled as from a dream, but
couldn't remember even dreaming. Not scared but suprised.
Stomach 00:05:30 03 Sharp twinge in stomach, one inch
below sternum. Less than 2 seconds in duration.
Stomach 00:XX:XX 05 Pain underneath left side of rib
cage. From middle of that side to the side. Size of a quarter. Deep inside.
Felt like a gas bubble or constriction. People had
this in ruby proving. It might be a nerve, no not an
Stomach 01:04:00 03 Woke up by the sensation of very
fine pain jabbing me from inside of my body. Upper right quadrant of torso.
Under my ribs possibly large intestine. Lasted
several minutes, when it was over I fell back to
Stomach 02:XX:XX 05 Hungrier than usual. 1-2 hours
after eating, have to eat again. Would like to blame my craving for ice cream
on proving, but I don't think so.
Stomach 04:12:30 03 Stomach has a dull burn after
eating grapes this morning. Then again this afternoon after eating crackers.
Stomach 05 05 Still very,
very hungry. One hour after eating a big meal, feel famine. Have to eat. No
special cravings except chocolate and sweets, but I always crave these. Now it
is more extreme. Sneak
in to my kids left overs
from Easter and eat their chocolate. Hunger more intense than a few days ago.
Stomach 05:XX:XX 04 Thirsty today. Can't quench my
Stomach 06:XX:XX 05 Hunger. Sure eat a lot more than
usual. Perhaps this is where the digestive stuff comes from.
Stomach 07:00:30 03 A quick, about 10 seconds, needle
like, sharp sticking sensation/movement in lower left intestine area. It was
the same feeling but larger as before in the stomach.
Stomach 08:XX:XX 05 Prevalent hunger. Not as
voracious as the other days. Starts to go back to normal. Breast still tender.
I hope I'm not pregnant.
Stomach 10:XX:XX 04 One bout of nausea for ½ hour.
Stomach 11:22:00 04 Slept from 19 - 22 h. Got up and
ate several crackers with peanut butter. Nausea better.
Stomach 13:XX:XX 04 Appetite decreased.
Stomach 14:XX:XX 04 Lost desire for ice cream,
sweets, cheese puffs. Indifferent to them now.
Stomach 14:XX:XX 04 Particular about food. Nothing
appealed and had to think hard to think of something to eat and when I did
decide food was very satisfying.
Stomach 20:XX:XX 04 Noticed I wanted spicy food.
Especially Mexican. Had it today and yesterday.
Stomach 21:XX:XX 04 Noticed 2 things about food.
Eating eggs; I could eat one every morning. Think about eating deviled eggs and egg salad. Want Mexican food; spicy and
with hot sauce and chips.
Stomach 34:XX:XX 05 Today and day 35, digestion fine,
empty feeling in stomach. Want to nibble on stuff. Nurturing food. Mommy stuff.
Even so I just ate.
Stool 09:XX:XX 02 Stool not complete; incomplete
Stool 13:XX:XX 109 Stool looser and thinner than
partial stool, didn't all come out.
Stool 18:23:00 02 Urging to stool, however
incomplete. Inability to evacuate despite prolonged straining.
Stool 21:XX:XX 02 Supervisor: Stools a little
different, smaller, tending towards softer.
Teeth 18:17:30 02 Searing pain in upper right bicepse
Throat 00:XX:XX 04 Have a sensation just below my
throat pit like a constriction but not quite, and a see that I am almost going
to have to cough or that I can't breathe.
Throat 04:XX:XX 04 Thick feeling in my throat. A
fullness also feels somewhat mucousy, slightly
swollen cervical glands.
Throat 05:XX:XX 04 (Supervisor): Woke up with thick
feeling in throat, fullness, little mucousy, slightly
swollen glands. Didn't turn into anything. No problem with swallowing.
Thickness, fullnes, no
modalities, lasted an hour. I still have swollen
Throat 07:08:30 02 Some soreness of throat. On
inspection, OS uvula is inflamed and elongated. (Noted at extraction that uvula
will get enlarged with acute sore throats.)
Throat 15:08:30 02 Throat is somewhat sore. Uvula is
OS swollen and inflamed, hanging down.
Throat 15:XX:XX 04 Woke with sore throat and swollen
gland. Hurt to swallow. Gone in an hour.
Throat 15:XX:XX 04 Went to bed thinking I might get
sore throat again.
Throat 16:XX:XX 02 Woke with stinging pain the back
of the throat (area of uvula) several times during the night.
Throat 16:XX:XX 04 Woke with sore throat again and it
felt very bad with swollen gland and feeling in the throat and chest of mucus
developing. The worst of the throat
went away by 10:00 h, but still fell like I'm
fighting something in that area.
Throat 17:XX:XX 04 Feel like I'm getting a cold. Have
congestion in my throat with mucus and keep having to clear my throat. Some
Throat 18:XX:XX 04 Mucus in throat.
Throat 19:XX:XX 04 I was excited about going. My
throat is no longer sore, but still mucus.
Throat 20:XX:XX 02 Feel like something is swollen on
the sides of my throat when I swallow.
Throat 21:23:00 04 Got hoarse for about ½ hour.
Seemed like I'd lose my voice but didn't. Had a disagreement with D and when we
were talking about it my voice started giving way. Mild cold symptoms, but no
Throat 22:XX:XX 04 No sore throat but some sneezing
and slight running nose. Doesn't make me feel sick.
Throat 22:XX:XX 04 Got hoarse again for about ½ hour.
No sore throat.
Throat 26:XX:XX 05 Sore throat on left side when I
swallowed. Cold feel limbs. Tight and swollen on external throat. All went away
by evening. Ache, so tight in neck on left side. Today (day 26) still tight in
throat, still swollen, like size of a small M&M. Lymph node was swollen.
Urine 10:XX:XX 02 Thought that my urine smelled
Vision 03:XX:XX 04 My visual perception moved upward.
Vision 03:XX:XX 04 (Supervisor): First of all, where
I looked was different. I looked up, higher up. The arteries of leaves. The
vision part of it was soft but noticeable.
Vision 05:13:00 02 Patter of light visible behind
eyelids before falling asleep.
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